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They said my name in Prayer
I do not believe in god. I have nothing against him or the people who believe in him. I am fourteen and I have known I don't believe and that I have to hid it since I was seven. my grandma is a high believer in Jesus and god and so is my friend and her family and if she ever told her parents I don't believe in god then I wouldn't be able to hang out with her anymore. Recently I suspected that my parents were catching on and they were acting different around me so I started to go to extra church things instead of just Sundays. the youth group I went to tonight said my name during prayer, thanking god for bringing me to them, I almost left the building right then. I stiffened noticeably and I bit my lip, they expect me to say prayer next week and I am panicking, I keep thinking about what I'm supposed to say and I am terrified that I will mess up and they will realize that I shouldn't be in the church or worse they will try to 'save' me.
I am a Satanist (not TST!) and I used to get seriously butthurt over ** like my parents friends praying for my soul. Now that I have grown in my path after years of treading it, I just laugh at that crappolla!
Have you ever heard of Religious Trauma Disorder
(RTS)? It is a form of PTSD that centers on spiritual abuse and there is absolutely no shame in talking to a professional about it. I did.
I don't understand why your being a fake and yes anyone who is a fake will be found out .
Why not be honest with your parents and tell them why you feel the way
you do .
God loves you and I am not sure why you have turned your back on him ?
If u can talk to your pastor ask him for help .
Did you ever stop to consider the fact that his parents might put him through the wall for that kind of honesty!? Or is it that xtians like yourself don't care (and might even think it's a good thing!).
The best thing that I ever did was turning my back on your "god". As in a 360 degree turn away from your impotent, bloodthirsty god over to the guy that you said was my enemy. Funny how my "enemy" never once had his followers take a switch to me for saying that I didn't believe in him! Maybe that's why I do.
HAIL SATAN and ** YOU!
All these religions are based on belief only. If someone feels better believing they shouldn't pressure others into accepting their unfounded "beliefs." Nobody has all the answers to the here and the hereafter. If a persons thinks he does, he's deluding himself. Despite all the claims of after worlds with rewards or punishments, death may be nothing more than a dreamless sleep. This is what stops me from believing in a personal loving god: Would a loving god allow children to be murdered, tortured, and abused all over the world? Would he allow those innocents to be kidnapped into slavery across the planet? I don't think so. I think something might be controlling the cosmos, but I don't see it as a personal god who knows your very thoughts or puts you through tests or always works in your best interests. There was no personal loving god for all the innocent children who died at the hands of sociopathic monsters.
What they did was totally not cool. They were essentially shaming you into becoming a believer. That is a decision each person must come to on their own terms. I've been through very similar experiences as you. Once I was asked to say a prayer because I was suspected of being a non-believer. I simply said, "No, thank you." It seems you have made your own decision, and I applaud that. I am an atheist. In fact, I am vice president of our local atheist group. If you have made up your mind that you are an atheist or agnostic, I would suggest you contact a local atheist/humanist/free thought group for support and friendship. Due to your age, you may have to wait a few more years in order to join and participate. But you may be able to communicate with them through Facebook. Many such groups are also heavily involved in charitable projects. And contrary to the perception of most believers about non-theistic groups, we are NOT out to recruit anyone. We just want to be there for people who are of similar non-religious mindset to provide support, comfort, and community for them. Many of our members have been ostracized from their families because of their beliefs. Don't let anyone put you down because of yours. You can indeed be good without a god. Good luck with your journey through non-theism. It's not always an easy road, but with support and friendship, I guarantee you it does get better. Check out Youtube for videos by Hemant Mehta, also known as the Friendly Atheist. You might find some of his advice useful in your experiences. Once again, good luck with your situation. I wish you nothing but the best!