Worked up and confused.

I am not a perfect christian and tired of people putting things in my mind about so many negative thoughts and I am not saying that religion is perfect but who is perfect anymore sick and tired of people killing kids, kids looting, people hurting others with words. I don't talk to a whole lot of people and probably because i feel awkward and do not know how to express myself at times. Yes there is this man who is raising his three sons on his own and I am in love with him I told him how I felt and lately it seems like I am dreaming about him again. I am seeing images of him in my head. lately, I have been going to oracles, tarot cards, quija board a few times to see if I can some answers. I do have a gut feeling that we will talk again and that he and I will be able to be at the same church again. I miss him, want him back in my life. He is the only one who has never ever laid his hands on me, raised his voice to me, or even did anything to me. We have apologized to each other for the past and that makes him a hero in my book. God I want him back in my life

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  • If you continue to visit those Satanic channels you mentioned, you will be sucked into the kingdom of darkness. Fast and pray brother.

  • The way believers in Christ know thing or are guided is to FAST AND PRAY; have you done that; why not? Normally, a christian should fast at least thrice a week; yea you righteousness should surpass that of the Pharisees. See Matt. 5:20, Luke 18, and Matt. 6:1-19

  • A lot of folks have had enough confusion from a "confused world" to last for a life time! Lack of "personal identity" can bore oneself sick even to having suicide thoughts . Have I once considered suicide in my life? Yes .. . and indeed, many folks you see that walk the streets are full of challenges and pains that were inflicted or innate. In my own case, in my teens like you, I thought I will not be able to achieve anything because I was abused as a child lived in a home that always felt like an explosive device was about to ignite. I struggled with these feelings and tried to fill the void via alcohol and "street smokes". I envied and wanted to be like others. I began to steal. Well, I am an adult now, well educated, employed, married, had kids, drug/alcohol/smoke free, and really free from all my demons. How? Yes, I know that this will be the question in your heart. It sounded foolish and dreamlike but it was real. Someone gave me a copy of "New Testament and Psalms and proverbs"; a little blue covered book which could fit into my pocket. It was published by Gideon international. I began to read it from "The Gospel of John" like he advised me. I love reading and it made sense. Well, I may not be able to tell you all that happened to me but I discovered that as I read it daily, I began to be attracted to and talk to the main character in the story; Jesus and it seemed like and old self of mine was dropping off daily. At some point (think it must have been after 3 months ), I was shocked when I was out with my friends and realized that I hadn't touched alcohol in the past 2 weeks! That was strange. And the stranger thing was that alcohol lost its appeal to me. In fact, it disgusted me. My friends told me that they will "give me just three months" and I will drink myself to stupor like before. well it has been years and I keep getting better; more pleasant than the person I ever tried to be

  • You claim to be religious - stay away from the Ouija boards!

    Pray to god for your perfect match to come into your life under grace in perfect ways and the right one will show up - good luck!

  • Show up nakid with beer

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