Iam in love with my girl bestfriend
Iam a 14 year old,iam average looking. When i was in 5th grade i had crushes on alot of girls,just crushes.I was a loser.I was the nice guy who always got friendzoned no matter what.But in 6th grade i met a girl,she was beautiful,she had a great personality,she was really sweet and nice to me,i had a small crush on her at first,but then i fell for her. We became bestfrienxs in 7th grade.She was the first girl ive ever kissed on the cheeks,she made me feel different,she made me feel like iam not a loser,i already asked her out 4 times,but shes in love with this othef guy who is a total j*** to her and hurts her all the time,but this guy has a girlfriend so its not happening YET.The girl once told me she would love to be mine,but i asked her out four times,ive never been this hurt in my entire life,it isnt affecting our friendship but its making me weaker.I love her and tbe way i feel for her cant be described.But if its not meant to be,i cant make it happen,its hard to let go,caz shes all i ever wanted. What should i do?