Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant

I lost my wife to a black dude just like you. Just EXACTLY like you. Smooth-talking. Educated. Really dark. Really hung. After she gave birth to his second child I split. Didn't really have a choice. Had to go. I hung in after the first black baby came out. But I couldn't go through it again. It was humiliating. You guys are wrecking marriages. And families.

You're to be commended for staying with her the first time and enduring the humiliation. That was highly noble, unselfish and admirable on your part. It would have been great if you could have done it again, but totally understandable that you weren't able. Does your wife's lover have a family of his own, or is your wife now living with him?

I agree that it was very noble and unselfish of you to stay with her the first time. Please share as many details as you can, as the information will be helpful to many posters and viewers of this site. Did you know at the time that your wife had a black lover? Did you think all along that the baby was yours? What was your reaction when you found out? Did they continue their affair right after the first baby was born, or did they wait awhile? What was the reaction of family, friends, neighbors and co-workers? I can't imagine the humiliation. Did you think the second baby was yours until he was born?

I knew that she knew him through her job (not that they worked directly together) and that they flirted a lot when they saw each other (I saw it at company functions where he happened to be there too) but I didn't know they were **. Yeah I believed that both babies were mine. Naturally I had doubts about the second one because of the first one but she convinced me that number two was mine too. she made me a total fool. And I was shocked and humiliated both times. I really don't know if they chilled after the first baby or not. She said they weren't still ** but shes a woman and women lie. It's who they are. My guess? He never stopped ** her. Why would he? Would you? Uninhibited and unlimited and unprotected **? Would you send that on to some other guy to enjoy? She was probably throwing that ** at him even while she was still in the hospital after number one was born. And yes the humiliation was unbelievable. Really painful. And then after the second child I just wanted the earth to swallow me up. My friends laughed at me. They laughed AT me. To my face after number two popped. Our families were horrified. Even HER family was humiliated. And yes again: I thought that number two was mine also. She had convinced me. How stupid am I? It can't be measured. But I somehow think the black guy planned it all with her. Can't prove it. But I believe it. Totally believe that. Guys like him enjoy destroying white families and white men. He's boss. He won. **.

He's married to a black lady and they have some kids who are grown. My ex doesn't live with anybody now but the black dude pays at least some of the bills I think. The ex did live with a white guy for almost a year he couldn't take her always going to the lover and not giving him the ** every time he wanted it so he kicked her out. He was okay with her black children because nobody had ever thought they were his to start with.

It actually takes two to tangle as they say.The black guy would most likely have done nothing to your wife,had she not been a willing participant,or participated in the seduction process. She did not even stop at baby number 1,she went on to allow him to give her baby number 2( I like that by the way because I give my baby mothers two babies each:)).The way I see it,this is a 60/40 split responsibility between your wife and the lover respectively. Your wife gets 60% because she allowed,or probably aggressively craved, wanted,desired,or begged for,and happily carried the the two babies for 9 months each. The lover could have said no,but he probably had no chance,or intentionally was complicit in the impregnation,or had no clue your wife was ovulating. She may have told him she was on the pill,or had her tubes tied each time and he believed her. Hind sight is always 20/20. I know you think there are a million things you think you could have done to prevent this situation,but honestly,there is not even one you could have done to avert it.Please don't think I have no empathy for you and your situation.I say that because,people are going to do what they are going to do,no matter the consequences.One could be the best wife or husband ever created,but a spouse could still have the nerve or desire to go out and cheat. Happens daily,nightly.There is only one thing you could do for sure;find a way to heal and move on.Other than taking back the ex wife,you can't salvage this relationship-its completely lost and destroyed. And even if you tried to rebuild it,you will always have the negative memories,and possibly never thrive. I pray you find peace and love in your life. There goes the 2000th reply:).

Spot on, as always, OP! And congrats on passing 2000 replies-incredible!

I hesitated to say this out of concern for the poster's feelings, but the hottest part of this whole scenario is that they did it TWICE. That is key to me. The first time could have been accidental (although I doubt it). The second time removes all doubt that she is completely and totally devoted to her black lover! That is one one the most ** things I've ever heard! He is to be heartily congratulated! Having done it once, despite them both being married, they deliberately planned and carried it out a SECOND time-regardless of the consequences. That is why I hope the OP gets to do it at least two (or 3 or 4) times with a married white woman.

