Not sure anymore
Me and my husband have been very up and down recently but i have been trying to make him feel loved by giving him kisses and cuddles but I get brushed off and get a pec on the lips if I am lucky. Anyway we went out out for the first time in almost 3 years (dont class my birthday drinks as going out out as we were back at hotel before 1 am and that was after walking from the town to hotel iin heals) we went out drinking and dancing which was fine but he hardly spoke to me and kept slapping a couple of his work friends ass's (we were ment to be out celebrating his new job still doing what he wants just closer and better for the future) I just felt a bit of a spare part probably partly due to me putting on some weight but I have been bigger and he loved then but it has been a week since we had s** (which is not long I know) and a few days since we have even been able to cuddle properly. I have talked to him about what he did on the night out and how insecure it made me feel but I just got sorry wont happen again but we have been here before when the cleaner said he had smacked her ass with a wet tea towel and now I just feel like I going round in circles and even more insecure. I just feel so low and lost.