I’m a Junior in high school, and I

I’m a Junior in high school, and I dated this guy, let’s call him Bob, in freshman year for about a month. We only wen’t on about 4 dates and there was no real connection since we didn’t have any communication so we broke up. We didn’t really speak for the next two years because we didn’t have any classes together. This year, about a week into the school year, he commented my facebook with a cute video. After that, we started talking more and more, and since we had about 4 classes together this time, we teased each other, talked to each other, laughed and just had fun. I only thought of him as a friend, but I knew that deep inside, I kind of liked him again and I felt that I actually had a connection with him. I’ve heard from friends that he had a crush on one of my very good friends, let’s call her Susan, and was even going to try to break her up from her boyfriend at that time. I didn’t really care because I didn’t know that I liked him then. But today, after school, I stayed at school with him, Susan, and some of my other friends. We were having a great time when him and Susan left us to go “talk.” The others and I jokingly bet that they were doing inappropriate things and whatnot, and I was joking with them. I kept a smile on my face, but when they left, I knew he was going to ask her out, since she didn’t have a boyfriend anymore. I found out later that evening that they were officially a couple, but he texted me saying “hey baby.” (it’s an inside joke). I noticed that the conversation was different this time like “you can’t flirt with me anymore” and “let’s try to keep our cordial dignity alright?” It may not seem like much, but I was CRUSHED! I knew our friendship would change, but I felt like it was too drastic. I couldn’t even respond and I couldn’t focus on my homework all night which is why I’m writing this. I’m really happy for him and Susan because they’re really cute with each other, but at the same time, I wish that something would happen so that they would break up. Although our last relationship ended in failure, I wanted to try again with him. I don’t know what to do, and I feel so icky inside. I know our relationship is going to change at school and I know I won’t be able to laugh with him like I used to. I don’t want to say something I regret around Susan or him so I’m going to keep on congratulating them while I watch them from the sidelines, with jealousy and regret.

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