Hard to believe that you mentioned taking her back. She actually came to me a few weeks ago and asked me to do that. Said she wants to come home and be a family again (we had one kid together before all the black ** hit the fan). But she never said she was sorry for what happened or that she had lied so much. Or that she would ever stop seeing that black dude. Or stop having his illegitimate babies. The problem is that she canbe really seductive and she totaly knows how to work men. I didn't tell her yes but I didn't exactly tell her no either. I don't want that pain again. Not ever. And I hate being a ** laughing stock. But like I said.....I didn't stop loving her. Like she says: a man can't ever really get over the nastiest piece of ** in his life. She's right. I don't know what I'll do.

My wife is pregnant now and I think it's likely the baby is black. She says it's mine and that she ended the lengthy affair with her black lover several months ago, but I'm not sure I believe her about either matter. She's never been able to give up the bull she had (or should I say, the bull who had HER), so it's possible she's carrying his child. And it's also possible the two of them are doing this on purpose. I love my wife but I hate this whole situation.

Sorry for your pain, but if it does turn out to be his, I hope you do the right thing and stay with her and support both her and the biracial baby. It would be a very noble thing to do. He is a very lucky man and she is a very lucky woman. It will be very difficult, but you should stand by them, even if they decide to have multiple babies for you to support and raise.

When I see a guy expressing his hurt or distaste on this events and outcomes, it puts a damper on my aspirations, and having been cheated on, I sort of understand why he is upset. But then I reason that a woman has the freedom-married or not, to do what she is going to do with herself and body, whether we like it, allow it, see it as moral, immoral, or not. After so many years of having this affair and talking to the women involved, I concluded that a woman is going to do what she wants to do in life; including having an affair on her man, whether the man agrees with it or not. So, I try not to waste any good sexual opportunity I get from a worthy woman. I will not say no to a cute married woman who is into me, and give the next guy a chance to say yes, and enjoy the honey that should have been mine. If a married woman wants me to knock her up, I will, because if I don't she will move to the next guy, and I would be left saying I should have seized that opportunity. Given how long I have been craving this, I will not waste a good opportunity that presents itself, no matter the consequences. The black lover in this affair could not help but knock the lady up, and maybe the lady really wanted the baby by the lover; we don’t know yet. I do not believe that, with birth control, a woman can get pregnant unless she really wanted to, or has no clue how her ovulation works. This is not to criticize the guy and his wife, it’s just a personal general observation I have made over time. I agree with you; the right thing will be for him to stay and help her raise the baby; but whether he feels that is the right thing for him is only up to him.

"I will not say no to a cute married woman who is into me, and give the next guy a chance to say yes, and enjoy the honey that should have been mine." **-you have a way with words and of reflecting my exact thoughts! To be brutally honest, I see three winners here: the black lover, the very satisfied woman and the beautiful baby. Sadly, the husband is the one loser, but he can turn it into a win if he can love and support his wife and her baby.

I have to stop eating my hot lasagna and respond to you for sure. Thanks for appreciating my words. Yes,hubby is left out and that is the sad part of this love triangle. The baby and lovers are an item, and hubby is now isolated/excluded. He has to find a way to get in,and be relevant;and that is by accepting and being the father to the love child. Otherwise,the lovers and baby will carry on as if hubby never existed. Well,lets hope the child is hubby's. I am so anxious to know the truth. Now I can get back to eating:)

Do you have a clue on how all that got started and ended up in her getting knocked up?Had you been encouraging her to take on a black lover or did she do this secretly? How far along is she in her pregnancy?

Is your wife's black lover married and have children by his wife? If so, you have a better shot at being able to stay married to you wife and raise their child (or children); that is, if he chooses to stay with his wife.

1965!!!!!!!!!! I love that year,lol.

Ditto! They made great cars, great music, great women back then!

1965 is the year my wife was born. She's a Southern girl who was raised to believe in strict racial separation, and she held to that belief until the evening of her 40th birthday party when she met a black man who changed her thinking. He did it with his **. Now ........ she dates. But only blacks. She had never cheated on me until that night but now it's a constant thing. She's discreet but she's aggressive. Black men love her.

How did this black man manage to change her thinking? What are some of her exploits? Does she bring the black lovers home, or she does them out there? How did she convince you to support her sensual desires for black lovers?

