I want a boyfriend ...
I can't take it anymore. I am 18 and have not had a single relationship nor nothing close to it. It's killin me knowing most of my friends have and I am a decent looking person, i have so much to offer but for some reason no one wants me. Most days im alright..but others i cry about it because if you cant get yourself a bf when your 18 good luck getting married.. I am scared that i will be single forever and i really want a boyfriend so that i can experience something, anything. I just want to be loved but it seems that every time i have a chance somehow i s**** it up. I just wish that things were easier because this is making me dread my life every day. It may seem stupid and small but when you want something really bad, and you have no control over it, it has the power to literally tear you apart.
Basically i fall for guys so easily because of this. The minute they show any interest in me i jump in head over heels because i get excited that this may be the 'one'. Its pathetic that i get all worked up over absolutely nothing because nothing ever happens. They always like one of my friends or someone else, always always always.
I really dont know how to handle this anymore and like i said its not like im anti social im so social i can get in front of a crowd and speak no problem.. i have the personality and i know that i catch eyes in a room but its like the minute they give me a chance i s**** it up i dont even know how!
Ugh what do i do i cant live like this anymore.. :(