I have bipolar II disorder, and...

Before I went on medications, I was a lot more fun, clever, and creative. I knew exactly how to make my friends laugh, and did it all the time. Now I sometimes fear that I bore them.

I have to admit that I am a happier person in general than I was before the medications and therapy (there was some personal trauma as well).

But I feel so much more alive when I am having an episode.

I feel more like myself.

I used to have an incredible talent for poetry and for expressing myself in ways that got to people. Moved them.

I've been well medicated for a long time, and lost those abilities; lost all inspiration.

I ran out of medications for a while recently and I feel as though I'm now beginning an episode.

I wrote a poem, a good poem, for the first time in over a year tonight. I wrote words that actually meant something.

I also got those medications tonight. Sometimes I wish they didn't exist.

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  • Meds do dull your personality, but you are not your illness. Your personality will shine again, it's just that the meds are heavy. Eventually you will be a truer version of yourself possibly because of this illness. Hypo mania feels fun for a while but it can scare people too. Take care of yourself and take your meds. The side effects will eventually not be as noticeable.

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