I hate my fraternity, so I quit
I was in a fraternity and quit after 6 months. The whole time, I felt as if they never really liked me. They were not my enemies, but just never really hit me up to hang out. For the short time I was in it, I was being stressed out with texts and was giving away a lot of money that could've gone to school. I would always try to impress them and help them out but would never get anything in return. I think my bid was a mistake and though some tried, I was never really meant to be there.
The chapter itself was a real mess. The only reason I joined it was because they were one of the dopest frats my 1st & 2nd year. What I didn't know is that the people who made the frat as cool as it were graduating. So when I finished pledging, all the "active" members graduated. Now my chapter was stuck with a bunch of bros WAITING for things to happen rather than taking it upon themselves to do take the initiative. In meeting, our president would always ask for volunteers (to take out letters, organize a party, etc.) and there would just be dead silence. The parties we did throw were whatever because our fraternity was on probation for a serious fight that happened at our party. We had to attend mandatory sanction and safety meetings because of that fight.
Being an active was really no different than being a pledge. You still had to work your butt off responding to stressful texts saying "we need you to paint letters" and stuff like that. I hated how we would pay dues and not know where that money was going because it sure wasn't going to social events. I also hated how they had mandatory events with mandatory dress codes. Its worse than it sounds. Imagine going to a hip hop concert at your school with everyone chilling and relaxed and you're being dressed up as a bro because you have to represent the org and try to rush kids. I just want to listen to the music and chill.
What I really regret was how i dropped out. I didn't have the courage to step in front of 40 bros (psyched to start the quarter), and tell them that I didn't want to be a part of the fraternity anymore. I just stopped going to meetings and avoided seeing them on campus. What sucks now is having to look over my shoulder all the time because now I've built up this somewhat fear of them because I've been avoiding them for so long. Whenever I do see them on campus, i could see them laughing and talking behind my back. I'm not worried about this too much because I have only 6 months left in school and all this "hiding" only reflects what happens on campus. I can still go on dates and visit my friends. Any advise would be helpful so thanks.