Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant

I thought this piece from The New York Times might be something you'd like to read. http://www.nytimes.com/2015/06/28/magazine/confessions-of-a-seduction-addict.html?action=click&pgtype=Homepage&version=Moth-Visible&module=inside-nyt-region®ion=inside-nyt-region&WT.nav=inside-nyt-region

One thing I like about this site is the fact that they allow posting of external links. I read the story(Confessions of a Seduction Addict) and even some of the 78 comments.It reinforced the notion that its not just men out there trying to seduce women;some women are aggressively doing it too without even worrying about the consequences.What amazed me is that the story appeared in NYT magazine's Mental Health Issue, as if the writer's behavior denotes mental deficiency,when its actually a daily occurrence around the world.I saw the story as being a true and voluntary confession-though it may have been done for financial gain.Thanks for sharing and I hope others read it.

True. Men have been engaged in that sort of behavior for centuries. Nice that women now are playing the game, huh?

I think its good some women are aggressively playing the field. I have always loved it when a woman who likes me makes the first move without fear or shame-relieves the pressure of me and turns me on to no end.

During the school year just ended, a group of black boys at my daughter's school decided they were going to knock up a bunch of white girls. They targeted the very popular white girls (cheerleaders, pageant participants, etc.) who also happened to have moderately rich parents. My daughter wasn't one of those selected and while I was glad for that, she was devastated to have been ignored. One of her friends made "The List" and was one of the first ones to get pregnant (last October). Her parents forced her to accept an abortion, although the girl was vehemently against it and wanted to have the baby and raise it. By February, the same girl was knocked up again by the boys and is scheduled to deliver in late summer, and her parents aren't resisting this time because the girl says she wants their black baby and eventually she'll have one. She told me herself that the boys don't treat her well and they just ** her like an animal, but she said, "Once they stick those ** things in you, you'll do whatever they say". Apparently, they tell each girl to get off her birth control and all of them have done that, including my daughter's friend. So far, four girls have given birth to this crew's illegitimate children, there have been two abortions, and six more are pregnant right now. Two things that are additionally interesting about this matter that you should know. First, in many instances 3 or 4 of the boys take a targeted girl out on a date and would knock her up together, hoping to shield paternity (adults know it doesn't work that way, but these are kids). And second, the word is that one of the mothers of the targeted girls is ALSO now pregnant by the crew. Like I said, I'm glad my daughter wasn't ** and knocked up, but there's something REALLY ** about what these boys are up to. And to be honest, I almost wish I was that mother who got knocked up. It's crazy, and I haven't confessed elsewhere, but I have the desire to get pumped and filled by these boys.

Isn't that something!So these well to do rich girls and mothers are craving black boys and bi-racial children regardless of the repercussions?Well I think I saw this phenomena with my own eyes from the mid 80s to around 2000 when I lived in a city/state with predominantly white people then.For some odd reason,there was an influx of black people from other states and Africans.The newcomers took up jobs and enrolled in schools.Africans still flock to that state in large numbers to this day, and can be found in even very remote parts of the state. As a result,white women and girls started getting knocked up, in large numbers, by the new immigrants,while large numbers of black women got with white men and boys,resulting in a large number of bi-racial children, that continues to this day.Many of my friends and relatives, who still live in that state,have mixed children(ohh maybe that's why I want one or many myself,lol). So,is it safe to say that your daughter will hook up with some black guy and get knocked up in the near future?Are you married still? What are you gonna do about your wish to be filled and knocked up by these boys?Are the of legal age, whereby you cant get in trouble?Is the mother already knocked up married? Had you dated a black guy in your life before this event?When you think of being with black guy(s)what thoughts or feelings do you get? What do the parents of the knocked up girls say when you talk to them? Whats the general mood of the community people around the school about all these? Thanks for sharing and shading some light on this lovely social issue.I sure hope you find time to address some of the questions I have raised.It may be uncomfortable to look inside you and share,since you stated you haven't confessed anywhere,but it will help you gather your thoughts and learn more about your thoughts and life choices.

