I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO
I'm 21 yes old recently becuase of life situations I had to move out of our family home with my mom and go on with life with my 2 brothers. The area we love is high in crime from rape, to drive byes, shootings, armed robberies, home invasions, kidnapping you name it, narcotics etc. we're renting out a mobile home from a friend of my moms. I quit my jobs to peruse a career start school in fall. A few weeks ago our power went out for wrong wiring. So I couldn't charge my phone in the outlets my mom had just left to work @ 4:00am midst of the crime where it can still happen. At around 3:00am before that I went out to my car to charge my phone 📱. As I was in the car a escapade with rims and dark tinted windows passed by fast. As soon as it noticed my head lights on from opening my car from the stop sign I seen the truck hit the reverse lights on and come on back, my heart pounded I didn't know if I should stay in the car or
Go back inside . So I calmed down and said well I just came to charge my phone I have nothing to hide I'm minding my bussiness. So I held back from running inside and slowly and calmly walked inside and up the stairs locked the door and my heart began to race. Before that there were gun shots constantly around 1am. Everyone was asleep. Our mobile home is gated which calms me a bit . On my way back inside I walked into my room where my gf was asleep, I noticed bright headlights pointed straight at my window I couldn't look outside or they'd see my shadow my heart was racing I was going through my head wondering what I did wrong. Thy stayed pointing there high beam lights through my windows for a good 2-3 minutes. They reversed back and left.... I stopped being paranoid but still don't go out late always close the gate when I leave. Walk my mom outside when she leaves to work and make sure to call her make sure she's okay that's how bad it is over here. I'm. Instantly checking all windows. But I have 2 dogs so that keeps me calm . I haven't been able to sleep since that night wondering when they'll wrap a bullet through my head or if their planning a home invasion. I'm scared I haven't told my family becuase I'm just scared. I get bad panic attacks but because money issue and we can't afford to rent anything else we can't move, especially now that I'm starting college in a few weeks. I have a Chrysler 300 with dark windows when we first moved here I got stopped a lot from the cops but then I noticed why. Drug dealers and black people use these cars a lot & smuggle drugs. Since then I've told my mom why not sell this cars it's only brought problems after another. Just last night I couldn't sleep again. I heard and remember the sound of the escapade it was them they did the same thing as if they were trying to remember where I lived. They got the stop sign then reversed quickly paused infront of my gate and seen someone get off the neighborhood dogs were loudly non stop barking all of them about 10 of them. I couldn't look too closely because they'd see me but I seen them take pictures of my blacked out 300 , my heart was beating I was thinking what I could do but I did nothing everyone was asleep. This time I heard they sat there for a good 4-5 minutes hen they dashed and left. Nobody comes out being majority of the people here have land dogs and guns. They know they are the neighborhood gang bangers. I hate my car it grabs too much attention but my parents got it for me when I was 15 appreciate! I had to choose between school or working now I'm starting to double think and really don't know what to do tell my gf let's move out work and forget about school I'm scared I might be a trigger to them. I don't sleep I toss and turn and think the worst. What do I do? Any advice ? Please help. I can't back down from school now, but the area here is bad especially since this happened that nobody knows about. Since I've gotten stopped it's becuase my car I see how the cops look at it but then they see this 21yr old nerd with a tie and glasses they let me go. I can't live like this I honestly fear for my life constantly watching the news , crimes around the area are bad I get alerted daily for new crimes throughout the night through crime watchers app and website..