I was really just planning to point out the way things have changed since 1965 by using my wife as one of many possible examples: I'm certain that many white women born that year have changed their belief systems in order to seek the desires of their hearts . . . and wombs . . . and I've now met a few. Separation was the norm that year and then came all the changes. Anyway, we had a big dinner with friends that night for her 40th birthday. A very nice but fairly tame celebration. Then we went to a music club where a 60s-70s band was playing. One of the other patrons was this tall (6'7") black guy wearing tight-fitting pants clearly displaying how big and thick and long his ** was (literally more than halfway to his knee). He came up and asked my wife to dance and she did. They danced for 30+ minutes solid without a break. But then they danced a slow dance, and I could see him grinding on her and talking in her ear making her smile and blush. And I could see her grinding back on him. Then he took her out to his car and did her. I didn't see her for three days. After he brought her home she told me she had "a lifetime of catching up to do" now that she'd discovered the pleasures of black men and their black meat. She knows how I feel about divorce and that the marriage vows say "for better or worse". Sort of "no matter what". She demanded I stay and I have. Regarding where she makes love to these men, sometimes it's at our house, sometimes it's where they live (if they aren't married), but she also has two regulars that live out of town and come here for business -- or frequently just to make love with her -- and then they will stay at first class hotels if its on their expense account. I don't even know where to start telling about her exploits other than to say again that she is unbelievably (and sometimes embarrassingly) aggressive. I would never call her a **, but others have, at least some of the few who know what she does.

My wife is no classic beauty (and she's a **) but the black men love her and she loves them. She's never said nothing about getting black knocked up and I am not going to put that idea in her head. But if she ever decided to do that she would never have no trouble getting pregnant. Couple weeks ago we were waiting on line for movie tix when she spied this strapping black bull behind us in line for another show and they were making eyes at each other but doing it where his wife couldn't tell what was up. My wife said she never saw this guy before but she was hungry for it. We went in the movie and about 30 minutes later this guy comes into our theater looks around and comes in and sits next to my wife. They whisper to each other a little and kiss a while and then she leans over and unzips his pants and takes out his **. She strokes it for about 5 minutes and he blows his load all over her hand and arm and even some on her shirt and jeans. Before he goes back to his wife in another theater she gives him her cell number and tells him to call. They been out on dates four times since then and she says he's ruining her. She's been on dates with blacks before but she's never said nothing like that. She still hasn't said nothing about babies but I don't know what shes up to anymore these days. All I know is she's hot for this black man and his ** meat.

I am blown away totally by this story,its amazingly **. But how come the black guy did not acknowledge you? Well,why did I even ask that,I should know better. What age range is your wife? What were they whispering about? Why does it sound like you support your wife on this 100%?I can see bi-racial kids in your house in the near future to add to the one you have now. You gonna have a diverse full house...actually,you the man.

When he came and found us in the movie she told him not to worry about me. Can't say that happens all the time but it does happen a lot. She definitely runs the show when it comes to our ** life. They whispered at first about me and whether or not shes allowed to play and she just said that she does as she pleases and ** who she plaeses at her leisure. (When shes around black men she uses the word '**' a lot and much more than she uses it in other situations: she says just hearing the word '**' makes a black man want to ** something and hopefully its her.) I just used this example because it was the most recent thing she done but there are lots of times this ** has happened and some are real embarasing. I dont support her in her infidelity or in the interracial relationships but I realized long ago that it didnt matter for ** if I supported it or not.....it was going to continue either way. We have 3 kids mostly grown but no black ones. Shes never said nothing about having any black children but I stopped trying to predict what she might do. God only knows. ONLY God knows.

I see. If she had babies with her lover,would you raise them with her?

I don't have definite proof but I think it's probable that I've already been doing that. She was having an affair (with her older white boss from work) before she got pregnant with our middle child and I always thought she belonged to him: she even looked like him when she was a baby, and she still does. The young one doesn't look like me, so I guess he could belong to somebody else too. So I guess if she had a black kid I would probably do the same but who knows what could happen. I don't know. All I know for sure is that I married a super hot piece of white **. And she can have nearly any man she wants although you would never know it to look at her.

