Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant

I am well beyond having children now (in fact, my oldest daughter is pregnant with my first grandchild), but I wish to God that I'd had the nerve to do this when I was younger. Throughout the first 25 years of marriage, I had three very wonderful and very long-term affairs, all with black men that I loved completely. Each of them eventually moved on to someone much younger, and while it was difficult and sad to lose them, I understood their needs, and in one case, even helped him develop the relationship with his new mistress: I guess I was a kind of character reference for him and a guide for her, and the three of us are still friends to this day. However, I confess that I never understood the beauty of what you describe and propose here, though I wish I had understood it then as I do now, with the clarity of your writing and your obvious love for white women, especially married ones. It breaks my heart to realize it now, and to actually write it, but not only did I not realize the joy of having a biracial child, and doing that WITHIN MY MARRIAGE AND WITHOUT MY HUSBAND'S KNOWLEDGE, I did something worse: I stayed on my birth control and actively kept myself from pregnancy. Two of my lovers preferred it that way, as you would understand, but one of them, one very special man, I think would have taken to this idea and supported me in it. He would also have made a fantastic father, and I would have loved bearing his child, birthing it, and then -- WITHIN MY MARRIAGE -- raising it. Oh! My! God! I can't say that I have ever heard or read anything so perfect or natural or joyful as that, and I know I could have forced it on my husband, because I wear the pants, as they say. Just reading your posts today has given me a sense of loss. Lost opportunity. Lost children. Lost family. I would have loved having that black man's babies, I would have loved manipulating my husband into raising them, and I would have loved all the negative attention. It makes me sad.

“Sometimes the best and worst times of your life can coincide. It is a talent of the soul to discover the joy in pain—-thinking of moments you long for, and knowing you’ll never have them again. The beautiful ghosts of our past haunt us and yet we still can’t decide if the pain they caused us out weighs the tender moments when they touched our soul. This is the irony of love.”
? Shannon L. Alder

Oh my God, that is so beautiful and so perfect, and thank you for sharing it with me and with everyone who stops by here to read your writing and soak in your relationship philosophies, all of which are a wondrous joy, and all of which I look forward to every day whenever I go online at work (secretly, of course!!). On behalf of all your many readers, THANK YOU! And while we are on THAT topic, may I ask . . . have you ever considered starting a blog? I realize that blogs in general and relationship blogs are a dime a dozen (or less), but I've never seen one that addresses and explores the interracial sexual relationship, and particularly the interracial adulterous relationship, and with the heavenly (and hot) addition of illegitimate mixed-race offspring, much less one with the erudition and sensitivity and nuance of your extraordinary work here. One of the best things about your thread is that you very carefully and thoughtfully respond to all serious comments (but, gratefully, not the morons), which serves the purpose of making your work more personal and of deepening the expression of your original and subsequent thought: that's a skill that even many professional writers don't have, and with you, it is obviously your nature. You might well have to start it as a free endeavor, but I think soon your work would attract enough readership and buzz to warrant having it picked up -- for pay -- by newspapers and news syndicates. I've actually seen that happen, and it seems to me that your writing, your personal experiences (which are truly astonishing), and your insights are all far superior to those other writers. Anyway, thanks again for sharing the fantastic quote and for providing a literate and literary context for the point in my past at which I failed to recognize what may have been my sexual destiny, and at which I turned away from it (unknowingly) rather than toward it. "Beautiful ghosts", indeed. My heart, and my soul, and my womb, ache for those ghosts.

1.You have a beautiful mind and a kind and gracious heart! Thank you so much for suggesting a blog and rating this post so highly. I never thought it would turn out to be this involving for me or so enlightening for so many people.When I first read your first post,I was so shocked by the nature of your situation that I could not find words to reply.I took off ran errands and replied hours later. There are a few similarities between your situation and mine.In my younger days,I was lucky to date fine women-white or black,american or foreign.My dating peaked once I got into college as an undergraduate. I was very careful not to have kids then.Somehow,I met an 18 year old black girl and within months,she was pregnant.I was shocked because though she was living with me,I was not serious with her but ** was out of this world.I was secretly dating a wonderful white lady at the time, and I had started taking her very seriously right before finding out that the other girl was pregnant. I was forced to choose between the two and for obvious reasons,I chose the pregnant woman.That was a a bad choice of a relationship that ended in divorce(I was awarded custody of the daughters) years later but produced two loving daughters that make me so proud. Since I had the black daughters,I was very reluctant to have bi-racial kids for fear of having to explain what is what and who is who each time.Though I continued dating a variety of women both in race,origin and marital statuses,I was careful not to knock any of them up. Then 18 years after my last daughter was born,I met another young black woman and before I could take my ** out of her,she got pregnant.She broke up with me as soon as she found out she was pregnant,moved away,came back the next year and without intending to,got pregnant again. Though I am not with her,I have finally been able to share the sons thanks to family courts.Which makes me ask myself,how different would it have been if I had bi-racial kids?

