I see things
I am about to lose my mind. I hate it. My parents don't take me seriously and I can't take it anymore.
I've been suffering from horrible, terrifying hallucinations for about 6 years now. I am 17. I'm scared to tell them my most horrifying ones. I tried to commit suicide when I was 13 years old because of it. Then I tried a year later. The last time I tried was last year. Anyway, most of them are just auditory, but recently I had a horrible visual hallucination. It was night time and my room was pitch black. I looked at it for the longest time, not able to move. It looked like a person in the dark, but I couldn't really tell. It was scary though and I was close to screaming. While I was having it, the most worst feeling came over me. It hasn't gone away yet. I don't know how to explain it.
I'm going to a therapist, but I'm not on medication. I don't really like him either. He's very weird.
I just can't take this anymore though. It's very stressful and terrifying.
I also have nightmares.
One more thing before I finish this confession, ever since I was little I have NEVER had a good dream.
I would always have nightmares and I would wake up numb because of how scared I was. My face would be numb from panicking and I would feel frozen.
Anyway, that is my confession. I feel better now at least until another hallucination ruins my day.