Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant

My youngest daughter is like a lot of the others here.....she can't stay away from black men or stay off them. She says all the time that when a black man is trying to hook up with you he says things to you that makes you want to get **. And then she says that when he is ** you he says things that make you want his babies. She can't even help herself.

Haha,that just sounds ** - the way you put it. Does she have bi-racial kids yet?

She has one mixed baby so far and hes almost a year old. She thinks shes pregnant again now (so do I) but its too soon to test. This one will be for a different black father. She really can not help herself when shes around black men. It's like shes under a spell or something and just can not even control her urges for them. And somehow they all seem to know that. She says they can smell you and know how bad you want it and just how to ** you the way you need the **. I dont know if thats true or not but they do seem to all come around her and I know she cant say no. I also know she wants more all the time.

Did she learn from you or discovered the goodness oh her own?

I never went black, and neither did her sisters. But this child started talking about black men (and their equipment) LONG before she was old enough to have heard the talk about them or old enough to understand the power they have over some women. I'm not certain but I don't think she's ever even so much as been on a date with a white, asian or latin guy: she's ALL THE WAY black. And black men all seem to love her on sight, and they have loved her that way ever since she was little. It's like God made her for the black man.

....you need to teach your daughter that if she just ** the ** or takes it up the ** she wont get pregnant..............

When I was in high school I had a long term affair with one of my black teachers. He was married and in his 40s and we were in love. He wanted to impregnate me the entire time we were together but I never got off my bc. By the time I was a senior he finally moved on to a younger girl at the school and she got pregnant by him right away. Nobody knew that but me and the younger girl and him. I was so jealous. I wish now I would of MADE him knock me up. So my recommendation is that you go find a young girl because they are so so so so so so so so so so so eager and good to go. And most of them WANT the black babies. I was so stupid it hurts.

It actually hurts when I remember all the young girls I did not knock up decades ago when I had a chance. As they say,hindsight is 20/20. Is it too late for you to get knocked up now? I don't believe you were stupid,I think you were careful:)

So sorry but somehow I lost your location here which is why it took me so long to write back to you. Thank you for being so nice about my situation. Your right I was being careful and I thought it was what was best not only for me but for my black lover too. I was afraid we would get found out and he would lose his job especially if there was a baby involved. Somehow in the back of my mind I believed that we would wind up together once I was of proper age and he wasn't my teacher anymore. I never said that to him but I thought of it every day. So I was crushed when he started dating the young girl and was sooooooooo turned on her. AT first I thought he was just having some fun with her because of her age and that he would dump her. But instead of dumping her he dumped me. And then she immediately gave him what I hadn't: a bi-racial baby. The baby was beautiful but just the thought of it made me cry. And do you know the insane thing? All these years later when I think of that baby and that little girl he loved I start to cry all over again. I'm crying right now. I should of made that man impregnate me because it was what he wanted so bad and I should of given it to him. He deserved it and I hate myself for not being the one to give him what he wanted and needed and deserved so much. So, yes.......please go find yourself a very very very young girl and make her happy. Do that for me. PLEASE???

I wish there was something miraculous I could do to ease your pain. We live and learn. I continue to pray for a miracle for my craving and thanks for such encouraging words. My situation is most complicated by the fact that I recently moved in with a gf-and a very dedicated and sweet one at that. I find it harder to venture out and hunt. I am even terrified about how devastated she will be when she finds out ,some day,that I knocked up a lady while with her. But I doubt I will ever shelve my desire for a bi-racial child for any reason. I have tremendous hope and drive to achieve that goal. Best of luck to us all:)

**, brother! I am a 44yo black man, married to a black woman, and I have ALWAYS thought that I get a lot of white **, particularly the married variety. But after reading these postings, it's clear that I got NOTHING on you. **!! You knockin' that **' ** out the muthfuckin' park! You da man!!!!! You wanna knock one up? You gon' knock up 'bout a dozen of 'em!!!!

