I just want to get this off my chest
Okay so I don't know how to start this...
About a year ago I showed a person online a selfie of me for the first time. I was basically pressured into doing so because he threatened to never talk to me if I didn't show him my face. I sent him one, and he called me ugly. It hurt my feelings a lot because he just straight out said it to me, when he knew I was very self conscious in sending him a selfie anyways.
But anyways, that was the beginning of my story. I was going through facebook, when I saw a very pretty girl from my school. I was thinking something along the lines of "hey! she's really pretty, why not pretend that's me for a while?" Looking back on it it was completely stupid. But a saved a photo and posted it on a website. The pic got comments like "omg you're so pretty!'' and stuff like that. I was like "why not just keep this up for a little while? it's completely harmless." And that's what I did. I got completely obsessed. I used other peoples pictures, other social medias, made friends through them, etc etc.
It got to the point where I was checking their social medias everyday for new photos.
One day, I started to feel guilty and deleted all the apps off of my phone and just cried. I cried because I'm stupid. I cried because I'm disgusted. I cried because when everyone was being honest with me, I was lying to them. I cried because I was so fed up with myself. I cried because if I told anyone, they would think I'm crazy. H***, I even think I'm crazy now.
I know what I did was wrong, and I'll never forget it. I just can't seem to tell anybody.