I allow my child to smoke

Belinda,
I went to check on Lola, but only for about an hour. Just came home.
You're correct. I believe it was you who suggested Lola was ready for s*x
Not to worry though. Who could have foreseen?
I understand your feelings about piercings. Lola had no choice. Phillip's
mom ordered the piercing and tattooing. Lola had begun to develop a nice
bosom and she has beautiful puffy, erect ** and the piercings do look
lovely. I just hope Phillip's mom doesn't tattoo her like a billboard.
I did some rough calculations. Lola will turn ten years old in early May.
Based on the number of "johns" she's serviced over the past few days, that I witnessed, in the seven weeks until her birthday, given an average of fifteen "johns" per night, Lola will have serviced more than 750 men. At an average of fifty dollars ( just guessing ) per "john", Lola would have made Phillip's mom
about $37,500.00 dollars. You can see how lucrative this business is. And now with Lola added, they have about nine girls on the street.
Just something to ponder. No wonder they wanted Lola.
Talk later.
Cate.

Cate....
this is continued

Another thing too , these kids have mums and dads who are our friends and friends of our friends. They come to our ** pool dinner parties with their kids and no adult is seen staring at my kids although they can't help but look at them naked. I think I was the one who suggested to you that Lola is ready for ** a couple of years ago.

To be open with you, Ren and Lilly envy Lola's prostitution and as I've said, they enjoy ** and want to be paid for it. They have often talked about having piercings but I've always forbidden it until yesterday. This IS in light of Lola's piercings. I am now allowing it because I'm going to home school them from Easter. I refuse to allow them to have their ** pierced, I was concerned about the private school where the twins attend. It's an all girl's school and rather strict. They were already reprimanded for having a tattoo. They have the word "family" in old English writing tattooed from their wrist of their right arm to their elbow. Ren forged my signature and had them done at a tattoo parlour "Skin Deep" This was after i declined them to have tattoos. They want more but I think too many tattoos cheapen a girl's looks.

Belinda

Cate,
As I say, you are powerless to do anything about this situation. I cannot think badly of you. I do have hatred for Phillip's mother, Phillip and his brother for taking Lola away from you and using her and threatening you. The lies and deceit that came about is too much to bare. It is not your choice, abandonment is not a word you should use here.

As for allowing my girls to have a ** session on Saturday night, you may recall through times when we were in contact more frequently I held pre-teen or gies at my place for my kids, nothing has changed. I was ridiculed by many for allowing it.

Nothing has changed, it's that they're older and a few more have joined in and some are older than Ren and Lilly. These girls go to their school and are in higher classes. As a result there will be older guys too but it's essential an or gy.

Belinda

Belinda,
You are so correct! I'm taking your advice. What is going to happen is going to
happen.
Over the last few nights, I've watched Lola take more than fifty men upstairs.
And this is a nine year old girl! If nothing, I'm simply amazed at her stamina.
Please don't think badly of me. No matter, I am not abandoning Lola. I will still
occasionally check on her. She is still my daughter.
Now to another question I have for you.
I see what the girls are planning for Saturday and that's fine. My question is
are you planning to permit the girls to go where they really want to go with
this? And, secondly, has what happened to Lola given them ideas of what
they want to do? I'm just curious.
And remember, pierce the hood - not the **!
Cate.

Cate,
I didn't make myself clear. It is paramount you sit back and allow what's going to happen, let happen without being anywhere near the venue, no matter how difficult that is for you. You can't afford to jeapodise safety.

It's my every intertion to allow Ren and Lilly to have their clito rous pierced and they are looking forward to it. That will be done tomorrow after school. Oksana wants her's done as well. When I drop her off, I'll talk to her mum about it. Oksana is a very sweet girl but has learnt so much about things from Ren and Lilly. I don't know if it's a good thing but she talks with me about relationships and other matters more than she does with her own mother.