Lol,I am so slowed down these old days. I don't even venture out to seek and hunt that much. If I get an interest,its possibly in a lady who likely wants to be knocked up. I have realized,over the years,that if I even look at a black woman sexually,she gets pregnant on the spot,but it has been next to impossible to knock up a non-black woman,even when no protection is use. That baffles me quite a bit;makes me think my sperm in repelled by non- black women,hehe. Given that you have been active,have you been lucky to father kids outside your marriage?Thanks for doing your part:)

Two weeks ago, while my husband was out-of-town for work, I had an impromptu love-making session with one of our black neighbors that lives in our condo development a building over from ours. It was our first time together. That was on a Tuesday night. The next night, he came knocked on our door, and invited me back to his place. He said he had three black friends over and he told them how filthy of a ** I was and they didn't believe him and we went back to his place and we all hooked up. It was my first time for group **. I loved it more than I ever have loved anything in my life.....including my children. Since my husband been in and out of town for so much time I hadn't been all that careful with my birth control, and I don't know how long it had been since I last took my pills. I'm afraid now that I'm probably pregnant, and more afraid that I don't even know who the father is. What I do know is that none of them is as smart or sophisticated or sexual (or even half as fertile) as you.

Ohhh my goodness! What if you are knocked up for sure? If you lost track of your pill and period days,chances are you were fertile and ovulating before, during or shortly after the **-festival and you are possibly knocked up. How are you gonna explain the miraculous pregnancy? Which of the 3 guys did you like the most and why? Has hubby noticed that anything has changed about you sexually? You sure are erotically spontaneous and the kind of woman to have and enjoy:)

If I'm knocked up, I don't know what I'll do, other than ** my pants (and BTW: I counted from my last period and I was probably ovulating on the days I got black **, and that may have been part of the reason I went with them and acted like such a **). Until I started reading all these postings here I would totally have gone for the abortion, just to avoid the horror of my husband finding out about what I've been up to. But OMFG! Now that I read these things I really see the ** nature of an illegitimate child fathered by a black man within a white marriage. And I see that it's natural and ALL white women secretly want the black bull and their black babies (plural!). One woman here described her womb as "throbbing"! HER WOMB!! JESUS ** CHRIST!!!!!!! And I can really feel that. My favorite one of the blacks was this older gentleman who was very skilled but he was also SUPER hung! Like oh **!!! Not only was his ** the biggest but he came the most, too, and he REALLY knows how to throw that ** ** around. **!!!! That combination of meat and cream is something that a woman like me just CANNOT resist. Plus, he was pounding my cervix every time it was his turn in the **. I swear, if he walked into my home and asked to **, I'd ** him in front of my husband and daughters and never tell him no. That man could OWN my nasty **, and I wouldn't care about his wife or my family! Lastly, it's amazing that you asked about my husband noticing a change: yes he has. I'm so hungry for ** now that I even jumped HIM a couple of times and he's like "What's got into you???" And I just laugh and never tell him. I don't know how you knew that.

For some reason,while reading your reply, a tv commercial I have seen over the years came to mind; Arby's We Have the Meats! You are a changed woman from the day you did these black men on wards.You will never view yourself,husband,marriage or ** the way you did prior to that moment. You sound sexually and naturally emancipated,and could get bolder if the interaction with any of these men,especially the older one, continues. Some women,even married ones, acquire amazing energy in some affair situations.One married lady I used to kick it with, would leave hubby in bed,even in the middle of winter,drive for almost an hour to my place for **. She was older than I,married to her college sweetheart forever. But she had reached a point of no fear.As an undergraduate student,I did not know how to type. A married older co-worker felt sorry for me, and would type my research papers for **. She would rent a hotel room for us,take me to her trusted friend's house, or meet me at her clients houses/apartments(she was a nurse). She finally got tired of that, and started inviting me to her house,somewhere in the country. We would have ** for hours,while hubby was at work running their business,and she would type my paper after. A few times,hubby found me seated,just waiting,never suspected anything. These two women were very trusted by their husbands,each had one grown son, both had money, a small business, and good houses. It was their first time to have ** with a black man, and each had developed an insatiable appetite for me. I was younger,virile, and I sure loved the pleasurable opportunities.You may end up being so smitten:). I know it will cause your family some discomfort,but I honestly pray that one day I log on here and find an update from you saying that you are all knocked up and you are having the baby in 9 months. You crave and deserve a bi-racial baby, and sound like you are a great wife and mother.I see diversity in your love and future-choose older black guy.