I agree with you about the view counter: that was a nice feature and really gave a sense of how popular a particular page is. Too bad they took that down. I mean, I like the date indicator, showing how long ago a comment was posted, but the overall total number of views was interesting information to have. Anyhow, congratulations on your tremendous success here.

Thank you so much for your observations and gratitude:)

I really love how all these girls and women are so aggressive with finding and effing black men. I wish I could do that. I think about it. I see black men who I would want to meet and who I would want to make love to me. But I can never bring myself to do what these girls and women here are doing.

I also love and get very turned on by such aggressiveness and determination. I actually learned that from married white women in my earliest 20s and I have always found it to be so **. I was shy and reserved then, but was told I looked good. Whenever I acted evasive or unsure,the women just would never give up and tried amazing creative ways to get me to say yes. Then after Ia while,I got confident and loved the attention and whatever else came with it. Now, why in the world are you spending time thinking about something you would rather be doing and enjoying?You should not be forever the Thinker,you should be the Doer!Why do you think you cannot unfreeze yourself and have some discreet fun? How long have you been married now and how are things? Amazingly,you have made a great step.Posting here tells you/me that you have been craving something that you either are missing or naturally deserve in your body and life. You are exploring options and at some point you will release your mind,heart and body to unbridled pleasure.You will be brought into so much ** that you will look back and wonder;why did I sit and think for so long?

Oh my sweet Jesus. God help me. You speak to me like you know me. You speak to me like you know my life. You speak to me like you know my body, inside and out. I don't think there is any way you could know who I am, but I have to ask, even though I'm afraid to ask: do you somehow know who I am?

Hahaha,I have no clue who you are,what you look like,or where you live. All I know is that you have repressed hunger for good loving, and that you have been unable to free yourself from some invisible chains to enjoy yourself.If it has to be,its up to you. I know you have the will and desire and whenever there is a will,there is always a way. You have the will so find a way...just do it:)

I have been thinking much more than normal about what you said, about finding the will power. There is a fine fine fine fine FINE black man that is a business associate of my husband, and even though my husband is a part of my problem I think about this black man so often that I cannot help wanting him more and more. He is the last man I should ever try to have an affair with but because the relationship would be sooooooo wrong he is the first one I want. Even though I've never said anything to this man, I think he knows my desires. I have been masturbating over him so constantly these last many days since you spoke to me. I always imagine him entering me and taking controls over my entire life. He excites me and arouses me. Just the thought of him makes me feel like a new woman.

So when it happened i knew i couldnt go back to my husband i mean i could physically 'go back' and live with him and be his 'wife' but i could never make love with him again and i havent ever since then not even

Are you teasing us? We would love to hear the whole story,how and why you got started,how long you'd been married,any kids,and how it finally happened.How is hubby dealing with the no ** life?

The KKK is making a huge comeback and they will put an end to all this **.

We have no space for hate in this page. Please take your views elsewhere if you can't manage to keep them to yourself. Shame on you.OP.

If the klan doesn't take care of this, they will see to it that our President does. Either way, all this filthy miscegenation will soon come to end. Believe it!

Filth is what it is and it has to stop.

...agree...............

LOL. The KKK and slave owners were all democrats. They might talk tough, but many of them and their wives were getting BBC or some black ** on the side. The limp-wristed KKK is going to stop anything. They and their ilk are a part of it.

Just noticed today that you had crossed over the four year threshold. Four years. FOUR YEARS! That is so totally amazing! So.............

C O N G R A T U L A T I O N S ! ! ! ! ! ! !

Ohhh my,thank you so much for the congrats. Its been 4 years already and I am still looking and anticipating? My thanks to all those who have made this a great run. I wish they had the view counter running,I used to love that.

47mwf with 4 grown kids and 1 still in high school. have been reading your posts here for about a year. never had an interracial relationship. went to a happy hour last night with some girlfriends from work. met this group of young black kids. YOUNG. one was tall and muscular and he made me wet. somehow he knew he was making me wet (i have no ** idea how he could have known that ** but he totally knew!!!!!). i felt his ** through his pants for over an hour and you cant imagine how hung he is. he was a GOD. i kept stroking him through his pants and finally he made a move on me i couldnt resist. one of my girlfriends could tell we were hooking up so she offered me her spare bedroom for the night and i took her up on it. the black kid ** me like a ** boss and never let up. all night he ** me. ** ** this kid could **. nonfuckingstop. i told him several times that i was aching for his babies but i didnt tell him it was because all the writing here was just in my mind and heart and soul the whole time. he told me he couldnt wait to see me pregnant with one black baby after another. i told him i would give him as many as he wants until he wore my ** womb out from it. and he told me he WANTS to wear my womb out. the more i told him i wanted his black babies the harder and better he ** me. he must be like you. jesus i have kids older than this kid and there i was begging for his children and draining his **! heres the problem..... i cant have kids (surgery 12yrs ago) and now i dont know how to tell him. but i can tell you this: i will do whatever it takes to stay on this hot black kid with the huge **.

