Worked up and confused.
I am not a perfect christian and tired of people putting things in my mind about so many negative thoughts and I am not saying that religion is perfect but who is perfect anymore sick and tired of people killing kids, kids looting, people hurting others with words. I don't talk to a whole lot of people and probably because i feel awkward and do not know how to express myself at times. Yes there is this man who is raising his three sons on his own and I am in love with him I told him how I felt and lately it seems like I am dreaming about him again. I am seeing images of him in my head. lately, I have been going to oracles, tarot cards, quija board a few times to see if I can some answers. I do have a gut feeling that we will talk again and that he and I will be able to be at the same church again. I miss him, want him back in my life. He is the only one who has never ever laid his hands on me, raised his voice to me, or even did anything to me. We have apologized to each other for the past and that makes him a hero in my book. God I want him back in my life