I will take your advice about the manner in which the piercings will be conducted on board. Ren has a crude approach to all of this, telling me she can't wait until they have c unts pierced because it will make her c unt feel so good when she's being ** but she wants to be free of pain before Saturday night so she is able to enjoy herself. Text messages went out this morning to ten girls and 12 guys to advise there's all night ** at our place on Saturday night and everyone is most welcome to stay overnight.
Belinda

Anything on the internet is forevvvveeer.

How do I find it

How can I find the video of Ren and Lilly smoking

Belinda,
One thing I forgot.
When Phillip's mom had Lola pierced, she did her ** with delicate rings
and her ** was pierced through the clitoral hood - not the ** itself.
Much less painful. Just a suggestion if you're going to allow Lily and Ren to
get their ** pierced.
Keep me posted.
Cate.

Belinda,
Glad you're back
So if I read you correctly, it would be OK to back off from Lola's situation and
give my mind a rest, especially since I can't do anything.
I keep going back to what Phillip's mom said. They have an investment in
Lola and plenty of time to recoup their investment. In point of fact - years.
From what I have observed, she is already producing well. I also think the
real money is not on the street, but in the videos they intend to produce.
And the kinkier, the better.
Anyway, I am going to dial back my concerns, otherwise I'll just make myself
crazy. I've lost my daughter, but she seems (relatively) safe, so long as she's useful and profitable.
It's Saturday evening, so I'll make one last trip to see her.
Write back.
Cate.

Cate,
It's f ucking sickening. Ren Lilly made a video early last year. Oksana was in it. The video was headed "eleven year old twin girls smoking" they said they wanted to see how many hits they would get. I'd imagine they'd get hundreds of thousands if left for any length of time. Anyway I made them delete it however I understand that although it was deleted, it leaves a fingerprint. I was f ucking mad at them. Prospective employers and university chancellors would pick this out in no time.
Belinda

Cate,
I have no issues with black men in general. When I was in teachers college I accepted a lift home with another student. He was so good looking and so black that he looked purple/dark blue if you know what I mean. I would have had ** with him but he turned me off because he picked his nose most of the way to my place. Nonetheless we kissed when he dropped me off and I must admit it stirred my loins somewhat.

You have a good memory of Lola enjoying herself after you saw her yesterday and as you said "she put a smile on your face". She left you with that happiness so I think you should put your mind at rest by not upsetting you further. There maybe something further down the track that you see that maybe more difficult to accept.

Although I'm going to allow the kids to have their fun on Saturday night, don't hesitate to contact me if you feel a need. In fact keep in contact.

I'm allowing Ren and Lilly to get rings in their clitorous. It's the least I can do and I can't see that a worry but they want one inserted a bit further up so it shows the outline of ring from their p#ssy in their bikini. This will be more revealing when their bikini bottoms are wet.

I'm taking them and their Russian friend, Oskana out to lunch today. Her mum and I have become very close friends. It wasn't all that long ago that Oksana used to come to our place every afternoon to have a few cigarettes with my girls until I told her mum she smokes and she should allow her. Since then she has allowed Oksana to drink and have ** and Oksana will be staying over at our place on Saturday night.
Belinda

Belinda,
Just a clarification about Lola.
She always did prefer Black males for sexual partners. When she was in school,
she would never accept the attention of or dates from whites. She was not being reverse racist, because she's white. It was just a personal preference.
With what she's being required to do now however, she must accept any man
who pays. On the street though, it seems as most of her "johns" are Black, which would make her situation more tolerable to her.
Cate.

Belinda,
It's mid-morning here, and I did manage to get some decent sleep.
What made me smile, was two young boys being introduced to ** with a
pretty young girl, close in age, who knows what she's doing. I'm sure she did
things far beyond what they would have expected. The father stayed downstairs and talked with Phillip for a while, and then went into the bar and waited for his sons. I can hardly imagine the delight of these boys with a girl
like Lola.
I have been toying with a decision, a thought really, and I'd like your opinion.
Please get back to me with your thoughts. and please, just hear me out.
Parentally and legally, I no longer have control of my daughter. Legally, she belongs to Phillip's mom through the authority of the child welfare agency. Whatever she does with Lola is completely beyond anything I can respond to or take legal action against. At this point, I have no legal rights ( the court calls it
"standing".), I have no standing to bring any counter action against them. In
other words, I can't even go to court and make a complaint - even with evidence. I know, it's ** up, but so is our judicial system.
I am wondering if I would be better to just accept the situation, and not follow Lola at night. There's nothing I can do. Doing this every night is going to frazzle
me, and most important of all, I may be putting Lola in serious jeopardy if
I'm seen. Maybe I should just back off.
Let me know your opinion. I am NOT abandoning my daughter. I am simply
trying to insure her safety, by removing myself from the scene to a greater
degree.
Get back please.
Cate.

