Molestation related

I was molested multiple times during my childhood years. I never thought I could release the embarrassment and pain until I met a man named John that helped me through it. I never thought it would work, it sounded gay and disgusting, but it was unbelievable. I grinded d**** with him with this guy for 45 minutes and honestly the first 20 minutes were awful. I let my mind go and the final 25 minutes were Pure Pleasure and release. I came, laughed with Paul, I moved on with my life. It was that simple. I never had homophobic or mental health issues with my childhood Mental Health ever again.