2. Why did I deny myself all those wonderful opportunities to have bi-racial children in my younger days?Even before having kids,I discovered that married women,especially white ones,would gravitate towards me, seduce me most of the time,ask me out,spoil me,not bother me for anything except endless ** etc. I liked that so much that I got hooked on dating and having ** with married women more than single ones.It became worse after I had kids and was divorced,because most of the married women I slept with wanted no kids but lots of **.I was also busy raising my daughters. That's how I lost the opportunity to have bi-racial kids earlier on in my life.It also seems to me that it has been easier for my sperms to make a black woman pregnant than a white one, and I have no clue why,lol.Now that I am older and a little wiser,I regret that I did not seize the opportunities I came across. I know, and I am, sure my daughter would not have cared that I had bi-racial kids; I was just living in some sort of cocoon for too long.Now that I have no hang ups about what my daughters would think and say,I lack a partner with whom to accomplish my goal. I would not want to do a blog(though this has turned out to be somewhat similar).It will expose me too much that I would be so embarrassed.I like saying things here believing its somewhat private and anonymous.I would not want the scandals that arise from exposure and angry husbands or exes.I don't even know how I get to share this much here-maybe its driven by what others say.I also know that there are thousands of people who identify with what we all share here but don't post replies;they just enjoy reading, making a blog worthwhile.

It's me again, after a short hiatus, but with much to report. No, my daughter had not read your posts, but I told her about them at lunch on the day before July Fourth. I don't recall ever having seen her so excited (or aroused) about anything. While we were sitting at the table, she called her ex-lover Herman (the rich and hung black man I told you about) and told him about your ideas on the phone. I don't know if they'd been talking or not, though I think they hadn't spoken in a very long time. Within 15 minutes, he was seated at the table with us, discussing the situation with my daughter and me. It was one of the most sexual conversations, and the most sexually-charged, I've ever witnessed. Herman knew I had encouraged her to go with him as his mistress years before, so he assumed - correctly - that I was in favor of him becoming involved in my daughter's life again. Nothing has been decided yet, but here's what they discussed doing. Since she's still early in her pregnancy, she can still have an abortion, and that's what Herman told her to do. He said she's to tell her husband it was a miscarriage, so as to not arouse any suspicions. Then, a VERY few weeks later, after she's recovered - and after not taking her birth control - Herman will impregnate her, and she'll carry and deliver his baby, without having said a word to anyone about the paternity until the black child arrives. She'll have ** with her husband once or twice, BUT using protection, around the time of Herman's impregnation of her, just to cover those tracks. Herman didn't like the idea of the husband even penetrating her body (he still wants her all to himself, as his "property"), but he recognized the necessity as a part of your plan, and he also said it was the sexiest thing he'd ever heard. I don't know what she'll decide, but I am pushing hard for this, and since she's like me, she will ADORE all the negative attention she'll get. Thank you so much!!! I'll let you know what she does.

Glad to read from you-I was wondering if you escaped to Venus to kool off. Seems like a lot has been going on while you were quiet. It must be amazing sitting with mom and daughter discussing ** and all that, am happy for Herman but sort of jealous,lol.On a serious note,please DO NOT ENCOURAGE YOUR DAUGHTER TO ABORT. It will be such a bad idea and it will haunt her for long time.My reasoning is this,the fetus has a right to life,having not asked to be created.Killing it prematurely will be unfair to it and the reasons she may want to do that are not that well grounded.It will be very selfish for the 3 adults to go along with such a plan.It is highly callous and selfish for Herman to even support such an act.Once your son-in-law finds out that you were part of the deal,he is gonna hate you forever.Herman and your daughter have known each other for long time and have ** many times am sure.None of them seems to be going anywhere any time soon. The best alternative is for your daughter to carry her pregnancy to term,after having her baby,wait about a year or two and then get knocked up by Herman.It will give her baby a chance to live and she will have time to think about her relationship with Herman.I am almost sure,she will have a baby with Herman or any other black man in her lifetime.Patience and good planning is a virtue.Keep us posted please:)

