Soo... yeah, had to let it out.
Its impossible. i fell for him, i wanted to fall for him though. its was an "Anyone but my ex" thing. so i fell for him. at first i only thought he was cute and the good kind of mean/sarcastic/funny, thats what held me to liking him. but now, i see more then that. i see how his soft hair brushes across his face when he looks over at me, i hear how he chuckles when i do or say something funny, i see more meaning in his texts and sentences then i know i should, i see how his big brown eyes looks when his gaze feels like hes looking straight into my heart, and etc etc... but its COMPLETELY impossible. he just broke up with his girl friend. it was really weird cause he came STRAIGHT to me after it. i comforted him, tried to get it out of his head, but it ended up with him telling me he knows i like him and he doesn't want me to go... that i make him feel better...???(rebound thing??)
hes also a senior. in sophomore. 17 & 15. hes going to leave next year. i hear about SOME relationships lasting and it going all good when it comes to that, but the thing is i seriously dont think his freedom will be willing to wait for my restrictions. :\
i feel consited now that i used a lot of "I"s, ha.. sorry.
just had to get that off my chest. thanks for reading i guess :]