What a lovely story...first of all,I am excited for you for finding a good well hung guy to satisfy your cravings. Secondly,I am sad that you would not be able to have kids for him...you have to let him know as soon as possible nicely that you can't. Third,thanks for sharing. Where did you tell hubby you spent the night? How did he seduce you to the point of ending up deep in your womb? What did he like so much?

A lot of amazing ** happens here. WOW!

Hahaha,you actually gave me a good laugh,thank you. What amazed you so much?

EVERYTHING! All these white women, mostly married, who seem so nice and quiet and plain on the outside, engaging in all these incredible relationships, and all these wild and overheated (and frequently filthy) ** acts, some getting knocked up in the process, but all of them -- ALL -- wanting to and then hooking up with super-virile and SUPER-hung black men. That's the definition of amazing! I've never seen or heard anything like it! So, if you are the OP, thanks so much! And if you're not, thanks anyway!!!!!

I actually get amazed by the stories I read here just as you are. Yes,there is something about those quiet married women that wakes up and turns them into unbelievable ** and baby cravers, and many carry out their plans.Are you male or female?Thanks for contributing. OP.

No, thank YOU for all your work here. And I hope you continue this incredible forum. I'm male, black, 39, divorced, and I've had some of the same experiences you've had. Married for 10 years to a great black lady, two fine kids. She divorced me because she found somebody who "tuned her up" better than I did. Gotta say, though, that it took me several years longer than it should have for me to get over that (if I'm over it, that is). Since that blew up, I've dated several white women, many of which are married (gotta say that I really LOVE the married white girls), but haven't had any children with them yet. Also like you, I want to have that experience. I hope to find one in whom I can stir that awakening you described (and have experienced) and I hope to make her start craving babies. So ** **. THANKS again.

I was in HS before I realized that all that stuff you hear about black men is true: I thought it was a myth. I went out on a date with an older one the first week of my freshman year, and when he started hitting it, he was hitting my cervix. MY ** CERVIX!!!!!! My cervix had never been touched by anyone or anything other than some of my biggest **. Needless to say, I never went back to white men for **! My cervix needed more attention than I ever dreamed!

Nice! Did you end up marrying a black man then? What did your parents say about your dating choices at the time?

No, I didn't marry a black man. I married an older white one, although our story is too long for you and your readers. We don't have ** (he has some performance issues, and there are other complications), but he supports my relations with a few black men, and sometimes enjoys watching me with them. We love each other deeply, my husband and I, even though we express it in ways that don't involve penetration. My parents? They kicked me out of their house when I was 13 because of my interracial relationships. I hated them then, but now, I mostly feel sorry for them. They "forgave" me when I married a rich man, but I told them to keep their forgiveness: I didn't need that ** **. I will say this in their defense: when they kicked me out, it soon led to a life of totally ** dancing in "certain types" of clubs, and that eventually led me to my husband, so I guess they did me a favor, even though they never ever intended that. I have the best of all worlds: a devoted husband who truly loves me (and who surrendered his family for me), and a ** life that is every little girl's squirt dream.