She initially said she wanted to keep the baby and raise it in the conventional way. But Herman is adamant about maintaining the purity of the parental line and especially the paternal line, so that there aren't two groups of children, one fathered by my son-in-law and one by Herman, with all the divisions and competition (for attention and for other things) that can come from that: he wants all of her children to be fathered by him alone, and he hates the idea of her even having ** with him, though that is a virtual given in this situation. He makes a persuasive argument, and he is the kind of man who should get his way and usually does. My daughter is conflicted about having the abortion and I think that's what the decision will hinge on, but both she and Herman really love the idea of impregnating her while she's married, and he's really even more excited about that idea than he was about ** her and making her his "property" when she was still single, or it looks that way to me. I know you won't like this, but I told her that one abortion more or one abortion less won't change anything in the world, and having this one herself will make her life so much better because it will bring Herman back to her and it will bind him there because of the obvious sacrifice she'll be making for his love. As we were leaving the restaurant last week, he smiled at me and then hugged and kissed me for being on his side, and as he held me I could feel his incredible sexual power running through my entire body from head to toe like an electrical current, even deeeeeep into my womb, so I can imagine what that feels like inside my daughter's body. It's a wonderful feeling and I want that for her.

Right below this is the quote from Shannon L.Alder,it so applies to this situation.I am not a purist;women I have dated and one I was married to had abortion.Your daughter owns her body including her womb and she is going to do whatever she is going to do with it.Herman is married and is not fully available to her,even emotionally,while she is still married.To have an abortion,destroy her marriage,just to have Herman on a temporary basis,at his own will,is a huge price for your daughter to pay.To have her cake and eat too,she should have hubby's baby now,Herman's later. Both of you should recognize the obvious selfishness and manipulation in Herman and give the baby a chance. Can you imagine how devastating it will be for your daughter to abort,lose hubby,get pregnant by Herman,then Herman bails out and leaves her stuck with the baby?I doubt she will have and hold Herman(who is already taken) the way she will have her husband. I don't know the guy and it may seem that I am talking bad about him, but I am really not-its all about this particular situation.I bet you,if your daughter had the baby she is carrying now,and later tells Herman to knock her up,he will be more than happy to.Forget all that pure BS he is feeding you guys,its all selfishness and control and total disregard for all involved, but himself.I am worried that your daughter may fail to recognize that, in her emotional pregnant state, and give in.I support affairs almost always,but this situation has me worried.

my wife has a black boyfriend she thinks i dont know nothing about.shes really definite about taking her pill but im afraid if she reads this ** shell go off and have black babies and i will never see her ** again..

How did you find out that she has a black bf?

an ex-gf told me after she saw them out together a few times.she thot it would make me dump my wife and go back with her fulltime but i realy hapen to love my wife is the wierd thing.buttheres not a doubt in my mind that if she started reading all this here and saw howsome of these woman think this is such a ** thing she would go off her bc and id be history.her parents are prety racest but they have money thatshes waiting on but if she saw this i dont think shed care no more.she would go black fulltime and drop mega babies.

You have any kids with her now or intend to? How do you know for sure that ex did not lie to you?

no we dont have any children coz we been waiting until we saved money. yes i want to have children with her but i swear if she sees these postings i would never have no way of knowing what color the child would be when it comes out. i dont think my ex-gf lied to me even tho she wuld love for my marriage to fall apart, coz my wife dated some black men before we met and got engaged and she likes the meat and the **. shes small and blonde and pale-skinned and she says she likes the way it looks to be next to a much taller black man who is like really dark coz she says its beautiful. but mostly she says she loves hanging from a ** ** after her man finished ** her and hammering her ** like a ** machine. i hope she never gets the idea of having black babies and specially if just being pregnant for a black man is as ** as some of these white girls says it is. i mean **.

The day after our second anniversary I found out that my wife had been seeing several black men throughout the entire time we were married and even before. The relationships lasted between a couple of weeks and a few months. She was apologetic but she told me she was so addicted (she used that word) that she couldn't stop it. She couldn't even say how many there had been. She said if I really loved her and cared about her happiness I wouldn't try to stop her and would even encourage her seeking out her happiness. I love her so even though I had left home the night I found out, I came home and we reconciled, with the understanding that she could still date as long as she was very discreet about her dating and very selective about who she dated, and stayed clean. That stood for another year but then I found out that she wasn't really dating these men: she was a passaround. She wasn't forced into being a passaround: it was what she wanted. That really hurt me deeply because she was making it clear that I was inadequate and inferior to all of THEM. She said the opposite, she said she loved me, but she "had to have" ALL those black men. She wanted to stay with me and convinced me that was true, so I let her stay. The final straw, however, was when I discovered that she was using the contraceptive sponge when we had **, but NOT when she made love with her black men. I started counting the sponges and I realized that she wasn't using them when she went out on her dates and made love with her other men, only me. So that meant she wanted their children but not mine. And she had recently told two of her girlfriends what her contraceptive practice was, and that's when the arrangement became known among our friends. I couldn't take anymore and I left just after Thanksgiving last year. We still talk, and she still wants to be married, but I don't know if I can be married to someone who cheats so much, and wants other men's babies but not mine. I thought you would understand.

