I keep having nightmares of horrible things happening, like school shootings, and I wake up terrified or crying. I have nightmares about my girlfriend or pets dying in my arms and I can never save them. I've had so many of my close relatives die and I'm still only f****** 16. My girlfriend has depression, and I keep having nightmares of running to her house and getting there just after she's taken poison or stabbed herself and she bleeds out in front of me. I'm terrified of losing her, I'm terrified of anyone close to me dying, I'm just terrified in general. I hate this, I feel like a spend 2 hours a night balling my eyes out or screaming in my sleep.