I'm going to unalive myself soon in a hotel room
I've purchased a chemical substance which I won't name, but is very lethal. I've decided that January/February will be the best time for my death. I'm honestly hoping that the hotel room I rent has hidden cameras, because I want to be seen when I die, similar to how old people sometimes have family around them at their time of death. Im a 21 year old male, and I'm honestly pretty happy to leave everything behind. I'm not happy about the circumstances that led me to want to do this, but I'm happy that everything that worries me will be gone. I want my death to be a religious/spiritual experience. There will be lots of meditation before I go ahead with my decision, and I will set everything up in a ceremonial fashion.
I'll post a graphic depiction of a keyhole on the wall behind the hotel bed, and I'll have a small monolith in front of the bed. The width:length:height ratio of the monolith will be 1:4:9, which represent the squared values of the first 3 counting integers. The actual dimensions will be something like 3 inches thick, 12 inches wide, and 27 inches tall. This is to recreate a scene from the movie, "2001: a Space Odyssey". Anyways, I've already spoken way too much. I'll catch everyone on the other side.
You're going to miss the best part of your life story!! If you close the book before it's done.
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