Thanks for sharing and am sorry for all the headache that your wife has caused you. From reading your post,I don't get the feeling that you can handle what your wife is into;its way off your tastes. You strike me as the type that desires a faithful wife who conforms with the duties of a wife without going astray. I don't even think you are the cheating type. I don't think your wife is ever gonna be faithful to you ever.She lies to you,manipulates you,wants no genes of yours but all the black men,loves to be passed around at parties etc. I hope you have taken major STD tests and are you are healthy.I am sure you already know what to do and you have done part of it.You sound very gullible but cut communication with this lady,heal,find yourself a good woman and move on with your life. Its not easy but I believe and trust that you can do it.

You are so right about the lying and manipulating, and she does it to me and to her parents too. Her parents aren't bigots but they are biased, and they would die if they knew what she is really doing with her life, and especially with her birth control. They know we are separated, but she tells them it's just because we can't get along: irreconcilable difficulties. I think the reason she married me was to establish a façade, and to provide herself with a sort of safe harbor of financial and societal security. I mean, when she says she really loves me, I actually do believe her, but maybe you're right, maybe I'm just being gullible about that and she only cares about the appearance and the safety net. I don't think she expects me to raise the children she has by all these other men, all black, or at least she says she doesn't. But I know they influence her to do things, all sorts of things, and even things within our marriage, that she has to lie about, so who knows what she might do or what they might have her do? That not only embarrasses me, it scares me, too.

Whatever you do do,I hope you don't spend your nights ** all nite long while waiting for this woman to get tired of playing with black guys ** and come home and be a wife to you.Just don't worry about anybody but yourself for a while and just move on.She has left you behind and you are just standing still.Start moving...I wish you well avoid her manipulations.

it was all running out of room down there so maybe we start at a new place because i just wanted to say that it was all just a dream on sunday night that became a day dream yesterday during the day. i got to be at home alone for a change bcuz hubby went fishing with his brother and our son and the girls were at there freinds house all day for the holiday so i slept late and then spent the rest of the morning just napping and masturbating while thinking of the man from our church. i know that i will never do what i said i would do with him and that it was all just fantacy but it was a really really great fantacy to have and i totally soaked my sheets (i am a squirter sometimes in case i didnt mention before) so i did laundry yesterday too. :) i could not do those things and for sure not with my family right there but it is a hot and dirty dream for a nice white lady isnt it? :) LOL :)

I agree there was no more room down there and I am glad you started up here afresh.You may not want to get pregnant but am sure you gonna find yourself a black guy to **,its inevitable.Glad you had some alone time to reflect and mention that you are a squirter..its the most amazing phenomenon that this one lady and I have encountered lately and I have no understanding of it;but it sure soaks the bed that we have had to use a soaker pad every time.Have you always been like that?What State are you in?

no no no i love the idea of becoming impregnated by a black man i really really do and the whole thing is the sexiest thing possible i really believe. everything you have written here about it really sounds so wonderful but also so hot at the exact same times. i mean i dont know how a womancould not thinkthat was the hottest thing ever. i found out that i squirt when i was first starting to be sexual. i found out by masturbating and it freaked me at first but then i read about it and i immediately loved being one of the few who do that. i dont do it every time i ** or ** and it depends on how stimulated i am, and it alsodepends on how long its gone since the last time it happened. it was actually being a squirter that got me started dating older guys than me because when i did that with a boy he would never understand that its not pee and he would think i was lying but older guys knew what was happening and they all knew that it happened because they were doing something right to my body so they all pretty much loved the fact that i squirt and they would go out of their way to try to get me to do it and i reeeeeeealy loved that!! and it was squirting that almost made me faint that time i was around the black guys i mentioned before, well i didnt almost faint from squirting but i almost did from the one black guy who figured out what was happening. we live in the pacific nw.

