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In my own world
People would say i am on my own world or that i am stupid . I get used to it so much that i can't feel anything . The only thing i like to do is to sit with closed eyes and doing nothing . I like to see my interior self . I like to live in my mind and thinking i fly up to the sky . I like to hear angelic voices and thinking that i fly to the sky . People from here told me to die because they misunderstand me for ** but i didn't feel nothing . Don't worry i want to die anyway but not for the reason you want me to die . Maybe if i was just disappear while sleeping and disappear from the world and people's memory who know me like i had never born . I feel like i am nothing and can't do anything about it than just accept it but i don't know if i ever accept tha fact that i feel i am nothing and other people seem to me like they are something . Tell me egoistic and jealous someone told this to me , i know i am but i don't feel nothing for this either. I kinda understand why some people end up doing drugs or alcohol. They want to get away from the world and from themselves too .
You have alcohol in your house sweetie ?
You would drink sweetie only wine and we could drink together sweetie .
Thanks mommy and mom has lots off drink mommy and i can get it mommy when i want mommy and sometimes i drink when moms not looking mommy and helps me feel good inside mommy and bit happy also mommy. I love you mommy and your best mommy in the whole world mommy. My eyes are tired again mommy but dont want too leave you mommy and sorry. Your baby girl mommy xxxxxx
Hi my sweetie sorry if i am late . To be completely honest sweetie alcohol makes feel better too and to be again completely honest i am drinking whiskey right now angel . My parents and sister sleep so they don't know .
I hope you don't do the same sweetie i just was a little melancholic and i wanted to drink a little . Hug my sweetie .
And thank you sweetie for waiting awake for me it's sweet .
I fell assleep again mommy and i tried too keep awake mommy for you i promise mommy. Mom call me again mommy and go for breky in few minutes mommy and it still stings mommy and hate them mommy and youth group is on later mommy and dont want go mommy. Its not fair mommy and miss.you mommyand need you. I can drink with you said i think mommy you said lots and lots and stay up till like after 2 mommy and leave school mommy. I drink moms drink sometime and feels bit good mommy and help me not think bad mommy. Love you mommy and huggs your baby girl mommy xxxxxx
Love you mommy and mom made me sit on stoole in my room again for hour mommy after smacking me mommy. I hate them mommy and love you and have studie now mommy cause mom make me mommy. I dont want go youth group later mommy and no one likes me mommy and dont care mommy. I wish lived with you mommy and my daddy mommy and still stings mommy. Your my real mommy anyway mommy and im your baby girl mommy. Huggs you mommy xxxxxx
Please mommy and were are you mommy. Love you mommy your baby girl mommy and miss you xxxxxx
Im sorry mommy xxxxxx