I am happy there came a silver lining after your parents kicked you out at age 13.You have been blessed with love,money,happiness and a great husband. What do you mean by "(and who surrendered his family for me)"?Does hubby,or you,want kids with any of your lovers? I would have been very delighted to hear your long story...just as most readers would have am sure. Yes performance issue happen in life,especially with age progression,and more so for men. I am sure I am not I was in my 20s,lol. I am glad you found a way to accept the issue and still foster love:)

When he came to me, he left his wife and ended the marriage, obviously, but he also had to give up his kids, though it WAS NOT his choice. They were all grown and not living at home, so it wasn't that big a deal, except that I was younger than all of them (and more beautiful than all the girls), and since I'd taken him from their mother, they all hated me. They can't stand to be around me, can't look at me, or talk to me, or acknowledge that I exist. Fine with me: they are all ** anyway. But the situation hurts my husband, and he had to cope with it for my account. It's just another measure of his devotion to me, but they think he's being spiteful, when what they don't see is that they are doing it to themselves. (He's considering something more punitive for them, though I'm hoping to hold it off.) We actually HAVE spoken about a child or children, though we are not close to any decisions. I may write you more on that topic later, seeking your perspectives. But for now, thanks for your input and your empathy. And for all your effort here, helping people and giving them guidance.

.....i am a 22yo white woman married to 49 yo black man for more than 3 yrs....we dont have kids because i am having problems getting pregnant (its complicated) ......i am starting to notice a growing relationship between my husband and my mom.....they spend time together mostly with me i admit but i dont know if they are ever alone very often ....... anyways they always seem to stand or sit so so so close to each other and they flirt a lot.......it makes me uncomfortable.....they both say nothing is happening..........but after reading this site from you i wonder and now i worry........i think he may be talking or complaining to her about my not giving him a baby and even worse.......he may be talking to her about HER giving him a baby.....he has kids from each of his earlier marriages but their all black.....and i know he wants a child with a white woman really badly ....but after reading this i realize that urge is not unique to him..........and that other black men want the same thing....so i think the two of them may be doing family planning...it scares the ** ** out of me........ ........

Well,from your brief description,I feel like you may have something to worry about. Your hubby and mother may be in the same age range and can greatly identify with one another. If hubby desires children, and sadly, you are not able to conceive,he may be tempted to go after any other woman,white or not. On the other hand,he may not be close to your mom because you are not able to conceive,it could be that they simply get along. But personally,I have never tried to flirt with a mother-in-law, I just keep my distance. Not all black men desire kids with white women,but some do,and I am one of them,just as he is another. You may need to ask your mom to be honest with you and explain what is up,same thing with hubby,and you may want hubby to work with you to try to get you pregnant. Is your mom still married to your dad? You are much younger than your hubby(nothing wrong with that),how did you meet and finally ended getting married?I was married to a lady who had endometriosis and could not conceive.Its very stressful and I feel for you. But don't lose hope,miracles happen,know your medical problem and seek a solution. Best wishes.

.... i hadn't ever talked to anybody about this before (embarrassed) but after i read your answer i talked to my best girlfriend about it and she was relieved because she said she had been seeing it for as long as my husband and i have been married..... she said about the same as you said: she's sure they have been ** each other for a long time and have been really active for about a year just from how they look at each other when we're all together and even how they touch..... she also said that because they are closer in age (he's actually even older than her) they would have more in common just like you said.... my girlfriend had been keeping this a secret but she said she overheard my mom saying something to him about mixed babies (plural) at a July 4 party in the park downtown ...... but you also asked about my dad...... my mom left him a year ago....at the same time my friend says she noticed my husband and my mom getting closer and the same time she is sure they started ** each other or at least got much more intense abut the ** ....so my friend says that the divorce was all a part of their plan...... she's clearing the way to take my husband from me and have my husband full-time and without my dad being in their way anymore (my friend says they COULD have been ** ever since he and i got married maybe even at the wedding)..... then she has started remodeling two bedrooms in her house but she stopped after stripping wallpaper and flooring.....my friend says shes getting ready for babies but wont admit it..... i asked both of them again if they were having an affair or if they were in love but they both just laugh me away..... i am so afraid that you are right.....especially since you always seem to know what's going on in peoples lives..... i have cried the last 4 nights....

Your heart,mind,body, confidence,trust,and self esteem have probably been crushed by these new findings. If your gf has seen and told you about the strange mother/son-in law behavior,and you have been laughed at without a concrete explanation to your serious question/allegation,you have much to worry about.What are you going to do? Personally,I hope you find a way to cut your losses and run while you are a head;no kids of your own,no step kids from either hubby or mom to embarrass you(although they are coming). All that crying and worrying can get you into depression,anxiety, give you ulcers and even destroy your health at a young age. In my opinion,the way they laughed you off shows that either they don't take you seriously,or they have something to hide. If you leave the two off them alone,you will for sure find happiness elsewhere,guaranteed. If you stick around,you will stay miserable for no reason.I don't have all the answers,but at 22,go get a good education(if you don't have one already) so that you can earn better thought your life,and some worthwhile 22 year old guy might notice you as you build and organize a better life for yourself,and join you in that life. Just don't get a chainsaw and use it on your hubby or mom please.