I have a sweet woman I have ** with on a regular basis.After you mentioned squirting today,I sent her text message and asked "Did you always squirt during ** or this is something new"?She answered "New.U somehow turned on all kinds of buttons on me, physically, spiritually, sexually, mentally, emotionally,etc.I really don't understand all this.It sort of scares me cuz I don't seem to be able to control myself when it ** to u,in all ways.I feel vulnerable when I trust & let go,but u make me feel safe". She will give me nothing if she found out I have shared such an intimate message/detail here. I simply wanted to show you that both of us don't really understand this but we are indulging in it to the best ** imaginable and that you and her have something amazing in common. I was way off,I was guessing that you lived in the Midwest.The lady I am talking about here also emanates from the pacific NW,maybe its a pacific NW thing,lol.Next time I go up that way,I will be asking,smelling and lookking around,trying to locate you lol.

oh my ** god!!! if this woman never squirted before being ** by you then you must be one incredible **! and for her to say all those things about you......i mean christ almighty ** god!! and you must be hung too!! your like the complete ** package (no pun intended)!

Whatever happened to you?Say something,lol

There's something that your statistics and commentary doesn't address, and that's black women married to white men. I'm one of those and my experience is germane to this in two ways. First, while I love my husband dearly, he just does not do it for me sexually, so I cheat. I cheat frequently and aggressively, despite my religious beliefs and church involvement. I need other men in my life, and I go with both black and white men, equal opportunity. I am very discreet and my husband never knows anything about my affairs or flings, and I cause him no embarrassment. None. Second, because I'm black and he's white, the risk of a "surprise" mixed-race baby is non-existent. As a result, once I get to know my partners and their histories, and once we get tested together and prove that we're both clean, I let them ride me **. In fact, I demand that. I demand it because I love the feeling of real meat and real cream, and because I love being pregnant. I've had six children and although they have all been born during my marriage to my white husband and his name appears as "father" on all the birth certificates, only one of the six is actually his biological child. The other five were fathered by five different men, three black and two white. My husband often marvels at how different our children all are (especially the one who is sooooo dark, even darker than me), even though three of them do bear some resemblance to me. None of them look like my husband, not even the one that is his biological child. The reason I raise this, however, is statistical. All six of my children are considered legitimate, but five of them are in reality illegitimate. And I know for a fact that I'm not the only woman in this position: I have three black female friends who have done similar things, though not to the same degree. Thus, the statistics are misleading. There are more bastards (I know that word is used pejoratively, but I truly, truly LOVE the word) in the world than anybody knows.

Ohhh my lord where have you been?I would have said to you "say that again"?But am going to read it over a few times so that it can really sink in.!For sure,we have somewhat excluded black women but it may have been due to how I initially titled the confession.I really appreciate your enormous contribution to humanity and this thread.I don't even know how to begin but let me ask you these: How come your hubby has no clue that the 5 kids are not his?Do the children suspect that they generally really don't resemble one another? Are you worried you may be discovered one day?How long have you been married?What exactly have your girlfriends done?Any of the biological dads know they fathered your child?How long have you been indulging in this extra-marital bliss?You have no daughters?Are you still having kids or you are done?How do you find or select your men? I must applaud you for sharing,being discreet,enjoying yourself,showing that much love and respect to yourself and hubby by getting tested,and for opening your womb to a variety of well selected men.I asked you many of these questions together because they were gushing out of my mind and I would have asked you each one of them later anyway.This is juicy to me and I am sure it will be to many readers; please answer whatever you can or feel comfortable with.Thanks.

Seventy-two percent of black babies are born out of wedlock. Seventy-two. There's nothing ** about that.

Every white girl like me loves that ** ** and can't get enough. You shouldn't have any trouble.

Where are you hiding?????

So, so, SO true. There's nothing that even comes close to ** **. I mean, nothing, not even ** **. :)

christ.....where are all these whores coming from?

Don't they seem like they are and coming from everywhere!

never realized that so many of our wives were crossing over

They are crossing over my friend and it hard to explain and grasp.But it must have been like that for centuries just that with the abundance of media outlets and forums like this,we learn more quickly and more intimately. I have spent a lot of time looking into this phenomenon and I have found out that white women have a great fascination with black men and black men have the same for white women.Then some parents and friends spend time discouraging inter-racial **/marriage,which increases curiosity,deviance, and rebellion,resulting in trying out the forbidden fruit hence,increased inter-racial relationships.Some white women ** black men secretly but since white hubby trusts his wife so much and listen to her,he never suspects she up to no good or never ever thinks his white girl in good suburban home,nice car and all that will ever even think of craving,seducing,or ** some really ** black guy.He is shocked to find out that every chance she gets,she opens her legs,mouth,arms and heart wide for him. One white guy I know,upon finding out that his well educated,nice looking white wife from a great family was ** a black guy for a year,told me he never thought his faithful wife will undress in front of a black guy,let alone ** his ** and have ** with him. He could not believe she would ** the two of them the same day, different times, or that he may have sucked her ** right after she had arrived home from probably ** him.He tried to have her end the affair but she told him to either put up with it or divorce her.He decided to keep her and deal with it and she started spending some nights at the lover's apt. I could not say anything much,I just listened and wondered, how many millions of men thought the same thing about their wives?

