It's getting worse.
I have a thing for a guy that is completely inappropriate and I know that he and I should not be together.
I still want him. I see him every day, and this feeling is just getting stronger.
We don't flirt. We don't touch. But we talk. About everything. (except s**, that would be inappropriate)
Every so often his eyes will lock with mine and I just know that he's thinking the same thing I am.
Every so often I find myself giving him the old 'f*** me' smile. It's just a smile, but I know what it means. I don't even do it on purpose, he just turns me on.
I can't just stop seeing him, I see him every day. What am I going to do? I just want to kiss him so bad.
But he's married.
And this isn't about needing to get laid. I tried that (safely), you know, to get him off my mind. It didn't work.
What in the h*** am I going to do? I feel like if I could just have him once, it would get this out of my system. But I know that's not how it works in reality. That would just make me want it again. That would make it even worse than it already is.
But I want him. I guess I just don't get everything I want. But how do I stop wanting it?