You have a great deal of insight, I have to say: talking about these particular desires is very difficult for me. I can talk about ** freely, but not this: maybe it's that it's still so taboo that I'm afraid what people would say. So, maybe for now I'll start with the others and then see how it feels. A lot of all of this is still gossip, and some people say there is no "** gang" (that's the phrase that is occasionally used) at all, but just a bunch of ** young black guys coming on to the white girls at school. Either way, I think it's all incredibly **. I didn't think so at first: I was frightened when I heard about it, and depressed when my own daughter said she wanted them ALL in her. What changed my mind was her friend describing how these boys were so unbelievably hung and how they ** her, and then finding out about another girl's mother. Some people say her baby isn't black, that it's all just rumor, but I know the woman (not well enough to ask), and what I heard fits my impression of her: they say that she went to a group of the boys and told them she wanted to be knocked up, but that they would have to keep ** her, not just a one-time thing. Between the teenager talking so openly about these black boys, and the married white lady having an affair with SEVERAL of the same boys, God it just turned my libido upside down. I'm married, too, like she is, so her pregnancy both makes the things these young boys are doing seem real, and makes my getting knocked up feel possible. I'm a fraidy cat, so nothing will probably ever happen, but it's so hot to think of, and those two women - one younger than me, one older - bring the whole thing much MUCH closer to home. My home. I'll try to work up the nerve to answer your questions about me, but just writing about the other situations so candidly has aroused me to the point that I am a little afraid that writing about my needs and wants would just convince me to go find the boys today. And **.

I know you will eventually find these black boys or a real black man and ** him and get knocked up,especially after all the bi-racial kids are born and can be seen physically. I was in a little rural town today, 30 miles or so from where I live.I stopped, with my two little sons,at the city's major park so that they can have some fun, before I drop them back at their mom's crib, in the big city.Believe it or not,the park is across the fence from a high school.At the play ground,my sons and I were the only black people.At the edge of the park is baseball fields, and one of them was being used by little boys, and my sons wandered there,following the other playground playmates, and I followed them.I stood at the fence behind the batter's box and looked at the field,and the bleachers to my right, and all around the corner, and saw no other black people. That made me remember your story about the black boys in your community.Other than very few Hispanics,most of the adults and youngsters present were white,very pale and blonde(absolutely nothing wrong with this whole scenario). When I was about to leave,I accidentally dropped my keys and the lady seated there talked to me(she was a realtor with a leopard print dress or skirt.She asked me to enroll my kids in that game and I told her I was from out of town.I think I should have asked her for her business card.In any event,I wondered how many moms,wives,and young daughters there, would indulge in what you and your other married women and the daughters are so intrigued about.

A lot has transpired since we wrote to each other in the spring but I'll try to be brief. First, two more of the mixed race babies have been born, for a total of six, so there are four left to be born. And that doesn't include the pregnant mother of one of the girls. I have gotten to know her in the last two months well enough to ask her about her pregnancy and it is apparently true: one of the black boys is almost certainly the father, although she has no idea which one......and she loves not knowing. She is still having ** with all of them, and two of them she claims have ** bigger than horses. She wants to hook me up with either the entire group or the two that are so hung, and she says she knows they will love me and that they will treat me better than they treat the daughters. You asked about my daughter and when you did, I thought I had convinced her not to get pregnant. But then I heard she broke up with her white boyfriend and was dating three black boys (not in the ** gang) and was bragging to her friends that she "will be bred by the time school starts". She actually used the word "bred". Unfortunately, when I confronted her, she apparently knew about my conversation with the other mother, and told me "I know you're going to ** them, so why are you ** me out?" The matter is unresolved, but I guess I have to admit that it's even more arousing to think of being pregnant at the same time as my own daughter, even though it would be by different boys. I feel lost, but I also feel like I am heading toward something beautiful. It's scary. Anyway, I though you might want to know........

my husband knew just what kind of ** i was when he married me (believe me, he TOTALLY knew) so if i turnt up preggers and popped out a black kid, he could NEVER claim to shock. he could claim i was a filthy ** but he already knew that. :>

Good thing he knows and will be able to deal with it.Thats a perfect situation for sure.You ready to get knocked up?