After 22 years of marriage, with the kids grown and gone, my wife launched into an affair with a black man we both knew. I always suspected they had the hots for each other, but I never thought they had done anything or ever would do anything. It lasted for over 4 years before I discovered it, and when I confronted her with it, she said exactly what the woman you mentioned said: "Divorce me or deal with it, I really don't give a **, but I'm not giving him up." I tried to accept it as a passing phase, or as a transitional thing, something she would "get over", but that acceptance apparently just encouraged her to be more open about what the two of them were doing, the affair became more public and MUCH less discreet (like your friend, she would spend entire nights and weekends "away"), and I couldn't continue to handle the humiliation of being married to a woman who would behave that way: some of what they started doing in public I can't even say here. I finally had to divorce her, I asked for a transfer out of town at my job, and I left the house for her. She's become kind of a joke, but almost no one I work with now or live near has any idea what she did. Over time, I've found many, many white men who have experienced what I experienced, even though I thought at the time I was unique. But you are right: very, very few of the guys I have talked to had ANY idea their wives had crossed over. And the ones that though they would come back? We were all wrong. My wife and her horse-** stud are still living in the house where we raised our children and lived as a family. In addition to being a humiliation, it makes me sick.

He's completely correct: the trend of married white women crossing over is expanding more and more every day. The news media won't talk about it, for fear of alienating their audiences, but the ignorance of the fact isn't slowing the occurrence of it, much less stopping it. We black men are taking more and more of your wives, and once they've crossed over, they don't go back. Eventually, we'll have them all. All your wives, all your girlfriends, all your daughters. And you'll have nothing. Say goodbye to the white race.

White couple has undergone Artificial Insemination and the white wife is 5 months pregnant.The white husband gets a call from a black guy, on a Sunday, claiming that the doctor's office messed up and impregnated the white wife with the black caller's sperm. You can listen to the hilarious exchange here http://youtu.be/HDkgXOK-ak0

very very early during the first year of my marriage i began a long-term affair with a black man i worked with at that time. we were both recently married actually though he had been married for slightly longer. the affair lasted for almost 10 years and though we wanted to be together our situation -- and society -- didnt permit that. for the obvious reasons we expended a lot of effort avoiding my pregnancy by him but after looking at your original post and all the incredibly ** and supportive and exciting comments i now wish we had expended all that energy in trying to have him knock me up instead. the idea didnt occur to us but i so wish it had because i would love nothing more than having his children in my life and having carried them in my body. the fact that they would have been illegitimate just makes the idea sexier. i miss that man terribly and i would love to have his children in my life now.

Glad you enjoyed a 10 year affair of happiness.Is it too late now to have his babies?For much of my adult life,I avoided having kids with the white women I slept with because I already had two daughters with a black woman and always wondered about what they will say once they grew up.I ended up having custody of them, very early in their lives, and spent years being busy and careful, but nursing a burning desire for bi-racial children.That simple stupid worry about what my kids or so and so will think or say cost me wonderful opportunities to have bi-racial children.Although my daughters are now adults in college, my views have changed for years now, and my desire never seems to abate,there seems to be minimal chance of getting lucky, in having bi-racial babies.I should mention that as soon as my daughters hit 19/18,I was lucky and had two handsome sons with a younger black woman-we don't live together but share custody.Finding and enjoying ** with white women has not been a problem;the issue is hooking up with one who is wanting to be pregnant for sure,married or not.Your post just reminded me of me:)

Don't be scared Homie.

My 18-yr-old daughter lives with a much older black man (they aren't married), and her father refuses to accept the relationship and I doubt he ever will accept it. I secretly support her in the relationship because I think she has the right to love whoever she wants and the man obviously makes her very happy, and I even give them money that my husband doesn't see. But in even more secret I envy her because I suspect the ** she is having with this stallion of a man is better than what most women have. I also suspect that at 18 and after having been with this man for as long as she has been with him and in his bed she already knows things about ** AND ABOUT LOVE that I have never known and never will know. But in even more and deeper secret I find myself wanting a vary dark-skinned black man and even having him impregnate me just like you said. And in the deepest secret, I also find myself wanting to be with the man my daughter lives with . . . and wanting to have his babies, one after another, and I'm still plenty young enough to do that. His makes my fantasy life so rich and beautiful and loving, and filled with his children. And I feel myself juicing every time I'm near him or even have a thought about him.

