How do I get over him, tell me?
Tell me how?
Its 2 months now that we're broken up. I cried the first month constantly and the second sporadically.
How do I get over him?
Do guys really forget everything so quickly? How? I cant. I cant forget anything.
Im holding a book in my hands, 130 pages that I need to prepare for the exam tomorrow. I cant bring my self to focus on 3 pages straight. Its 1 paragraph reading and 20 minutes daydreaming! Aand then 10 minutes of checking whether he made any facebook updates. Then 10 minutes of googling poetry and sad poems, staring at his pics on my phone.
And then around midnight, when all is quiet, I start crying because... all that I once had that was mine, had perished in 1 day in one moment. Just like that. Boom - gone. Not mine anymore.
I lost the ground under my feet. The whole world that was surrounding me had crushed. The first month I slept with his photo on my pillow. Just to have him close... and I told him-in-the-photo what I felt in those broken hours.
So, how do I move from there?
And dont tell me to occupy myself with things to do - cause I am preoccupied. Midterms are hitting hard, but my clock aint movin. Its stopped there on that day, 2 months ago, and Im stuck with it.
I wish I could write, Id tell you all about this love. How beautiful it is. Not the story, but this feeling I have. Unique.