Well, it was a round about way to get there, but I eventually took your advice. I went back for four more straight nights with the group of four black bangers and they tore my ** UP! Couldn't ** walk for days. Finally on the fourth night, I got up my nerve and talked to the older gentlemen and told him my feelings for him from the first night we were together, and how I just fell more and more in love with him over the next nights. I admitted to him that I thought I was pregnant and he said let's go find out, so he took me to a doctor friend of his and sure enough I was pregnant. We talked it out right there at the doctor's office and he told me he wanted me to be in love with him, but not any of the others. He didn't want those other men (he used the "n" word) fathering a child for me, and he didn't want my husband giving me any more either: he wanted to be the one I belonged to, like "owned" by. He said to get the abortion, that his doctor friend would do it, and then he would knock me up and I'd stay with my family. But I had to stop ** those other men totally (again, the "n" word). I told him he would have to pick up the slack. The next day, I aborted the gang-** baby, but I didn't tell anybody in the gang. My man said he would give me a few days to recover but then we would start ** for real. I told the gang I couldn't ** no more because I had an infection, and that shut them down on me. My man and I are getting after it, and he is even better than before, and none of the others knows nothing about us **. I'm going to have his baby and then another and then another. By then, I'll be mid-40s or so. Hubby will die of embarrassment, but my man is going to handle him, he says, no problem. I'm so happy and I'm go glad that I took your advise about the hookup with the older guy. He's my owner and he's my love.

Here's one problem with having a black bull lover. When they ** you in the ** (and once you're with one, you'll INSIST that he ** you in the **, not just the **, because you're sooooooooo hungry for the meat), they gape you so ** wide that your ** leaks. So, they are quite LITERALLY ** the ** out of you! :) I've been with maybe 12 or more blacks in my life and it has happened to me EVERY time. It's NEVER happened to me with my husband or any other white man I've ever **, before or during my marriage. But a black man will totally wreck that **!!!!!

......thats partly coz of size......but also partly coz when a black guy ** you.......he ** you like he means it!!!!

.....i really cant believe how many nasty ** there are here.........../.....

Hahaha! It's amazing isn't it? Before they revamped the site and took the view counter off,I could tell averagely how many people viewed the post daily. I always wondered how many of them were male or female. While some people post replies,most read but say nothing-I always wished every reader could share something. Thanks for noticing:)

....your very welcome.......ive enjoyed reading the page every so often and i am always surprised that there are so many new situations and circumstances, and so many different sorts of interracial relationships......... i would never have imagined that married white women were so hungry for black men and that so many of them want so many black babies!! they are all just so amazing......

My wife is one of those white women who cant get enough black **. she attracts them like shes a magnet. i doubt shed go for getting knocked up but you would probably have a better chance than ive had in the nearly 3yrs we been married.

Why not luck in 3 years? Why no luck with the black guys? I may need to take a chance n get everything going or started for you. My sons mom had tried vigorously for 3 years in vain, before meeting me. I got her knocked up the first month we met, with our first son,then another,and now she has her 3rd son,the first with her husband. You can see how I can open womb gates and create mega-births.

I havent had the luck coz she wont get off the pill. but if she got off the pill i know one of these black men she ** would knock her up right off before i ever even got a chance with her. but yeah.......i have seen what you accomplish. and even i have to admit it......your record is incredible. totally incredible.

I havent had the luck coz she wont get off the pill. but if she got off the pill i know one of these black men she ** would knock her up right off before i ever even got a chance with her. but yeah.......i have seen what you accomplish. and even i have to admit it......your record is incredible. totally incredible.