Cate,
Don't concern yourself too much with what Lola might be doing. Sure you will always have the thought of what Phillip's mother told you she'll be doing, ** with animals and selling videos of her in explicit ** acts with groups and maybe women. But it's so unfortunate and corrupt that you are powerless to protect your own daughter.
Belinda

Cate and Belinda,
You are extraordinary mothers. Cate for accepting the situation beyond her control with Lola and Belinda for the way she is getting an alternative method for Ren and Lilly to ** other than them becoming prostitutes.

Belinda if there was nil danger to Ren and ** in the big wide world, would you allow them to prostitute themselves?
Ian

Ian,
This is hypothetical. There is a danger of harm to Ren and Lilly should they become prostitutes. I'd need to find someone to look after them. The possibility of police and authorities finding out about their activity is very real. We'd have to leave our neighbourhood for them to prostitute themselves for this to happen. If all that was in order, then I'd consider Ren and Lilly becoming prostitutes. I've said a few times I'd prefer them to wait until they are 18.
Belinda

Cate,

It may be that Lola refers black men that made you smile and knowing she was safe in that the guys she were with were minors. I'm arguing with my girls, they still want to prostitute themselves however thankfully they're aware of the dangers involved. They made comment that I mentioned to you that I hope Lola is still enjoying the experience of prostituting herself. I had previously explained to them that Lola is forced to have s ex so i hope she's safe and is enjoying it. I went on to say that it would be disastrous if she were forced into it and didn't enjoy it. I further said, Lola doesn't have a choice.

What I'm doing for them next Saturday night is allowing them the house so they can have girls and guys over and Rick and I will take a hotel room in the city. My sister will look after the babies for me.

It will be the same group of Ren and Lilly's friends who are the kids of our friends who come to our skinny dipping pool dinner parties. I will not provide them with alcohol or cigarettes. The kids can bring their own and I'll lock our liquor cabinet. I'll leave a bottle of Jim Beam and a few bottles of coke out for Ren and Lilly. The kids can stay over and have s ex throughout the night if they want.

Ren and Lilly are not totally satisfied by this arrangement but those are my rules. I get the impression that I'm not going to hear the end of them wanting to be prostitutes and they're wearing me thin.

Belinda

Belinda,
I'm tired, but almost too over-tired to sleep. I had a couple of scotches, but
they aren't helping. It's almost midnight.
I just can't get my head around the number of men Lola must be servicing.
And to think, it was just a short time ago she was a fourth grader in school.
Now she's a prostitute with who knows how many men she's had to sleep
with.
One thing I saw tonight that made me smile. A good looking black man
arrived with his two young, twin sons (age 11 or 12 maybe ?) He talked to
Phillip and then paid him. Phillip called Lola over and she took both boys upstairs. I think the dad was getting his boys some experience with a pretty young white girl, who could introduce them to the world of **. They were upstairs for nearly an hour. When the boys came down, the dad gave Phillip some more cash. In a way, it was kind of sweet. I hope Lola was nice to them.
Anyway, enough for tonight.
Cate.

Cate,
Thank you for your kind words. The mind boggles as to the amount Lola is making for these hangers-on tonight. As a general guide, I wonder what the rate is for a session. That would by large, depend upon the type of service provided. I hope for her sake she's still enjoying the experience. Don't be concerned how much she smokes, let's hope she can cope with all this without drugs.
Have yourself a night cap now and try to sleep tight.

I am feeling for you and I wrote my first message to you at about 1am today.
Belinda