Life is conflicting

I really wanna do well for my parents. They have raised me up and worked so hard for me to get a good education. I have great parents and they have given me an amazing amount of love. I have great friends and they have gave me amazing amount of support and have let me feel comfortable. I have a really awesome life. But for some f****** reason I can't seem to love it. I know that if I keep up my hard work I am gonna end up well in a good job and a good life and meet a good husband. But again for some f****** reason I don't want any of it. I might sound like someone who can't appreciate life but I do love life but all the things I want to do in life being ME. Wanting to do well for my parents and wanting to be ME can't ever seem to cross paths. I wanna explore and do all sorts of things. I wanna accomplish all my sexual fantasies and do things that I like. For some reason I don't want that good life. I want a life where I can be me. To choose the path of having a good life means I have to sacrifice all the things I wanted to do being me. It f****** sucks because I feel so caged in, in this society of customs and certain paths.

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  • Your parents created YOU and therefore must accept YOU for YOU. They don't have a choice. Your life is not theirs. But I don't think it's a problem of what your parents will or won't accept about you. It sounds more like it's an issue with what you are holding yourself back from for fear that you will in some way disappoint them by being yourself. You were obviously raised in a very loving environment and therefore didn't find a need to really rebel against anything and ended up becoming stuck in the perfect child stereotype you created for yourself. You should dig deep into your psyche, eat some mushrooms to get there if necessary, unlock that chest you have buried within, and pull out every last remnant of your identity and show the world what you are truly made of. Unfurl the neglected banner of YOU!

  • Omg thank you so much. This hit me real hard. :'). Thanks a lot :)))))

  • You're welcome! I think more people need to be willing to overthrow the social norms without sacrificing integrity. Just remember that once you accept yourself for who you are, everyone else will accept you as well. I wish you nothing but the best in your journey of self discovery!

  • Love and respect your parents. Follow your dreams. Enjoy s**. It's all a part of life.

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