One New Year's Eve about four years ago, my wife and I went to a party at some friends' house. We'd been fighting during the entire holidays and so she was ** the whole evening and proceeded to get herself thoroughly drunk. In the process she spent about two hours talking and flirting with this black man who was there, and at midnight she kissed him rather than me. Actually, she made out with him. And then she left the party with him, and didn't come home for three days. When she did come home, she announced that she was going to have an affair with him, and since then she's been in charge of our relationship completely. In every way. She told me I could either learn to deal with it or I "could hit the ** road". At first that just meant allowing her to leave home for her dates with the guy. But for the last year and a half, it's meant raising his daughter which my wife gave birth to "because he said so": that's right, they engaged in family planning together. So, the thing for you to do is find a woman who is really really really mad at her husband and wants revenge. Your online ad should say "Looking for Revenge??" and then explain the services you have available. Two years ago, I wouldn't have thought that you could offer these as "services". Four years ago, I would have laughed at the idea. Today? I actually think you could probably charge money for this and make a ** fortune. My wife would love you.

How do you feel about their daughter,are you playing any parental role? What are your parents and friends saying about this? Will she let you father the next baby? I think I would love her too! She has guts,and can get things done her way. Although if I were you,her husband, I may just be devastated by her actions;meaning if my wife turned up pregnant by some other guy,I would be devastated. The irony is, I sure enjoy kicking it with a willing married woman, and would love to knock many up. I haven't achieved that dream but I hope to one day. I actually respect the fact that you have not given up,harmed yourself,or anybody over this. You are a brave man and husband.

I only have a moment this morning (just arrived at work) but I wanted to thank you for being so understanding of my situation; none of my friends or family understand at all (and maybe I don't either). It's even more amazing that you are aware of how this feels since you want to be the outside party that intervenes in a marriage to give the wife the things she needs and wants. I can't say I admire that, but I can say that I understand that it must be so exciting to be having an affair with a married lady and even going to the point of the two of you planning a black child for her inside her marriage. That's the thrill I know, for my wife's lover about their relationship, though he's not understanding of me at all. I'll try to come back and answer more later on today perhaps. But for now just accept my thanks for your more enlightened attitude and for being kind. I can see why you get so many married women.

Yes, I am raising the child with my wife, although she makes it clear who's in charge, and calls her lover "daddy" in front of the baby whenever he comes around: she only calls me by my name. I love the child but it's a complete embarrassment to be around the three of them because I'm in such an inferior and outside position. My parents have basically disowned me and we rarely even speak: I'm not welcome at family gatherings. They have nothing to do with the baby and don't call her their granddaughter. Most of my friends don't speak to me either anymore: they said they support whatever decision I make, but they don't actually accept my allowing Ashley to run the marriage and run around. The guys say she cut off my ** on that New Year's Eve night and they haven't grown back. The last two things. First, no......she won't be having any of my babies unless the lover decides he wants no more. Unfortunately for me, earlier this week they decided they are already planning the next child: she goes off her birth control in two weeks (they want to conceive in early September) and she laughs at me about the family planning. And then, yes........you WOULD love my wife. She has gone from being a fairly ordinary white wife to a ravenous black ** **. She ** her lover, but he also sometimes passes her around -- because she wants it so bad -- to some of his friends, so she's getting it all the time, and sometimes 2-3 at a time, while I am at home with the child I didn't father. It's ** up, I know, but it is what it is.

We are at 1501 comments on 08/4th/2016 and counting....HURRAAAAH. Thanks everybody for keeping this alive and kicking:).

That's a major accomplishment. So many of the high-comment postings at this site are built up with nonsense, repetition and mindless criticism, where this is virtually all legit. Well done!!!!

