You had to go

I confess that I never wanted you to leave.
You were an overseas exchange student, so
You had to go
Eventually.

You managed to
Extend the time that we were given together,
But not by much.

You had to go.

We love each other still,
Even though you are on the
Other side of the world.

You had to go.

We loved each other
So strongly.
Now we won't be with each other again for
At least 2 years.

You had to go.

When we had
Our last moments together in my home,
You cried.

You had to go.

I didn't cry because
I needed to be strong for you.
I needed to help you not fall into
Misery and grief
By being the rock that
You could steady yourself on.

You had to go.

I love you
Too much to let my own feelings show if it means that
You would feel worse.

You had to go.

Afterwards, when
You left through my door, I couldnt stop myself.
I collapsed
Before I had even gotten to my bedroom and
Cried in the hallway
For 2 hours.

You had to go.

It's been a week.
I never cried when you were around because
It would make you feel bad.
I've cried more this past week
Than ever in my whole life.
Not even when my uncles died,
Who we're like grandparents to me,
Did I cry so much.

You had to go.

I've not been able to sleep in
The same bed that we slept in
Together,
It makes me feel too
Lonely.

You had to go.

I can't hug anyone for very long because they
Remind me of you
Too much.

You had to go.

I love you.

I want to see you once more,
To touch your face once more and say that
I'm sorry
For any grief that I've caused you.
I want to kiss you and
Cry into your embrace,
To show my deepest emotions.

You had to go.

I love you.
I'm lost without you.
I'm so alone because

You had to go.

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  • YOU have to go... away from your keyboard.

    10/10 for narcissistic angst. 0/10 for poetry.

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