I hate being a mom
I had 3 kids under 3. I love them, they are actually really good kids compared to all the other little s**** I know. But that doesn't make being a stay at home mom any easier. The biggest thing have kids taught me is that I don't like kids, at all. I am so sick to death of the whining, crying, neediness, messes, cooking, laundry, etc etc. For most of my motherhood I had no friends, and I always hoped that having mom friends would help. But now I have awesome mom friends and I'm still miserable. I'm great at pretending, I don't even yell at my kids in public or around anyone but my husband. But when it's just me and the kids I spend the entire day either yelling at them or trying to avoid them. It's getting easier the older they get, but I'm so f****** bored with my life and so sick of being around kids 24/7. I don't know what to do anymore. I have no identity anymore besides MOM so even if I just abandoned my family I have no clue what I would do. The weekends are my only reprieve. I love and like my husband and he gets just as annoyed with the kids, but with both of us here it makes it all so much more bearable. But when he's at work I am drowning. If you are reading this and don't have kids yet, don't ducking do it! Or just have one, I think one would have been way more enjoyable. 3 is so f****** HARD. FML. Glad I found this site so I can vent without anyone knowing its me!