I married my wife in May, we got married fairly quickly. But I know she is definitely the one. I thought getting married would ease the feelings of wanting to take my life and turn around...But it didn't. I still hate myself every single day and i am ready to do it.
My gun is loaded and locked away, I'm not sure when I will do it...but it will happen. Maybe not today...but soon.
But the thought of leaving the most perfect girl absolutely kills me.
I don't know what to do.