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I binge at night. When my family is asleep I come downstairs and I eat. I eat as much as I can. I stuff myself like a pig and it's why I'm fat. It's why my face is round and I have a double chin. It's why I can't fit into normal sized clothes or chairs with arms. Its why I can't run or go up a flight of steps without breaking into a sweat. I binge and it feels so good and it's destroying my body. Sometimes when I find a new stretch mark or outgrow another pair of pants I feel ashamed and I'll want to punish myself for being such a gross fat pig, so I'll eat even more until it hurts. I feel out of control and scared. I repulse myself and feel turned on all at the same time. I hate this about me but I don't want to stop. I want to see how far I will go. How out of control will I get? How fat? How unhealthy? I think I need help, but I want to know what will happen if I don't get it. I'm honestly terrified that I feel this way because I'm doing it. Every night I'm doing it to myself. I'm gorging on junk and watching it manifest itself all over my big heavy growing body. I'm actively ruining my body. Internally with massive doses of fat sugar and salt. I can feel my health slipping away, but what excites me is the visual manifestation of that. I can see the damage I'm doing. The shameful excessive gluttony is visible and obvious and getting worse every day. I barely recognize myself in the mirror. Who is this fat disgusting blob? I've changed so much. Grown so much. My features distorted by fat. My limbs thick and heavy to lift, my hips wide, my waist gone - overwhelmed with flab that forms tire-like rolls that hug me and hang down to my cellulite covered thighs. I'm grotesque. Obese. That is what I did. That is me and more and more it is all I am as i slip deeper and deeper into this morbid endeavor. There is so much of me now and I am almost gone.
Hi. Yes everything is OK. Sorry I haven't been on in a while. Just been down in the dumps lately. I've still been stuffing myself like a total hog though. I'm up to 518. How about you?
Keep going ladies. My gorgeous wife has put on more weight. 815lbs now.
Awe, I’m sorry to hear that you haven’t been feeling so great, but it’s good to hear that you’re still growing. I’m up to 478 lbs now. Hope you get to feeling better! The holiday season is here, and that means stuffing ourselves silly!
It’s been a while since I’ve been here, and it looks like you haven’t been here in a while either. I hope you’re doing okay. I’ve gotten past 500 now. The holidays were good to me, lol.
Hey congrats on joining the quarter ton club! We're very exclusive and only accept the greediest of pigs. I am up to 536 and can't begin to describe how huge and out of shape I am feeling. It is getting really hard to get around now but I can't stop. How are you doing with your mobility?
It’s so good to see you here again. It had been so long I was getting a little worried. I’m up to 506 lbs today. Moving around is harder, I walk with a very pronounced waddle, haha! I just can’t believe how big and round and HEAVY my belly has become, and it drives me wild. I basically spend most days completely ** and stuffing myself silly. It’s indescribable how huge I feel when I’m full to the brim and then some. I can’t stop either.