Lol...I can feel your honesty and longing for a very dark-skinned black man in the way you express yourself.You may not even need to drool,soak your ** or have your ** pierce holes thru your bras over your daughter's man,just look around town and you will find a good black man for you within a week. There is nothing scientific about it,just be yourself and say hi to a few and one will be interested. Just make sure he is a good responsible and respectful one who can be discreet and respect your marriage.It sounds to me that you will be unfulfilled in life sexually if you don't allow a black man to pleasure you and you will always be envious of your unsuspecting daughter.

I'm afraid that for me this idea will always be relegated to the realm of fantasy since my husband is bigoted and would dump me and leave me with nothing, or far worse, if he ever learned that I was being indiscreet with "a man of color", much less bearing his child right out in the open like the ** I dream of being (but only dream of: I've never been had by a black man). But more important than all of that........OMG!! You so totally and perfectly described Zachary, my daughter's "roommate"!!!!! He is such a professional and so sophisticated, responsible, respectable and respectful, and I think he will be a good father (as far as I know, he has no children). And yes, I am even totally confident that he would respect my marriage if something romantic happened between the two of us. I often think of him as having flirted with me when we were alone in a kitchen or hallway or something, but then I always convince myself (and I think this is more likely) that he's just being the total gentlemen I know him to be, and my fantasies about him and the things he would do to my body just overwhelm my mind and I simply imagine that what he's doing is flirting. All I know is that my heart flutters, my ** juices, my ** throbs, and my womb nearly convulses whenever I am around this perfect black stallion and what appears to be his massive black **. And dear God help me, but sometimes I think that my daughter doesn't deserve this perfection........but that I do.

Waooooooh! If you daughter n her boyfriend only knew what is in your heart and mind or how much you crave Zachary between your legs or in your **,the daughter will bar you from their crib or the bf will either shy away from you or be all over you, every chance he can find.But then it sounds like if you even hugged or kissed him in a way hubby does not like,you could get canned or shot.I have read about mother and daughter that have shared a man and had kids with him and if you play around,that could be you.I totally admire the way you describe him.Sounds like he will make you a better son-in-law than a **-in-**. You a woman and naturally you are clever,resourceful,perceptive and creative.You know and understand your hubby well and you say you have always been faithful.I strongly know that you can find yourself a good black man before the month of may is over.Explain to him the need to be discreet and you will enjoy yourself.Your sexual needs have changed over time and you deserve what you heart and ** craves:).Pleasure will be all yours lady,make an effort and you will possibly enjoy endless pleasure.

Oh, Sweet ** Christ! I almost came in my chair when I read what you wrote about the mother and daughter sharing that black man (was that actually YOU they were sharing? it sounded soooooo intimate and personal and hot). AND HAVING CHILDREN FOR HIM!!! My daughter would freak out but I would love that: for both she and I to be pregnant by the same man, and loving our babies together. If that happened, I would not need to rely on my husband anymore, and I would take care of Zachary and my daughter and Zachary's children. How did you know that was inside of me??????? I mean, you are naturally very insightful, much more than the vast vast majority of men, since you recognize that my sexual needs have changed over time: so so so true. My sexual appetites have exploded over the last five years in particular and my husband's bulb has dimmed. He still does me, but not with much enthusiasm, and not with any variety. I imagine that Zachary could and would violently ragdoll me, every time we were together alone, and that he would ** all three holes with so much vigor that he would send me home to my husband, wrecked and ruined, and useless . . . until the next time he needed me. You obviously understand women very well. So I know you won't have any trouble finding that married white woman you covet. She'll be a very lucky woman. And mother.

Black guys are the only ones with real **. Those things that white guys have between their legs can't even be called "**". But they can be called "pitiful" and they should be. I don't even mess with whites anymore. Blacks are the only real men. And they're the only ones who will ever get me. I'm so over white guys.

What exactly got you to be so over white "pitiful" ** for black **?

