I’m so sorry
*this is extremely vulgar* so something happened when I was young and I really messed up. I can’t remember most of my childhood but I came across a post ab people using animals to pleasure them selves and I was immediately repelled because that is awful. I suddenly got a memory of my dog licking my genitals, I’m litterally nauseous typing that out. I’ve been crying and breaking down because of this I feel so horrible I would never ever think to do that and I hate myself for this so much. I keep making the excuse that I was young and didn’t know better but that’s not valid and that’s not normal for any age. It makes it so much worse that I’m the type of person to preach about consent but my dog didn’t consent? I’m sick to my stomach at the fact that there was a point in my time I thought that was okay. I don’t know if I can live with myself. I feel like I don’t deserve to be loved or be happy. And honestly I feel like that’s true. I came on here for advice but I don’t deserve it. I want to ignore it and move on but I genuinely don’t think I deserve to be happy. I don’t know why I did that and why I thought that was okay, I’ve changed a lot since then but I literally have no excuse to justify this. I don’t know what to do. I’m still young. I’m a teenager and I’m so disgusted with myself. If anyone replies to this trying to tell me what I did was okay then I will not listen, if you’re into that stuff than you should be living with guilt like me. I am a horrible person. Im always trying to help people I’ve always considered myself a kind person so why? Why did this happen? How was that kind? I’m sorry you had to read this.