Starting with the new margin as indicated below....... I'll write another time when hubby isn't nearby and tell you about our history but right now I don't want to risk him seeing any of this or learning about my secret lives or backtracking me on this conversation. I'm not scared of him or anything like that because I run our relationship (totally) but I just really don't feel like explaining myself to him. What I will say, however, is that i may have misjudged your situation a bit. :) Yes, it does appear that you're going to become father again, but it also appears that you might be about to bag the mother, too. **! **! Over time, I've been had by 3 men who also had my mother, but what YOU are doing -- a mother-daughter combo -- is VERY different and is really a POWERFULLY ** thing! **!! More on my situation another time (when hubby is out), but for now I'll just say WELL-PLAYED! And WOW!! You'll say that's not what the mother meant, but mark my words, my darling....... that is EXACTLY what the mother meant! (I know what I'm talking about.) And you are going to have a LOT of fun!!!

If I play my cards well, and not care about the lady's other baby daddy,I will not only knock her up,but keep her too!You have been careful for years,so I dont expect you to mess up now. Take your time and get up to speed when you have amble time and privacy.Did you say,you have been with men who used to kick it with your mom?? I have been with two sets of sisters and if I do this lady,she will make my third set:).I am not so sure she knows I did her little sister, tho I know she knows we were close and(she even wanted a secret baby with me this year)and I was devastated because she passed away late last year at 27.Who knows,the mother may ask her to look my way so I can get a baby daughter, with that ** diastematic teeth(gap on front top teeth) like all the ladies in that family,lol.

I know it's none of my business, but OMG! Are you planning to knock up the mother, too????!!?

Lol,no,I wont want to knock up the mother,she is probably beyond child bearing age and most likely would not give me a chance, so would not try.But hey if it so happens that she would want me to,I will have a hard time saying no.She has produced very ** daughters and I would be delighted to have one just like her many daughters.I actually hope that I have a daughter with the daughter(she already has a son)because if that daughter turns out to look like mothers,aunts or grandma,she will be gorgeous:)

I read the posts on this site every now and again but I have never posted anything but I felt like I had to say something about the way you wrote about this one certain woman deeply involved with a man outside her marriage. I'm a married white woman with grown children and a first grandchild on the way (in the fall) and I have never ever cheated on my husband. To be honest, I never even cheated on anyone I dated although I don't ever judge. Many of my female friends have had affairs and some of them (even some of the ones my age and older) are still having affairs: it's just never been my thing. However I feel compelled to say that what you said about a woman "presenting her womb" to a man was a wonderful thing. Really poetic. And truly beautiful. Those words have remained with me since I read them eight days ago. I think about them multiple times every day and now when I think of them I have also created a mental image of it actually happening. When the mental image began it was simply of a random, unknown married woman entering a hotel bed, naked, with a man not her husband, and pulling the sheets aside, and laying on her back, spreading her legs and telling him that "my womb is yours: do with it as you wish". Over the last two days -- and the last two nights in bed with my husband -- the woman in the hotel room with the stranger has been me. And my body has begun to want. It's amazing how you planted that idea in my head (and I seriously doubt I'm the only one) and made it grow. With that kind of extremely rare understanding of women, I think you will very soon find yourself involved with a white woman (most likely a married one, given your rich history) and hearing these words from her: "I'm pregnant darling, and it's yours". Thank you for caring about mature white women so very very much.

I went upstairs,brushed my teeth,put on my pajamas and was about to hit the bed. My ex gf has been texting me for hours about different things and I decided to come downstairs,check this post and others just to relax.I am so delighted to find yours,it sure has made my night.I adore the care and sensitivity with which you wrote or conveyed your message. I am equally ecstatic that you found the words I used so poetic...I may try to find that response and read it, just to get a sense of how I framed it. Earlier today,I was talking to my cousin who lives out of state and we happened to talk about his kids and those of a few other guys with other women(most of them white). Most of those bi-racial kids are now teenagers or in their early 20s.I found myself telling my cousin(he has no clue I have this blog type post going) that "I do not understand how I never had a bi-racial child with a white woman,given all the ones I have dated..it bothers me quite a bit." He said "don't worry you still have time" and I told him "am not so sure of that,my current gf cant do it for me". He simply said "leave her alone and get one who can".Well I am the kind of guy who would have told someone that many years ago.But over the years,I have grown a little tamed and considerate.My current gf is the sweetest woman I have ever dated or been with.It would be hard for me to get rid of her,but there is no way I will stop making efforts towards having a bi-racial child.I would not say no to a married woman either,I would actually prefer a married one,in a stable relationship, or with a very caring hubby,so that they can raise the baby together.Do you think you can mention what has transpired in you to your hubby? Seems to me that you would be a nervous wreck keeping secrets from hubby.What are you going to do now to quench the simmering volcano in your from erupting and getting out of control? Please keep reading and posting whatever is going on in your mind and life-its a metamorphosis.