If you look in the very bottom,the very first comments were very negative. Other than that,I believe most people have posted honestly,maturely and objectively. I never thought I will stick around tending to this post for this long. We have heard about many lives transformed here,its amazing. I can't help but wonder what has happened to some of the folks that have contributed here,but never updated their situation or status. I try to log in every so often,just to see if there are any updates. Thanks for being so kind:)

When I read these postings it's like I can feel you penetrating me.

OHHHHHHH! Thats is so **....that is if you are a woman. Tell me why you feel that way,I so want to know.

Its just so powerful the way you know women even the very young ones. I just don't know how you could know so much. It's like you know my soul even though I am far away from you and still you know my insides. And well......since you KNOW my insides, it's like you are sliding into me.....and you are taking your property. So, I sit here and read, and you are actually going up in me, into my heart and my soul with your love, but also into my ** like I am yours. And as soon as you get up there I become yours all the way and all the way and forever. Like right now, I can feel it going deep and deeper. You are amazing AMAZING!

Waooooo!That is amazingly a very sensual vivid description of our virtual relationship. It just took my breath away to reading and imagining it,you are so arousing. I could picture it; it honestly feels like given an opportunity, you could let me plant millions of seeds in your womb. Why are you not here with me right now??Hugs and kisses for taking the time and having the guts to share all that soulfood with me ,and others who will be reading. You married? Available for me:)?

HAPPY NEW DAD here! I had posted that I got a young black lady pregnant while on vacation in another country.We have always stayed in touch. I got a call from her a few minutes ago and she said she had a health baby boy(8.15 lbs) the night before, and mother and baby are already home healthy. She already has a boy, and she really wanted a daughter this time. We had no clue what gender the baby was going to be till the minute of birth,although using conception dates etc,I was sure she would have a son. She desired only one more baby while I wanted two or more(I always give my kids mothers 2 kids) of mine. Now that gives me another chance to try for a girl next time,since we both want one, and the two sons deserve a sister. Just wanted to share some good news.Thanks.OP.

So so so so so so so SO many heartfelt congratulations! You deserve to father many children, of all races, and the more the better. You are a great man, a sensual man, an intellectual, a philosopher, and I'm sure your a great father. I hope you have a mixed child with a nice married white lady next and then come back to this young mother to give her a little girl and then back to the married white lady to give her three more biracial babies. I have been following you from the beginning of this page/post and I sense you are close to finding your ideal white lover and mother......I just wish it could be me.:) But unfortunately, surgery has precluded that for me. My daughter, however, is another story.........:)

I'm so happy for you!!!! And I'm so jealous: I wish I was the mother!!!!

Nicely done, my brother! My congrats, along with the others!

This is such happy and exciting news! Thanks for sharing it with us. Will you soon be able to go back there for a visit and to see your child? Is there any chance of the mother and baby permanently relocating to be with you . . . or at least closer? How soon will you be knocking the girl up again? Do you know the girl's mother? Have you ever hooked up with her? Do you want to? How did you meet this girl originally? Did she have any special skills in bed? Is she just head over heels for you? Does she recognize how lucky she is to have been with you and to have you as the father of her child? Does she beg you to come back? Sorry for all the questions, but mostly just Congratulations!

Thank you very much bro. I never thought it would happen but it did. I just had to have a baby with this young lady no matter what. Now I have to spend the rest of my life helping her raise the two sons. I believe God will make everything possible:)

Haha,thanks much. I want you to be the next mother. Being jealous is ** sometimes. Very nice of you to share your kind thoughts:)

Thank you from the bottom of my heart,I can feel your honest happiness and excitement for me. I acknowledge your well wishes,you simply lovely n so sweet. I totally appreciate you making my day:)

I been living with my gf for about 2yrs and she been involved on the DL with a bull for that whole times. She can't say no to him. So I'm sure if he ever said he was gonna knock her up she wouldn't say no to that either.

Same here. My wife has a bull and I'm always left in second place. He calls the shots.

Did she come to you and say she wanted to take on a Bull or how did the whole affair start? Why do you feel you are left in second place,and how does that feel?

