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I feel like a monster
Since I was told I had autism, my condition apparently got worse because I became too aware of things, like germs and stuff. A few years ago, I had a relative who stayed with us and she became a disgusting s** deviant, and she left, but I became too concerned as to every time I touch a surface, there’s a disease left by her because she refused to wash clothes or herself.
Fast forward that to present day, and apparently I cannot voice anything to my mother because when I do, she throws a hissy fit and sulks for the rest of the day or week (I always wondered where I got my overly sensitive side from) and my dad is too much of a little kid and a snitch to talk about stuff.
So I cannot talk about my thoughts (like please stop using my chair as a bin or coffee table when you can walk to the bin or use your own chair which is end to a table!) or (I don’t feel safe thanks to your ex’s current wife being a lunatic claiming the FBI is gonna look for her ‘why?’ and resulting in us running around the city to relocate her ‘again why?’ and a night walker walked past my dad’s car and I got freaked out and locked the doors because I didn’t want to get kidnapped.)
and my mother’s response when I bring these issues up is ‘she’s gone now so get over it. There’s nothing to worry about. Sorry sweetie, can’t put a bandaid over that, damage is done!
I feel like I have to bottle every single thing up, and it infuriates me. I should be able to talk to people without upsetting them into behaviour g like a 2 year old or mocking me because they seem to like behaving like a little kid. I don’t get a say in anything anymore nor do I like myself because they make me feel like I’m bad.
And autism has to do with this how, aside from you wanting special treatment? You came to the wrong place for that, twist-brain
My wife has had a diagnosis recently and things are very different it might be good to talk, because there is so much I wish to understand myself?