Nice,8888 views today on 06/12/2015 and counting.

Something I thought you and your readers might enjoy:

http://www.nytimes.com/2015/06/07/books/review/loving-day-by-mat-johnson.html?emc=edit_bk_20150605&nl=books&nlid=68172458

You reminded me of a time I used to read novels of diverse genres. I was big on literature and could buy the Sunday paper just to read book reviews.In any case,Loving Day seems to be a good metaphor of our American life..or it could represent any country and culture really.Yes life is full of complications,confusion,happiness,sadness, contrasts, juxtapositions...Its not uncommon for someone who has $10 in the wallet to feel blessed just by meeting someone who is panhandling on the street. How about meeting a person who is divorced, or neglected by their spouse, and hitting it off so well that one feels like they just hit the jackpot?I have many friends who have been married once,but for a long time.It makes me ask myself where I went so wrong.I feel better by thinking how I struggled as a single father, but now have daughters who are college graduates, working and happily married, or little sons that I am grooming to be well adjusted men some day. There are many sides to each person.People who know me well in life cannot believe I espouse the kind of views I share with you here. My mother will be outraged to read my thoughts here for sure.But life itself is outrageous! I found this quote to be funny but true when it comes to what a bi-racial person may think about themselves- “I don’t know if I’m the byproduct of a racialized eroticism or a romantic rebellion of societal norms.” I think most women have felt rebellious with a tinge of racialized eroticism when dating outside their primary race.Thanks for the link.

I've written to you here once before (long ago), and I still check back in occasionally just to see if you've made your conquest (which I assure you will happen) and to see what kind of nasty fun your audience is getting up to. And this morning when I logged on, I noticed that you'd reached 800 comments/posts. EIGHT HUNDRED! That's really amazing. Most of the original posts here get little or no attention at all, and even those that have larger numbers mostly consist of responses that are inane or insulting, but the ones you receive are (for the most part) thoughtful and eager -- or just totally hot and incredibly **!!! -- and you make a huge effort to reply and inform and encourage your readers. Well done on such an accomplishment. And CONGRATULATIONS!

Ohhh,how so sweet of you to say all that or keep up with the progress of this post. I am really delighted.Yes 800 is quite an achievement.Most people who have replied have been ecstatic, encouraging,very open,expressive and kind. I have been shocked how engrossed women(especially married ones) are about this topic.I have really learned a lot from the contributions viewers and readers have made here. I just read a confession in another site posted today(05/27/15) by an ovulating woman who was on her way to her hubby's best friend house to have ** with him and get knocked up because she wants his baby so badly.That sure made me jealous,lol.I wish you had pointed out what you had posted about before,or briefly alluded to how are things going for you.I haven't made progress but I still have some strong hopes.Keep reading and posting and thanks much.

I'm afraid what I wrote wasn't very ** or original or entertaining (but then, I'm none of those things myself), but I do admire you and your quest. If you don't mind, point us to that other site that had the "hubby's best friend" plan on it. I've actually had a pretty mild on-again-off-again relationship with my husband's primary business partner, so I'd like to see what that other woman had in mind for her husband's friend. Thanks, and congratulations again.

