It’s more of a confession/seeking help & opinion post!
I cannot stop thinking about losing my virginity and it’s getting brutal. I wouldn’t want to just hookup, but I’m also NOT looking for a relationship. I feel I’m starting to create way to many expectations about what’s supposed to be like, or feel like or whatever... that I think it’s more than time to get it over with. Also, touching myself hasn’t been working for ages now.
I’m 27, never had a boyfriend. No, I’m not a prude, in fact I’m the total opposite, and no, I am NOT waiting for ‘the one’; but I did decide to focus on my studies over the years. I’m very a very social person but was very insecure about feeling or looking attractive. I’ve tried some dating apps so far and have quite the displeasing experiences, in one I was assaulted.
I have no experience with a guy whatsoever. I have no idea how to behave in a situation like that, I’d be looking at the person waiting to tell me what to do.