Lost in Faith
I'm so lost... My mom tells me that I'm such a good person but she doesn't know...
I have barely prayed in 8 months.
I read soft p***.
And I enjoy it all.
I'm confused about my sexuality.
I don't really miss my faith, even though I thought I would. I got tired of feeling like I was never good enough - that if I only searched a little harder, then God's plans for me would be revealed. I was tired of feeling guilty.
I feel guilty for lying to them about who I am. No one knows at all. And it kills me inside because I just wish the people around me would accept me for who I am, whoever that turns out to be. I don't dare tell them because I know they'll be ashamed of me.