I hate my own race
I literally ignore everyone of my race automatically down the street. I only hang out with Chinese people. Sometimes a customer of my race will come inside who is my race and make small-talk chitchat and I literally just ignore them like I didn't hear anything. I don't really like my family either but not as much hatred, including all my extended family. I just don't like us. Compared to Asians we are arrogant, talk too loud, are too gullible and enthusiastic, and love to argue. I wish I was born ethnically Han. I probably look really weird to everyone in my town for only going to Chinese places for everything.
Hate **. It also causes cancer. Get rid of it. If you love the Chinese people go live with them. There's no shame in that. Enjoy their food and culture. I did that with Japan. Be where you'll be happy just don't hate on folks because youcant stand them. You are better than that, love.