I was invited, but now I have to go
I entered into an open relationship with a married couple. They've been married ten years. Things were good, and we were all happy. But like all good things they come to an end, and the wife got a bit awkward/weird about the intimacy aspect. Now they want me to shift to being just a close friend, but I don't think I can do that. I am a person, not a faucet. I can't just be put on and off just like that. I am sad, but I have looked at the pros and cons, and I think I need to walk away. This way I can do it on my own terms without being sent away. What is hardest for me to imagine is just being around as a friend, but being forced to see their casual affection and intimacy - kisses, hugs and touches.
I just needed to type this out, so I could organize my feelings. Thank you for reading.