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I am GAY, God HATES me!
Am I going to **? I have been a devout Russian Orthodox (similar to Roman Catholics) ever since I vvas a child. I vvas taught not to doubt & question the authority of the priest. VVhen I vvas in the 7th grade, I opened myself to my friends (came out the closet.) I vvas raised a conservative, but lately I have been "brainvvashed" to be liberal. Is it because I have been sinning? All I did vvas be myself, follovv my heart, be in love. But it all hit my head & forced my heart to a deep confusion & depression vvhen I asked the priest "VVhy is it vvrong to be gay?" & he responded to me that it is because "God hates the gays." I literally fell to my knees, cried out so hard my face blushed & I desperately begged for mercy. I later in the argument asked to prove to me in the Holy Bible vvhere it described God hating gays, or at least tell me vvhere to shovv me it reading that gay people vvill go to **. He got furious at me, yelling at me "blasphemy, you sinner!" He excommunicated me, spreading a rumour that I vvas having sexual relationships vvith a man in the church. Honestly, I did not but here is vvhere my depression comes. The priest told ALL the church, including my family this rumour. And this "man" that I supposedly had a sexual relationship vvith had completely shunned me. He told me he loved me. VVe kissed, vve romantically dated almost everyvvhere vve can think of. VVe partied, defended, & cared for eachother. & this is hovv it ends? Baby! Do not get religion betvveen us! Please ansvver my calls, text, e-mails. I am DESPERATE for your love. I cry every night, hoping that God forgive me for being vvho I am & vve rejoin. VVhy did you move? Might as vvell change your name since you are avoiding me so much. One question to God: "If I vvas not born gay, vvhy did you create me in this life? VVhy vvould I "chose" to be shunned & be an outcast to society? To the vvhole VVORLD! Everyone hates me. The schools, the public facilities, religion, my ovvn vvidovved mother vvho raised me ever since I vvas born to this cruel vvorld. I think of suicide EVERY night I lay my head on my ** bed. I bite my lips to hard making them bleed, vvhere you once so romantically kissed me. I have lost my mind! I am seriously lost. I have attempted to suicide, but it just hurts me knovving that there is someone out there hurting like me & vvaiting for me to shovv them my love. It is over. No one loves me. ** God.
last anonymous...you are a dumbass
I would encourage you to read about Jesus. Most of the time his rage and anger was directed towards the hypocritical religious leaders. It was the prostitutes, tax collectors, adulterers, and other sinners that he communed with and showered with love and compassion. It does say that homosexuality is a sin, but so is lying and gossiping. As humans we may rate one sin more evil than another, but God does not. Please, read what Jesus did and said. The hatred and rejection you are feeling may be more from those people that are trying to make you be more like them or who openly condemn you in the name of God. I wish I knew you. You need love, compassion, and true friendship. I'm so sorry that your "friends" and "loved ones" have failed you my precious one. Read John 4 about the Samaritan woman at the well. John 8 is about the woman who was about to be stoned for adultery. John is an excellent book. Please read it all. My heart goes out to you and I'm so sorry for your pain my brother.