Basically she came into the marriage with Him. I didn't know they were involved until the night I asked her to marry me. She said she would marry me but I would have to adjust to His place in her life. She never asked if it was okay but only told me how it would be. And that is how it has been. As for how it feels.......I'm usually not directly aware of it most of the time while its actually happening so I try not to give it much thought--it depresses me. But then sometimes it's blatant like when she gets seen by our friends out at clubs or concerts with Him. And sometimes it's worse. Two years ago we had big plans to celebrate our first wedding anniversary. I picked her up at home and we drove to a really fancy restaurant (a month's wait for reservations) and when we were about to be seated at our table He showed up and took her from me so He could spoil our plans and told me "Don't come home before midnight: I'm going to be ** her in your bed". It was humiliating as you would expect. When He does that kind of thing it makes me feel like **. I love my wife and I want her to be happy but there are days when its hard to allow that to happen (not that I could ever stop it).

Well.........just exactly like you said it would happen....it did. My wife and her Bull came and told me she was pregnant with his baby and that my name would be on the birth certificate and she was going to stay with me and I would raise it like it was mine even though the baby is his. He threatened me and she laughed. Then he ** her in front of me......like it was sealing his place in our lives. He is a scary dude but she loves him and she loves his baby being in her. That part I guess I can get used to, but she is getting more open about her relationship with him. And several of her girlfriends already know she's pregnant and it's his black baby in there. He's definitely calling all the shots now. And they are also ** more often. It's like being pregnant makes her hornier and hornier every day.

How did she get started with this Bull and what makes it so difficult for her to say no? How do you feel about sharing her?

It only bothers me a little that my wife dates around occasionally. It bothers me a little more because she only dates blacks and that some of our friends have seen her with them. It's much worse and more humiliating when she comes home from a date and has ** in her hair, on her face, on her body, on her clothes, and oozing from her privates, and didn't make any effort to clean it up or even conceal it. But it would be impossible for me to deal with her if she came home with a black baby. I have always assumed that her black boyfriends WOULDN'T try to get her pregnant for selfish reasons (no child support etc.) but then when I read these posts I wonder about her meeting somebody like you and the two of them actually PLANNING a child for their own arousal and pleasure, and to humiliate me forever. It may not be likely but it certainly isn't impossible is it.

....my wife has a black boss and at least 2 days per week she comes home smelling like ** (sometimes its every day)........id freak if she got pregnant....but i dont guess there is much i could do about it is there............

^ Very similar for me. The wife is involved in a volunteer project and she always seems to get held up at their meetings with this particular black man and then she smells like ** whenever she get home.

How sure are you that its some black man holding her?

It's what she says when I ask. Naturally she never admits to having had ** with him but that's the way she looks and smells. Nasty.

Have you ever asked her why she sometimes comes home smelling like **?

For sure,I would knock her up if she lets me:). Did she seek your permission to get started with her Bull? How do you plan to handle the situation the day she lets you know she is about 3 months pregnant with the Bull's baby?

Yeah I see it now where I didn't before: I think lots of black men have that attitude. If she met you out at a club or whatever and you told her that you wanted to have children with a white woman she would be good to go and she would probably get knocked up the first night. Actually you're the kind of black man she LOVES (smart and sexual and in charge) so she might even leave home for good and especially if he asked her to. No she is not the kind of woman who asks permission. She doesn't even ask forgiveness. She just does whatever and whoever she likes. For the most part she hasn't been really blatant (with some exceptions) about her relationships but it seems like if she met you that would totally change. There have been a few men shes been proud of hooking up with and she would totally try to show you off. So yes.....you would not only have her but would knock her up right away. In theory........if she got pregnant for a black bull I would dump her. Honestly that is what I say. But if it really happened I cant say for sure that I would end the marriage. I really do actually love her. So I guess I would just have to say that it would depend on how she told me about the pregnancy but more so.......how much I would be forced to interact with the father of the baby. If they would try to raise it under my roof or if they kept on dating (and ** under my roof) I just don't even know if I could handle that. I know of husbands who have stayed after the wife got blacked that way and they seem happy but I don't know if I could. Would you and the woman cuck the husband if that happened to you? I don't know how badly you would humiliate the woman's husband or just demean him.

