Okay, so yesterday I accidentally cut my thumb open trying to self harm and I had to go to the hospital and get stitches. I told my mom I was just playing with the razor and that I wasn't trying to harm myself. The staff at the hospital didn't believe me so I had to talk to a specialist in mental health. I confessed to her that I kinda wanted to kill someone. Not anyone in particular, just someone. I told her it sounded fun to me. She told me she would talk to my mom but I told her no and started to get mad and I walked out. I came back a few minutes later and she had brung my mom in and I waited for my mom to say something but she didn't. So the lady never told my mom about what I said but I still have the feelings about doing it. I really do need help but I'm so scared to ask for it. What should I do?