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My step dad
This is about my step dad, and how much I want to kill him. I’m 17 and he’s been in my life since I was 5. He came into my life after my dad broke up with my mom because she is crazy (to this day she still is) I was an only child at first. I saw my dad every other weekend (we get along great). After awhile he started having kids with my mom, Jackson and Charlotte are my step brother and sister on my moms side. My dad also had kids with my step mother (whom I also get along with). Lucas, Daniel, and Rosalie. My step dad started paying less and less attention to me, which was fine because at that point I was 11 and I started to want a little bit of freedom. Then at 13 he started to treat me like **, this was when I had my first argument with him. From that day forth he hated me more than anything. I needed money to play my instrument in school and I needed money for baseball, he said No to both of them. Don’t get me wrong he had a great job (128,000 yearly) but he said no just because he didn’t like me. About 3 months later he got my brother who was 7 at the time into sprint car racing. It’s basically cart racing but 50+ mph. The car alone to build was over 10,000 dollars. To maintain it every month it was 2000 dollars. Since I Thought he had extra money I asked him again and he go in my face and said “why would I waste money on human garbage like your dumbass?”. He called me a dumbass because I had an F in math, all my other grades were b’s and a’s. We got in a big argument and now we both knew we hated each other. When I was 16 we got into a fight, it started with him pushing me down the stair and pushing my fish tank over, killing my fish. After the fight, he took my dog outside and shot her. He shot her in front of my eyes and I cried for over a month and I feel into a deep depression. Piper (the dog) had been with me ever since I was born. We grew up together and he murdered her in front of me. When I was in my depression I tried to kill myself 3 seperate times. And after 3 therapy sessions of finally getting through my depression he started calling me crazy and a crybaby. Just a few months ago he destroyed my car because I ate all of the chips that he liked since he told me I needed permission to eat. After destroyed my car he got into another fight with me. My mom didn’t do anything because she was on her pills all the time. After about 2 months without a car I met a girl that said I could ride with her to school. I happily agreed and after about a month of flirting I had the confidence to ask her out. We dated for about another month before she told her parents about me. They loved me and said that I was a great guy. But they wanted to meet my parents. I took them to meet my mom, she didn’t say much because of the pills and when my step dad got home he told them to get out. When they left he got in my face and told me that I am nothing and that that girl would never truely love me. He told me that I should just stick to my right hand and kill myself. I fell into another depression, I didn’t try to kill myself but I was still contemplating it. I still live with him and my mom because I’m No legally and adult yet. He degrades me everyday and bosses me around and beats me. Today I made a promise to myself that one day, No matter how long it will be from now, I will kill him. I will get my revenge on him No matter what the consequences. The only thing keeping me from doing it now is my girlfriend, she truely loves me and I don’t know what I would do without her. I love her so much and I don’t want that monster to be in my personal life or her life. Someday I vow I will murder him in the most painful way possible.
I agree step dad has it coming. But, not now. Not even soon. You have got enough to handle right now. Survive until you can earn a living and marry your beautiful girlfriend. Do you think he will attack someone else when you leave? ( Not concerned about Mom, but one of your siblings?).
Try to get damning evidence. Audio recording of your fights or just
him mouthing off like a lunatic. ( His professional job must have mostly sane people that would change how they feel about him.) Plus, child protective services . Keep a daily journal at your girls house. Maybe record your mom either talking shot ( evidence) about him or evidence of her pulled out neglect. [ I'm sorry...But your mom has been a horrible person. She isn't a victim. She doesn't protect her child from the danger and brought into the home. Has more kids !?!]. Sorry you have so much to deal with. ,You sound super mature. Your experience would make anyone question their lives value. So don't be concerned about those past flirtations with suicide. It's not crazy to not want to live with crazy **....But you got a girl and a future and some. Kids who are really gonna need a BIG brother! Wouldn't it be great if you had one now? ( I'm old , 57,but I volunteer.....helpyagetthatsobstepdadrevengetoo!). Anyway, one more suggestion. Sounds like your girlfriend has classy parents. Please don't have ** yet. You need allies. You cannot afford to disappoint them. Make them proud of you want your relationship to work . Peace out. My name is Robert J Reed. I live in Desoto, Mo. 63020.
Hay dad are you gone i luv you dad xxxxx im you little girl dad
Hay dad im wake dad im was look for you ages and i cant find you dad i not sneak down look at my cartoons dad i promise and dad i hope my teacher is not mad at me now dad i luv you so much dad im you little girl dad hugs you dad and please find me dad and were did you go dad hugs you dad xxxxx
Are you there pal...........
You there pal and my princess is winding me up...
Want too take my princess off me for a week pal...
You there pal and my little princess is such hard work......
Well sir bloke will little princess here.....
He'd be dead after he killed my dog. No lie I would risk the jail time. I hate my step kid but I'd never kill an animal to hurt them
You have a right to feel the way you do. However, killing him (though your feelings are valid) is not a good choice for you. Please resist the temptation to attack him.
It would be good if you could find someone, a trusted adult, school counselor, psychologist, pastor, or a friend for you to talk to. You are an articulate and intelligent young man. He is sick and abusive. He has no credibility.
Did you tell the therapist about the dog and him tipping over your fish tank and pushing you down the stairs? I am surprised they took no action
His cruel acts of violence towards you are nothing short of child abuse / abuse of a minor / domestic abuse. He should have and still could go to jail for that. However, the important thing here is you. I am very sorry about your dog. I would avoid any confrontation with him for now.
As for not wanting him in your life, you have the right to cut him out of it. You do not have to accept unacceptable behaviour. And he needs to be held accountable for his vile actions. I realise I don't have a full picture abou twhat is happening there and what your actual situation is. But remember it is temporary. You will leave that house and make your way into the world.
There is such a thing as Karma. You don't need to kill him. However, you can (with outside help and maybe your mother's support) set boundaries and he can be held accountable for his actions. Just don't commit murder. It will destroy you and the beautiful future you can have.
Were are area (city) are you based in. I can recommend a source(s) where you can go for help. The violence against you needs to stop now.
He has the purse strings tight.
So don't expect support from him. Your true patents are the one to ask for stuff. Ask mom or your real dad for an allowance so you can replace food that you didn't have permission to eat. It could be time to find a minimum wage job doing 15 hours a week. Every dime would be yours. Not much but a few paychecks later and some new co-worker friends you will be able get some freedom.
Don't eat the jerks personal food. Take your full share at dinners. Don't ask for special treatment. You are now the middle overlooked child. If there are things to do as a group then get in it!
One thing that will be hard to do but could you be the sweetest kid who waits on his word. Like. False worship. Unless there is a huge reason you stayed with your mom or the judge made you stay with her. Can you move in with your dad? Will that show your mom that things are not right.
I am sorry u have to suffer from all this....definately he deserves to die in the most brutal manner in the history of mankind ever seen....but believe me that would be a temporary solution....you 'll spend rest of life in jail...I know u don't care...but just take it as a bad phase of life....complete ur studies ,get a job...and get away from that son of a **....I wish happiness to you...may god be with you and u should raise this matter