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I beat up my boyfriend
I am bipolar young woman, diagnosed at 14. Long story short, I moved in the last month and now have no health insurance. I quit buying my medicine because I didn’t want to buy it anymore.
My boyfriend and I took a vacation to Las Vegas last week for 5 days. I had started to get really irritable, **, and bitchy due to not being on the meds anymore. For no reason.
One night, we went out to a few night clubs. We had ALOT to drink. We got back to our hotel room, I ended up going through his phone and found a few texts he and his friends wrote saying about how rude I was being. Nothing horrible, just stating facts I guess. I found a reason to get upset, and I beat him up. When he held my hands back to keep me from hitting him, I head butted him. I bruised his eyes, left bruises and injuries on his cheeks, and split his lips.
This has never happened before. I feel so awful.
I feel so ** horrible. He is such a wonderful man and treats me like a queen. I am trying to make up for it. I’m still not on medicine (we can’t really afford it) and I’m not going to drink anymore. I’m going to a priest at my church to seek counseling.
I love him dearly and I want to make it up to him, I don’t know how! please dear God forgive me.
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I did it too.. Rage took over, and now I'm left hating myself a little more than I did before.
I did too .. but fact is he did beat me up in the past .. which is not the reason why I did it ... but I was already heated and he told me he was depressed and wanted to die .. I snapped .. I told him that I needed him and he had to man up ... I will never be able to forget that look of fear in his eyes. The worse is that I am on my meds but I stopped going to the therapist. I feel awful. I pleaded him not to go and he stayed. He has his own mood swings and I am scared that one day one of us goes way too far.
Then say that in the ** post not multiple comments after. Its misleading ** like this that makes me unsympathetic. And did you just say he treats you like a queen? So... now that makes you a liar to me
Wow...you hate yourself? cool **...if i did that to my girlfriend id be in jail for 10+ years
Women problems LMAO
I just did the same thing. Feel awful.
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i feel bad as well.. I also got into big with my b.f..he started calling me names and starting ** out of no where, and he was saying some real ** up stuff that pushed those buttoms.. i know there excuses for this.. so i punch him several times, he push me several times.. i started to scrath his face up.. it looks sooooooooo bad :( i can go to jail anytime for this.. :( i dont know what got into me.. I need some help to control this. i cant believe my self..
I too did a search for "I beat up my boyfriend". He's the second guy I've ever hit...the first one I hit once or twice but definately not as badly as I hit my guy last night. I feel awful about it even though some of my friends say I was justified...in fact i do feel somewhat justified because I wanted him out of my house, he kept barging into any room I went into, trying to "hold me still" and I couldn't stop him, all the while i'm yelling at him to get out of my house (we were both really drunk)...but I feel ** about trying to justify my behavior at the same time, especially as someone who has been on the receiving end of domestic violence. I beat him in the head with a metal hairspray can a bunch of times...I have no idea what it looks like and haven't talked to him (we've only been dating a couple months, so I think it's pretty much over) but apparently it's swollen. Me being drunk and losing my car and asking him to help me find it (he wouldn't) is what started all of this. I feel so horrible and ** hate myself for resorting to crazed violence.
i did a search for "i beat my boyfriend" and found this. I have similar psych issues too, but i dont believe thasts where the desire comes from. I think our decision making is fleeting b/c its feuled by emotion. the desire is something to get to the bottom of, the action I thought was a choice but it certainly doesnt FEEL that way in the moment. Why does hands on violence come to mind as a means to a soloution? It shouldnt, but i dont feel the decision being made, i just swing. ANd these action lead to heavy guilt, which furthers my attachment and I turn suicidal b/c i cant stop myself, and thats pathetic because I know I Love him, Im just not IN Love w/him right now, We're both overwhelmed by our life situations, and that drives us to emotional, financial, and our relationshit/ps extremes. I honestly hate my behavior, and Im so scared I cant prevent it from happening in the future. He would NEVER hit me, and I know that, I almost wish he would cause it would be a raw show of emotion, Id kill for a smile, a laugh from him, but the easy buttons to push are the ones with hairline triggers, for myself as well. I know we're a strong force, we can/could do alot, and Im starting to wonder about that'if you love it, you set it free, right?' and that thought is Killing me Inside because I feel like a cage, i feel ive trapped him, and its killing me inside. I needed to write this somewhere, someone will read it..
Feeling the same :,( thought I was alone. I was abused by my biological father for 4 years sexually, mentally, emotionally and physically .. I have so many issues because of it! And it causes me to be this way. My emotions really run me
I read an article that we could take yoga, to do meditation and run away from our boyfriend or ask him to leave.
their is no way you can fully make this up to him, only threw time, you did a horible thing, but the fact that you are not drinking will show him that you are trying to make mends. the best thing you can do is spoil him and tell him how much you love him. have you appoligised but only say sorry once as you don't want to appear clingly.
Haha dumb ** I woulda slapped you into next week
Haha dumb **
I am starting to research for an article about female perpetrators of domestic violence against their male partners. Would you consider talking to me and help raise the profile of this often under discussed issue?
I bet if it was him who attacked you you'd have had him arrested.
Want to make it up to him? Leave him