My firs girl
She was 24, i was 16.
I met her and her boyfriend on a online game. We went to camping near their rural properties a few time (far from our home)
She kissed me in their car in a night there. I was too sleepie to understand.
After a few weeks i leaved my town for capital for staying at their flat, she kissed me again, the she masturbated with me.
I was to shy/close mind to know what to do. She just rubbed herself on me, me having an ** under underwear.
she did that everyday for 2 weeks, until i left their flat.
Her boyfriend which was a good guy and a friend, was 26 and he knew nothing about us. He just worked in that period.
We met again a few more times after and she kissed me every time when she had the chance.
after one year they got married and i was invited to be the one that keeps the candle, and i blamed myself for what i did.
And starting with that moment i tried to cut every connection with them.
But because i didn't manage to find a good reason to tell him about this obvious cut, sometimes i answer to him, and i feel so ** bad because i can't (don't want to) tell him about what me and his wife did.
This thing is my biggest secret and i cannot find a way to escape from it.. i cannot tell to anyone because all my friend know my deep connection with them..