I will never see my dad again, even though he is alive
Just over a year ago, the state decided to take my sisters children from her. My sister lived with my mom and dad. My dad had seen 12 other grand children lost to him over the years; through death or his children taking or giving them away. He did not want to lose his grand children. what he sis was stupid. he took a gun to the school, not to hurt children, but to save them. He wanted to keep his grand children, to keep them with him. It was really dumb. He wanted to save his grand babies. He died that day but got resuscitated. The last time I saw him was unconscious in the hospital. I remember him there, laid out and pale, a hole in his skull and his stomach cut open. Then I got custody of my sisters children. Yup, they are back with the family and living with me. The only problem, I did not get to see my dad when he woke up. I did not get to see my dad on my birthday, or thanks giving, or Christmas, his birthday or father's day. Today; they convicted him of attempted manslaughter. I am never going to see him again. I am going to raise my sister's children. My mom went into the psych hospital a few weeks back. I do not think I will ever get to see her again either; because there are four kids and they are not allowed to see their grandparents. My confession? I just want to give up. I want to cry and hide from te world. I did not get the kdis taken, i did not do something stupid. I spend every moment and every penny on kids who want their mom and not me. I never get to see my dad again, and probably won't see my mom much either. i jsut, don't even wanna try any more.