Confused about my feelings

I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for a little over three years now. It has been a really good three years with him. He treats me well and makes me feel good about myself. He knows more about me than anyone else in the world. I truly do believe I love him. But there is some feeling that I just can’t shake. Like I long for something just a bit more. I don’t think I wanna be with someone else because every time I think about not having him in my life anymore, I feel so much pain in my heart. But when I read love stories and hear about others finding love, I have an intending longing. Nothing makes me more excited than a good romantic love story where the feelings start off slow and they work their way up to love. The little moments get me excited the most. Like when the fingers touch while you’re handing them something, or you notice their gaze lingers on you a bit longer than normal. Those moments give me the most wonderful feeling in my heart. The butterflies in your stomach when you start to like someone and you think they may like you back. I love that so much. And I remember having these feelings when I was younger. I remember the little moments have had my heart all a flutter. But when my boyfriend and I first got together, we rushed into it very fast. There was no courting phase or crush phase even. We had s** the first date and he asked me three more times before asking me to be his girlfriend. And I believe I did have some of those exciting feelings in the beginning, but it feels so long ago that I can’t really remember. Now, even though he makes me so happy and I’m content doing whatever with him, I don’t have many feelings of excitement. I don’t get butterflies. Maybe this is just what happens when you’re together so long, or maybe I just read to many romantic love stories. Or maybe he’s not my forever person. I just don’t know... And my best friend tells me I just need to talk with him and tell him how I feel but I just don’t believe he would truly understand and I’m afraid he may just take it the wrong way and we might just get into an argument and say things we don’t mean. I don’t want to say goodbye to him but I also don’t want to live the rest of my life never feeling those butterflies again.... Anyone have any advice or going through/gone through a similar thing?

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