Please read this!
To start off (because I'm probably gonna end up with a novel once I'm done writing this) I'm a 14 year old girl and have liked girls for as long as I can remember. I know I'm young and have a lot to learn about who I love- but I had never truly felt the butterflies in my stomach for a guy.
I am so fortunate to have such accepting friends and family who keep me and love me, even being the way that I am. I know that God loves me, no matter what- and NOBODY can say otherwise. No human being can speak for Him. I'm strong and can deal with any hate directed toward me.
I didn't CHOOSE this though. I don't it's completely understood that gay people don't necessarily want to be gay! When I figured it out, that I didn't want a boy, that I would never in this lifetime want their anatomy within 10 feet of myself, I cried and cried and cried. If I came out, I would be bullied, called cruel names, lose friends, teachers will see me differently, parents may not approve, the list goes on and on.
But if I didn't come out, I would still be miserable.
I would still be that quiet little goody-two-shoes who never really spoke her mind. The one who kept everything in a box- opinions, emotions. The girl with all of the wrong friends. Who felt an intense loyalty to everything she had been taught- that I was made WRONG.
I wasn't made wrong though! God created me the way He wanted me to be! He gave me a logical brain and a passion for music and intense loyalty and compassion! I was blessed with talents like singing and drawing!
These traits are what define me. My PERSONALITY. Sydner, Hunter, JOJO, Hope, Melly, Cat, Maddlers, and everyone else in the "cult" (it's an inside joke, not a serious thing- we were joking about our lunch spot) all understand and love who I am.
I love you guys so much, and can never thank you enough for staying by me! Thank you for letting me be myself completely, and recognising that I am the best I can be.
And thank you God for helping me realize that the closest to perfection I can get is by loving myself and being the best person I can be!
I love you all, forever!