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I am a victim of Addiction and Manipulation
I am currently 26 and autistic, but this took place when I was 19. I was online on a role-playing app recommended to me by a friend and around this time I was in an online relationship with a great girl from Colorado who was one year younger than me. I was role-playing in a server one day when I ended up in a private role-play with another girl, I’ll call her E for short. We talked about our interest and what we do outside of the app, I learned that she was 15 and we’d really just had normal conversations until the topic of my GF came up and I told you that my GF was avoiding me and not really wanting to talk outside of the RP app.
He went on to say that my GF at the time didn’t really trust me or maybe she was hiding something and then I should confront her if she’s not willing to talk to me. When I confronted my GF, she revealed that she didn’t fully trust me, even though I didn’t give her a reason not to when I was being kind and patient since she couldn’t be on the app all the time. We broke up and I was an emotional wreck for a few days while he was role-playing with me and offering words of kindness. She then started complementing me on my looks when I sent her a selfie upon her request. She said that I looked good and that if she were in the room with me at that time, she would give me a hug and never let me go. At the time I was flattered, and it felt nice to be complimented. Then she asked if I could be her boyfriend, and I was hesitant to even answer. At the time my brain was so confused, and further confusion was added when she sent a pic. I will just say it was an inappropriate one, and she was doing it on purpose to seduce me. That night I fell for that seduction, but a few days later, I snapped out of my fog and told her that what she did was wrong, and that it could ruin both of our lives, she apologize and told me that she understood and never saved anything from our conversation.
She wasn’t the only one to do that type of thing to me. Ever since 2019, I had been manipulated by people older, and unfortunately much younger than me into acting inappropriately for them or even almost doing some things that would have hurt my family members or our pets. But I pulled myself back from actually doing the things to my family or the pets.
I was groomed and manipulated by people slightly or even much older than me and also people who would be in their school years without me even realizing it. I became so addicted to ** online and text-based role-play that it desensitized me from what was going on.
I’ve since decided to kick that stuff out of my life. I realize now that I was a victim of compulsion thanks to ** addiction, and then manipulation by people online using those sites to pray on ** people like myself.
Please be safe online and know that anyone no matter how old could be a victim of that type of manipulation. I’m glad that I didn’t hurt anybody and that I know that I’m not a monster.
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