I once told a woman in labor that I hoped her baby died.
I was newly married,young, and the baby was my husband's...I had just found out he had been cheating on me.
The words just left my mouth.
That was 20 years ago.
He never even knew the child's name.
We divorced years ago. (Not immediately...but a while.)
He died recently.
There is no apologizing for what I said now.