Are we even now?
In a twisted turn of events I cheated on my husband but feel I made it up to him even if he doesn't know about what I did.
For my bachelorette party some friends and I went to Vegas and they booked a suite and brought in male dancers, I ended up in a separate room getting a "Private show" and it went way too far which included me and him having s**, I came home totally distraught over what I had done and was contemplating telling him but couldn't get up the nerve.
On our wedding night we ended up in a hot tub with some friends and my bridesmaids, There was some flashing and groping but eventually everyone decided to bail and let us be alone, All except my cousin who was one of my bridesmaids and didn't get the hint, It was just the three of us in the hot tub and I was naked, My husband was naked but we were both staying under the water and she was just in a thong and her bustier, She is not a small chested girl to start with (DD) and with the bustier I knew she was catching my husbands attention.
I know it was totally my guilt that caused it but I right away thought that if I got her to do something with him that would make us even, I talked her into taking off her bustier which wasn't that difficult and soon we were all sitting up with our upper bodies exposed, She said it wasn't fair and my husband stood up, I pushed him toward her and started urging her to touch him, It didn't take long and there I was watching my cousin suck my husband, He kept looking at me and I kept telling him to go ahead and pretty soon I was standing beside him kissing him and watching him bang my cousin as she sat on the edge of the hot tub leaning back against the wall.
We did finally consummate our marriage that night, After my husband got off with her there was a short period of awkwardness before she left the room and we crawled into bed.
I am not happy about either situation but are we even now?