Reluctant to Sleep
Many have asked me why I sleep so late, they call me an owl or a zombie and just laugh about it. I usually just laugh and play along.
I'd tell them that I'm up for no good reason but I guess I just realised that it's because I'm afraid of feeling alone. I don't quite know how that's related but I stay on the computer for as long as I can until I get too tired and then I go to sleep.
I stay online in hopes of someone interesting to come online to talk to. But when someone does talk to me online, I go all, "Meh" and find them too annoying to talk to and not bother. I find so many people too annoying, maybe the problem is just with myself but don't you ever feel like you don't care because some people are just not worth your time? So you don't bother about them? But have you ever come across a point when you just simply have all the time in the world now and just no one to talk to?
So what do you do? Suck it in and just talk to them?
They still far too annoying for you to care.
So what do you do?
What do I do?
I don't know.
I'm sad because all my friends whose company I do enjoy have left the country one-by-one. And now I'm left with no one but these idiots.
Hate this feeling.