I'm cheating and I love it
I am totally wild for a guy exactly half my age. We met on the internet. He's been my online lover for a year. We talk for hours every night online. We m********* for each other on webcam all the time.
I want to meet him in person and f*** his brains out. This might be happening soon. I hope so. I am crazy about him.
My husband has always been stupid jealous of me and never trusted me when I was faithful. I care for him but the sexual connection hasn't ever really ever been good for me. I can't stand how he makes me hide who I really am sexually because he's very judgmental and jealous. I really belong with a more open-minded and less possessive man. I feel like a square peg in a round hole in my marriage. I seem to keep things rolling along by going through the motions but I feel like I'm just playing a part.
If hubby he knew what I was up to with this young guy...it would drive him insane. But I don't want him to know and I don't want to hurt him.
I don't know what I'm doing with my life but I just love getting off with my lover and making him c** over and over for me. He turns me on like no one else ever has.
Basically I am lying to everyone I know by leading this secret second life. Probably the most horrible thing of all is I don't f****** care. I just want what I want.