You are in a tough spot. But at least you have had thoughts about this situation and that may lessen the impact on you if and when it happens. I have no clue how to cuckold anybody...I don't even humiliate women I sleep with,lol. Best of luck and happiness:)

I'd never liked being dominated by a man. I'm too independent, or too much of a feminist, I guess. But I've very recently discovered a new dynamic that makes me curious about the nature of interracial sexual relationships (especially if they're illicit). I'd never allowed any of my white lovers to spank me or engage in much of the rough stuff. But I have a black lover now, and not only do I allow him to do what he wants, I actually often beg him for it. Sometimes I even ache for him to just beat my ** (and not just my **). I even occasionally do things to make him want to beat me and take complete control. After reading this column, I have the feeling that if he decided he wanted to knock me up, I would eagerly allow it. I won't ask -- that's not part of our relationship -- but if he told me he was going to do it, I would give up the womb. Maybe you should try dominance as a means of getting one of your white lovers to give up the womb to you. Luck to you.

I have actually never been a domineering guy...I am mostly very easy going and terribly considerate. Maybe that's why I am not able to knock up a white woman. I may have to change this strategy. Are you married now? Any kids? How did you deviate from white lovers to a black one? Thanks for contributing.

Married a much younger woman late last year. Knew she was playing around then. Told her I was okay with it but keep it clean and quiet and keep it to a minimum. Then she was going out maybe once or twice a week on dates. Now its almost every night. And now its all blacks. ALL blacks ALL the time. Nothing but black meat and nothing but black men. It's like she's become an addict for the black meat. Never seen nothing like this. Never. She's out of control. Totally out of control.

What was in it for you to allow her to play like that? How much younger are we talking? You gonna have kids together? Are you gonna be able to put up with this for long term? Does she even seem re-directable.if she is totally hooked and out of control?

It's the age difference that is the reason I agreed to let her play. She's 23 and I'm 55, older than her parents, and more than twice her own age. She was already a player when I met her, and in fact she cheated on the guy she was living with in order to do me. (Then, she continued with HIM on the side: I guess I should have seen that one coming.) She always liked the black meat, but she has let it get out of control and now I barely see her. Tonight is Saturday. She wasn't home last night (as usual) and she won't be tonight either: she'll be ** some huge black stud tonight and probably NOT the same one she ** last night. Our plans -- or at least MY plans -- were to have children together, because the two I have (from Wife One) are disasters and I want another try with a different wife and mother: I really HAVE to have that to complete my life. I was certain I could put up with this if she kept to her 1-2 dates a week (or less) but I don't know if I can continue this much longer: I am becoming humiliated by her open whoring. However, I can't divorce her now because I'd be admitting that everybody who told me not to marry her was right. BUT ...... and this is a big but ....... if Julia is out one night and meets a man like you, erudite, sophisticated, hung, highly-sexually-skilled, dark-skinned (she really likes them BLACK!!) and knowledgeable in handling white girls, and if he says the things you say about beginning an interracial family on the side, she would almost certainly get her implant removed and get knocked up immediately. She tells me "not right now" when I ask about starting our family, but if a man like YOU asked her (or INSISTED on knocking her up), I'm confident she'd say "**, Yeah!!!!!!" Some days, I regret leaving my wife and kids, as imperfect and unlovable as they are. The questions you asked about her ability to change are the important ones, aren't they. I wish I could say "yes", but if you saw her with them, you'd say "no way".

I know what ^he^ is saying. Being married to a nasty whorewife seems like it would be a lot of fun and a lot of sexiness. But marrying a woman like that, and then giving her permission to play around, just gives her an excuse to be selfish. My wife never went in quite so far for the interracial, but she was ** every white guy she could wrap her legs around, and a few black ones too. I divorced her after less than a year. Whores are just whores. It's not a party.