Http://www.rawconfessions.com/confession/show/**-my-husbands-friend-

Many of us here would sure love to hear about your secret mild on-again-off-again relationship with your hubby's primary business partner.Very juicy from my imagination:)

God, I have had the very same urge as that other woman! It's so amazing and so hot to feel that and to know that she's brave enough to actually go do it! I wish I was like her! As for my affair with Ken, it's kind of a cliché (the taboo and all that) but still, it's been really important to me for many years. It started at a holiday party at his house, where everybody was drinking and acting foolish. In the spirit, Ken and I started flirting and it kind of got out of hand. We made out a little in the kitchen, and as soon as he pressed up against me and humped me, I could feel how big he was, and I told him I had never had anything like that, but that I wanted it BAD. And NOW. I pushed him into the laundry room next to the kitchen, yanked down his pants, kneeled down and throated him. He said nobody had ever done that to him before. He only lasted maybe half a minute and then exploded in my mouth, and on my face, and my neck, and my dress. So much **! Then we heard his wife out in the kitchen, so he hurried up to go out before she started searching. I tried to clean myself up as best I could, though I did NOT want to waste any of his delicious juice. Later, as my husband and I were about to leave, Ken came up to me and whispered "that's the best I ever had", and I said it was my best too. He said that we should have an affair, and I agreed. That was almost 11 years ago, and we still get together at least once a month, sometimes more, but sometimes much less (so many things get in our way). And it's still the best ** I ever had, and with the biggest ** I've ever had in me. I secretly love Ken more than my husband and I often think I should have had a baby for him. Nobody needed to know. Thanks for asking.

I've never cheated on my husband. But all these super ** ideas here make me want to! And of course it would have to be with a black stud! Soooooo **!!!!!

Me me me me me me me me me me me me me!Tell us why you would like to cheat on your hubby please.How long have you been married?Any kids,or would you want to get knocked up by the lover?

my husband doesnt seem intrested in knocking me up i wish somebody would.......

I would as soon as you are ready. What kind of man do you want to knock you up? Why is hubby not interested?You have any kids already?

me and my husband are white but i have a secret love for black men. i wish i knew why he isnt interested. we had ** like crazy before we got married but then it seemed like he lost interest and he heardly ever even touches me anymore unless i just force it. i had a baby when i was 14 but my parents made me to give it to the father and his wife. i want more children and i told my hsband that before we got marired and he said that was what he wantted to but then now he dont seem to want to **. i talk to him about it but so far nothing. he has agreed to go to couple therape and i guess he'll go but so far we havemnt went there yet. i want another baby or babies i really really do but i dont think it will happen if im not getting **. i mean i hate not ** but i hate not getting pregnant to. so sad for me......:(

I am so sorry to read about your plight and dilemma.I am not sure how old you are to see if you are chasing the ticking clock or not,but I assume you are somewhat younger still. The best thing is to attend the therapy to find out what the issue with hubby is,if he is not easily sharing it with you openly. From what you find out,then you can make your next decision alone or together. But really,if the two of you got married wanting the same thing, and now there is a change of heart on his part,something must have happened along the way-unless hubby misled you just to get you.Bottom line is,if you want kids and ** and he does not,there is serious trouble in paradise. The sooner you know the truth,the sooner you decide and get yourself out of this quandary.There is no reason to waste time expecting nothing.You must do something about this nothingness. We may all tell you what needs to be done,but only you and hubby can team up to do the right thing;or you take it upon yourself to do what you think is right.Best of luck and thanks for sharing the details of your situation.

(starting over at the top like you said to.....) i will write you morelater on but i mostly wanted you to know. i went to my obgyn today and its oficial: i am pregnant for sure and theres no doubt that vontay is the father. they cant tell me for sure whether its one baby or multiples but since i was on the fertillity pills i am about 100 per cent sure that its multiples. this has been a long long long thing in the ways that it happened but i have started to get what i want and vontay is it. thank you. more later. thank you!

Whaaaaaat!Congratulations girl! Multiples? You so fertile...Have you told Vontay or your mom? I was just telling a friend tonite how some brothas like to impregnate mom and daughter and here it has happened for real. Please let us know all the detailes. Best of luch and take very good care of all those babies.Thanks for this exciting news and update.

lol.......only so fertile coz of the fert pills! lol! vontay knows coz he was with me at the obgyn. havent told mom yet or my boyfriend. my obgyn says its usually about 8-14 weeks before the ultra sound can see how many babies are in you but he usually says like about 10 weeks. so thats what i am waiting on. i am around 6 weeks right now. vontay and me are so happy and we both think its probably 4 babies or are hoping that coz that will make some future things easier and more simpler (part of that is the mother-daughter thing you had said but that probly wont have to hapen now thank god). i will explain that later i promise but i just wanted you to know where things are for today. we are both so happy and so in love and super super super in ** and its just sooooooo ** and amaaaaaaazing!

