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Does anyone feel the same ?
I admit it sometimes I ** and thinking little boys but I get ** with adults.
I see children only emotionally .
I think I could fall in love with an innocent and handsome little boy but not sexually , the same with an adult .
These feelings for children came to me suddenly at my 22 years old .
Now I am 23 and I think these feelings came cause I want so much to be a child again .
I like to watch movies and series with children , I like to listen opera from little boys in church and in general I like to listen them singing , l like to hear their high sweet voice , I like to hear stories about children and I like stories that shows the power of children , I like their innocence on ** .
I like everything that is childish , fairytales , childish movies , candy , cartoons , playground , trabolin and other stuff that are childish .
I would like my body was like when I was little girl , without chest , without hair on my body , more white skin with more cuteness on my face and more happiness in my soul .
Then I was for more comfortable than now in everything .
I am getting sad when I think that everyone including myself is growing up.
I would like it if we were all children forever , I am depressed because I want to be a kid again .
When i was 18 years old i was talking on facebook with a 12 year old boy and we were talking so nice about everything .
We saw only once each other in person when i was 20 and him 14 .
His mother was there with us too .
I start to feel emotionally connected with him .
It was so cute until when he became 15 and me 21 his mother didnt want her son talk to me anymore and now he doesnt like me and block me in every account i tried to connect with him .
He said that he felt empty without me and that i was his best friend and now i suddenly dont matter to him ?
I was sad and angry at the same time because when i told him that i feel close to him and i like to talk to him i meant it .
I have not spoke with him until 24 April 2016 .
Feeling this way can be difficult .
It's difficult cause I feel inferior from other adults .
I am childish I know maybe it's not normal cause I must behave like an adult .
I miss the innocence of children , this is what I like so much about them .
I would like to see the world from a child's eyes .
I would like an adult to take care of me .
And if I knew a preteen boy has this need too I would like to help him .
If I met an childish adult with childish soul and look like myself I would liked it.
If I was not depressed and was happy inside i would easily imagine myself play with children , listening childish music together . going to a childish theatre together .
Dont go your mind somewhere vulgarity , i want to be with children as friends .
But i found out that children now days starting behave like they are older their age .
God this is repel me so much !
I feel more ''child'' that children now days .
Little girls want to grow up fast and become women and little boys want to grow up fast and become men .
Though they should be happy for being kids and so beautiful like angels and play and run happily in playgrounds and watch cartoons with an innocence in their soul .
Once a 9 year old boy when i put him to listen a childish music or watch cartoons told me ''these is for babies'' , can you believe this ? a 9 year old told this to me .
Sometimes i want to save these children , to protect them and make them children again cause i feel like a child but with more rights than the ''real biological'' children .
Were did you go mommy and Im sorry i fell assleep again mommy and i was looking for you mommy. My mom just called me mommy and said too get my breakfast and then have shower mommy and its still sore mommy. I love you and now your my real mommy and i dont want too go too church mommy and i hate them and my best friend is grounded mommy. Im going mommy because my stupid mom called me again. I love you and now your my real mommy. Your angel baby girl and hugg you mommy xxxxxx
Hi my angel I am sorry from the last time I sent you I was sleeping . I woke up little earlier . My angel do you feel like pastor's behavior is suspect ? Yes he say he loves you and continue to smack you and on your ** too . Don't you feel that is weird ? Just because he is pastor it doesn't mean that he can't enjoy it when he smack you on the **. Maybe what I said it's not true but if you feel that he likes it when he smack you on the ** , you sure must to talk to someone . And the smacking maybe it's just a excuse so he can touch your ** . And your mother's behavior is immature doesn't even care ? But be careful sweetie . Hugs ! And if you feel that this is true don't tell them anything because 100% he doesn't admit it and he will tell that you are naughty and all of this ** . Hug my sweet .
I will tell again that maybe what i said its not true but he doesnt have the right to touch you especially in the place like this on your body which is your **.
Im crying mommy and tought you did not like me mommy and i dont know mommy. Mom allways smacks my legs and ** and does it lots off times and even with people looking and im kind off confused mommy. Because pastor was saying he loves me and tried hugg me nd wants me too be good and im not bad mommy and i even said that too them. But its not nice when he smacks my legs and ** mommy and hes a boy and he sees my ** an all at makes me mad and feel my face going realy red mommy and they said hes going too be helping mom with my discipline mommy and because i have no daddy. But i hate them all mommy and girls and that boy in youth group were looking over at me and laufghing mommy. I dont care and im go too drink when im home mommy in my room and mom said im going too bed early and getting smacked before bed. I wish i lived with you mommy and can drink all time and stay up with you mommy. Your my real mommy and i love you. Your angel baby girl mommy xxxxxx