... i don't know what to do ....... i went and talked with my father last night and he broke down and told me my mom has always been a ** ........and she always cheated on him with different guys but nobody knew about it.... but he said he was shocked when she came to him and told him the marriage was over.....he thought his tolerance of her constant adultery would keep her happy..... he said to keep my eyes open and not be caught up in her "stories" .... he said she's a pathological liar and even her parents told him not to marry her...... i said WOW..... he said he wouldn't put it past her to come after my husband ..... and that she never gives a thought for anyone other than herself.....he said she will take what she wants when she wants it..... and nobody, including my husband, is out of bounds for her..... she said he will never get over her and will never date or remarry...... he was crying the whole time we talked...... he told me to talk to my aunt who is my mom's sister and ask her if she knows if they are already having a relationship AND if they are planning a family because of my problem.....

Just wanted to offer my CONGRATULATIONS for having gone over the nineteen hundred mark. I've been with you from the beginning and am so impressed and proud and pleased by your accomplishment. Well done!!!

Thank you 1905 times,lol. I appreciate your congratulations wholeheartedly.I think it's awesome that you have been keeping up with this for almost 4 years. I must also those who have contributed and kept this going. I have learned lots from others here,I had no clue it would last this long. Keep following and contributing:)

So I can totally tell you this. The black ** that I have been getting outside my marriage for the last 10 months is not just better than my husband's (there is really no comparison), it's better than anything I've ever seen or felt or taken or tasted or been on or had. That man has ruined me with it. I am ruined for it. And if he decides he wants me to have babies, then by ** God, I will have babies. It won't matter than I'm almost 40: this man will have whatever he wants from me. I won't ever let him get away from me and go elsewhere for what he wants. He'll get it here for as long as I can give it.

How did all start and progress to where things are now?

It's a reeeeeally long story, which I won't bore you with, so I'll just tell you a couple of things for background. I'd been having a little fling with this guy's best friend, but as soon as I met Kellen, we clicked, and I changed horses in mid-stream. And "horse" is not a metaphor: with Kellen, it's reality. I told his friend I was ending the relationship right then, and I left the club with Kellen that night -- it was Halloween, if you're into irony -- and haven't been to bed with anyone since. (I even moved out of the bedroom I share with my husband at home.) Given his skillset, I assumed he would tire of me quickly, or dump me for fun, or pick up a group of white teenage girls one night and not come back to me, or decide to rededicate himself to his wife, but he's kept after me, even more than at the beginning. We've never talked about kids, but like I said: I am not going to allow my man to develop a want for ANYTHING that I don't supply. It would kill me if he ever felt he had to go elsewhere to get something he wants, no matter what it was. Obviously, one thing I can't give him is youth, so that's my fear: that one of the teenaged white girls who come after him will one day take him. Until then, I'm all in. And he's all in me.

Any kids with hubby? Are you planning to give Kellen any kids? How did you explain your move out of the bedroom, and what did hubby say?Nothing you said bored.

My husband and I have four children, ranging in age from 8 to 17 (the last one was a surprise, another long story). I have no plans to give Kellen any children (we haven't discussed it), but as I said, if he asks, I'll do it. This is a man who should get everything he wants, and I am the always-compliant, ever-obedient white mistress. Mostly, though, I would do everything within my power to keep him from going elsewhere for whatever he wants or needs: I want him coming to me for all that. He's already got enough white teenagers chasing that **: I don't need to be worsening my odds. As for what I told hubby when I moved to the guest room, I did what you might expect: I lied. :) I told him I couldn't stand his snoring anymore. He went out and bought medications, tubes, implants, devices, and anything he could think of to accommodate me, but I just kept complaining, and have still refused to return. But a man like you will understand that his snoring had nothing to do with it: I just could not tolerate having anyone else's ** in me other than Kellen's. Why would any self-respecting white woman allow a man with puny equipment enter her when she can have massive black meat instead? It's a rhetorical question. :)