Welllllll.......we found out this week that it is only 3 babies. i had first been hoping for 6 but then decided i wanted 4 but its only 3. i think it will stil work out for the bests because that is going to eliminate some other women including my little sis and also vanessa. my mom still dont know yet and we didnt tell vanessa yet either and its wierd but i know vanessa will be madder than my mom. i think von will still keep trying with mom since we only have 3 babies which is why i wanted at least 4 or more sooooooo bad. i want to tell mom but von is worred about what she would do. i dont know but im so glad to be carying vontays babies that i could explode. and i want to start telling everybody. i guess it will come soon enough and then i can be bragging. me and von are in love and we are having babies!!!! YAY!!!!

I obviously haven't bedded as many married white women as you have (your record is amazing!), but I'm in a relationship with one right now. We haven't discussed the possibility of impregnating her but the thought is intriguing. It would be her first child after four years of marriage, and would certainly toss a live grenade in the middle of her marriage. But I think the thought would excite and arouse her. I don't know if she'd go through with it, but I'm certainly going to raise it with her . . . . . thanks to you! I wish you only the best!

I envy you already! How did you hook up with her? Are you the same race? Please let us know how it goes when you tell her the good news. Best wishes.

For what it is worth I was in a similar situation to one of the other writers here. About a dozen years ago I married a woman who became pregnant some 3 months after our wedding. Roughly a week before our 1st anniversary she gave birth to a baby I thought was to be mine but the baby was really quite black. I was shocked and humiliated and angry as most men would be. I could have stayed with her. Thats what she wanted. She actually begged. But instead I bolted. Within a week I knew it was a mistake to leave because I missed our ** life. But I did nothing and said nothing for another six months. I thought I would get angry again but I just missed her and I missed her body. When I tried to get her back she had already taken up with another black man and he refused to give her up. I didn't blame him. She's a fabulous lover. I've tried several times since to get her back because I still care about her and because the ** is better than anything I ever had. But she's always with a black man. No marriage for her yet but she always is with a black lover. Always. I regret having acted so rashly and so thoughtlessly and so poorly. If I'd stayed she and I would still be together. Its not her fault we arent together. The fault is mine. I don't ever look at the past and think what I could have done different. Except for this. I would give anything to change what I did when the baby came.

That is surely an amazing story. I am sorry for the loss and anguish you have endured over a rash impulsive decision. Many men would have reacted the same way you did.I believe the new husband of the 19 year old white female, who posted before you, is going to be equally shocked, if he finds his new wife pregnant by some black guy.Its noble that you have tried to reconnect with the woman.But at this point,it does not seem that you will ever have a chance. The best step is to find another woman and move on.Thanks for sharing n best of luck.

I agree with you. That young girl is going to create havoc. If she hasn't already started. She seemed really hungry at the start. But then she seemed ravenous. I think what you told her is the total total total truth. She's going to get addicted to that black man and that black **. She's going to start having his babies. And she won't ever be able to stop. I think her fiancé/husband is history. Your right about my ex too. I would give anything to have her back. But shes the same as that young girl you wrote to. Addicted. Can't quit it.

yes i think you guys are right about that young girl. addicted is the right word and your both right. my wife started sort of the same way the girl is starting and once she started up with the black guys she was totally addicted.

I feel the same. If she gets on the black guy, the fiancé is done. Actually, even if she doesn't get on this particular black, her curiosity is gonna get the best of her and eventually.......she gonna go black. And not come back. Yep, he's done.

You know,sometimes relationships are like fishing..you hook up a good one and bring it out of water.While unhooking it,it wiggles in a certain way and gets out of your grip and drops in the water.No matter what you do,you really never catch the same fish again.Even when you catch a similar one,the feeling is never the same.You always keep thinking about the one that got away.** is addictive to most women.Black **,from my observations,it very addictive and fascinating to most white women-a beautiful thing.