After I started getting with black men I started realizing just how disappointing ** with my white boyfriends was. Up till then I thought I was having great ** with the white guys I was in school with. But then it got where they couldn't reach the things inside of me that needed to get hit. Actually those thing inside of me needed to get ** pounded. Only grownup black men could do that for me. White boys were just a joke to me after that. Black men could get it deep, they loved it wild and dirty and rough, and they sprayed your insides more than any 20 white boys ever could. Having a grownup black man ** in you is like sitting on top of a ** volcano when its erupting. I love black men and more than that, I love black **. Its true what they say. I really will NEVER go back. Not because I can't. It's because I have absolutely NO reason to. So yeah......I am so over white penises (they aren't **).

That is amazing...I can picture an erupting mount Etna inside you for sure,lol.You go girl enjoy it!

There was this one black guy I went with several times and when he bent me over and ** me standing up, or when he did me like a dog, he would hammer away at my ** CERVIX!!!! Nobody else ever hit that spot, and he made me ** every ** time. Lemme just tell you......that ** was ** HUNG!!!! And he could totally throw that ** ** around!!!

Reading all this about interracial **, and interracial infidelity, and biracial babies makes me want to go out and get with a black guy and have him impregnate me. I'm the proper white wife and I've been married for over ten years and have never cheated on my husband even once, much less with a black guy. But suddenly, I find myself wanting exactly that. I think you must be a black warlock, casting spells on all us unsuspecting married white ladies. I don't know how you do that but it's rather impressive.

Proper married white wife...go out and quench your thirst.thirst. Dont live with hunger for a black man unsatisfied forever,its bad for you.
Don't just sit there;do something!Please let us know and thanks for sharing.Remember you live in a real world and in this world,amazing things happen and if you do nothing,you are to blame for missing out.Any black men around your city,bars,online,work,church,club,park,restaurants,.....?

Miley Cyrus? That's a man, baby!

Whenever I go to my dentist's office,I always get attended by a male dentist.Lately,I have been receiving care from a female dentist. One day,after noticing she was pregnant and showing,I simply said to her " something is different about you but, I cannot put my ** on it". She was thrilled and laughed and told me she was pregnant,about seven months then.She said it was amazing I noticed the change because most men don't or won't. Today I had to go and get a punch of heavy duty work done and I was lucky to have her do it.She was wearing scrubs from her medical school and just looked awesome.To do the job,she had to get really close to me in the chair so I could feel her tummy and ** touching me and she was so professional,sweet and caring throughout the visit.I felt no pain and we had small talk and she was telling me about her small hometown where she grew up,what they did for Easter weekend etc. I am not going to lie to anybody and say my ** got hard, etc. I just know that I enjoyed the care she gave me. I was watching BET while they were doing this and Ice Cube(O'Shea Jackson) movie was on.She told me she likes him.I thought to myself,maybe she is into black guys?I have to see her again next week but after that she leaves for maternity.Well,I hope that is not as close and I will ever come to a pregnant white woman...just wanted to share that:)

Once upon a time I worked as a dental hygienist and there was this black man who came in often and I fantasized about him constantly and got aroused whenever he came in for his appt. I was always afraid that he would be able to smell me creaming as I was working on him or that he might sense the sexual energy I was emitting involuntarily. I admit that I even occasionally fantasized about him knocking me up right there in the office and in the chair, and that my hygienist friends would walk in on us just as he was ** inside me and giving me his babies and that he would announce to my friends when they walked in on us that "I just knocked this white ** up, but don't tell her husband who the father is until he sees it for himself." Nothing happened between us, but he totally turned me on all the time.

Thanks for sharing:). Why didn't you ask him out or let him know something? Have you dated a black guy at all or would you care to?I agree those dental chairs look so inviting for ** for sure and possibly most dentist ** their hygienists on them.

I totally should have asked him out, even though he was married, but I was so young then and I was new to the practice and trying to appear professional to the patients. No, I haven't been had by a black male, though I have fantasized about it, even dreamed of being taken against my will. To be honest, I think I am slightly afraid of becoming addicted: you know, that whole "Once you go black you can't go back" thing? As for ** in the dental chair, yes I have, and yes, it was spectacular! OMG!! I was still single at the time and I had an affair with one of the married dentists in the practice where I worked and he did me many MANY times in the chair. And in his office. And in the lab. And in the xray. And in the waiting room. And in his car. I was so in love, what can I say?

Lol..you sound wild and just so creative and adventurous.I will never look at a dental chair the same way ever now! Tell us why you have not been had by some kool black guy all this time and what you gonna do to change that.I should move to your town asap.There is nothing wrong with getting addicted..we all have valid reasons,no matter how minute,why we stray-just manage the situation and you will be fine.You deserve to enjoy a black man in your lifetime and some black guy deserves to enjoy you.Its all mutual,see?