I could very well be proven wrong, but I think a girl that young and that hot and that ** is going to end up keeping BOTH men. They'll wind up being addicted to HER.

I am 19swf engaged to be married to a swm at the end of June. I've never been had by a black man before but OMG after reading this I feel like I need to find out what I been missing all this time! Also......a secret fantasy started up in me while I was reading this.....that I would go out and get impregnated in the next week or two by a black man and then I would walk down the aisle with his baby in me and my fiancé/husband wouldn't know until the birth. Am I sick for thinking that? I don't know, I just know it makes me hot.

Congratulations on your upcoming wedding.You are taking a very big risk by thinking of wanting to be impregnated by a black guy while marrying a white one. For sure,you are guaranteed to be married for 9 months at the most, if you carry on with your secret fantasy.I personally think you would be better off having ** with some black guy but not get pregnant. On the other hand,know that you could get hooked and develop an insatiable appetite for black men for the rest of your life. You might as well drop the white guy and marry a black one once you find a good one.But if you absolutely feel that you must be knocked up by a black guy,just let me know and I would make your dreams come true before your wedding day.

It really feels like this idea is taking me over. I went to mass last night with my fiancé and my parents, and we sat behind this black man sitting with his wife and children, and I was fantasizing about him the whole time to the point that I was soaking my **. When we got up to leave, his wife started talking to someone in front of her and my fiancé was talking to someone next to us, and when the black guy turned around I almost just said out loud 'God, ** me'. I didn't say nothing, but somehow I think he knew what I was thinking, because he smiled this real ** smile. Then he asked me if I was going to this volunteer thing on Tuesday nite they announced at the end of mass and even though I didn't know what it was I said yes and he said he was too but his wife wasn't, so I think he really did know my heart. So I looked it up online and I'm going to go on Tuesday and see what happens. Nothing may happen but I'm going anyway and see. I've been pumped up the whole time since last night. I can't wait to see him. It's crazy I know. I'm ** engaged! But it's like I don't even care as much about my wedding as I care about this man I've only seen a few times and don't even know his name! I guess I'm sick.

That is so ** and **,lol. You are sure being possessed by black ** and you will probably never get over it;you sound like you are in for good( you are not sick,that is normal,believe it or not).Be careful with the married guy though.
Please post here as soon as you get back from the event.I am sure many of us would like to hear whatever happened. I hope your dreams come true.You are only 19 and you need to experience many things yet,including sexual ones, before you get married.I married my first wife at 20,we had 2 kids then. One day she told me I married her too young and she had not yet experienced life.We ended up divorcing and I was given custody of two daughters.To me,you sound too young to get married..you need to explore life and yourself more yet.
Best of luck and have fun.

Well, it happened. He came to thevolunteer event that Tuesday night. He met me outside of the biulding and said he knew what I was there for and it was him and not to be a vollunter. I said he was right (since he was) but I told him I wanted more than that and then I told him what I told you.....that I wanted him to knock me up in time for my wedding so I could walk down the isle with his baby in me without my husband to be knowing nothing about it. That shocked him and he admitted it, and he said it turned him on more than anything. and then he said it was the sexiest thing he had ever heard and it would be the sexest thing he ever did. But he said he wanted to do that. And so we left without ever going inside the building to the meeting and he took me and ** me like no man ever ** me before. It was the best thing in my life. Ever. We met again every night the rest of the week and almost the entire weekend and we ** and ** like wild ** animals. After the weekend he said I have the best ** ever and he didn't want to share it with another man, expesially any white man. I admitted I felt the same exact way. The next day I broke up with my fiancé and called off the wedding. He was hurt and my parents were ** but I didn't care even a little. It was the easiest decision I ever made. My man and me are making plans now and I'm going to belong to him totally. I finally feel like my life makes sense for the first time in my life. He makes me make sense. I am for him now. Even though my ex wants me back he cant have me. Not ever.

white women and girls are so much nastier than black females and they go for wilder stuff so i think you will have luck getting a white chick to get off the birthcontrol and get on the meat.

I am hoping to meet one nasty one as you put it. Thanks much.