I allow my child to smoke

Belinda,
I just arrived home a bit ago. I spent over six hours watching Lola walk her stroll.
It's Friday night, and the bars were especially busy. The working girls didn't
even have to compete for the men's attention.
In that six hours, I watched Lola ** seventeen men to the room upstairs.
When I left, she was still walking the block.
By the way, I didn't take anything you wrote badly. We're all good and I find your responses very reassuring and in a way, cathartic.
Write when you can.
Cate.

Belinda and Cate,
Your girls would looking fucken amazing with a black horse ** up their ** and in their **.

Belinda you should let your ** be prostitutes.

** OFF YOU **.

Thank you for getting stuck into this f ucking lowlife who wants Ren, Lola and I to f uck a horse c ock. He or she is a c unt and notice that he or she hasn't put a name to the post. F ucking coward.
Lilly.

Here he is, shouting from the f ucking roof top but still getting a f ucking **.
Oskana

Cate,
I should have said that you'd be better off with a night cap each night to make you sleep. I don't mean to say you should get wasted up to your eyeballs. I certainly don't want you to go a doctor who will only prescribe drugs, like Xanax that will f uck you up. Doctors treat everything with drugs, that's the only way they know.

Another thing I want to get straight with you but I never had the chance because we were taking about more serious matters. That is Ren said, I said she and Lily smoke too much. I have never said such words and I had a go about that to her. I said you girls are smoking more than ever so if you need more cigarettes let me know. I have since bought them a carton of 10 packs per week between them. I wouldn't be too concerned if Lola is smoking more, either she needs it de-stress or needs more cigarettes for the enjoyment.

It just occurred to me that I hope you parked your car out of sight when you met up with Phillip's mother yesterday and not give her an opportunity to notice your new license plates. The same i think should apply when you park your vehicle at home, keep it in the garage at all times.

I think if I were in your shoes, I'd risk going to jail in order to see my kids. This would not be a wise move on part though but the b itch has got me so f ucking frustrated with her antics and control. She'd give her right arm to see you cleaning out Lola's room and putting her belongings into storage.
Belinda

Belinda,
Thanks. I really appreciate the support.
After my meeting yesterday, I went to the block to check on Lola. She looked to be doing OK. I noticed she's smoking a lot more and every so often she'd go into the bar by where she works. I think she uses the toilet. She never leaves the street though, unless it's with a "john", when she goes upstairs. She appears to be doing very well, and she gets a lot of attention. Her youth and sleazy manner of dress is a real attention getter. She actually looks to be having fun. Of course, this is a whole new life for her. Perhaps, in time, the newness will wear off. I can't even imagine how many men she's already been with. At this point, I'm thinking at least dozens.
I've kind of gone from numb to acceptance. I have no choice, but to accept. I'm not going drown my sorrows in booze or drugs. I'll be going out every evening for a while, just to keep tabs on her, and keep notice of her physical appearance.
By the way, that was a good idea to change my license plates. I feel a little more anonymous now.
For the rest of the day, I think I'll occupy my time, cleaning out Lola's room and packing what's left of her things for storage. I doubt she'll ever use them again. Then I'll go to the block. By the way, I purchased a pair of high - quality binoculars so I can observe from a greater distance with greater clarity.
As far as Phillip's mom, she wants me to know what's in the works for Lola's future. It's a form of control and intimidation. And it very effective.
I'll check back later.
Cate.

Care,
Although this is the reality of Phillip's mums plan it is appalling that she should tell you this. I can just imagine Ren and Lilly dressing in the same fashion and they are beautiful too but it would devastate me to see them walking a man into room to have **. Let alone to be exploited by outsiders for monies worth . The thought of them having s ex with animals sickens me to them stomach. In a way, I'm pleased that you're bringing this to my attention because the twins read these posts and it should heed as a warning to them that prostitution isn't all fun and games.

They are a low-down family and it'd be a sad enditement for me to see my daughters in despicable s ex acts all over the Internet.

It's unnerving knowing the b itch has been to child welfare agencies telling lies about you and has the hide to treat you and Lola like this.

Knowing that you are powerless to do anything about this situation tears at my heart strings for you.

Look after yourself Cate but if I were in your position I'd probably resort to drinking but I know that won't help. I know that it will only make me slide into depression but I think I'd need something to help me cope.
Belinda

Belinda,
After the attorney and stenographer left the proceedings, Phillips mom asked me to stay a bit so we could talk. I don't know what she thought we had to discuss, but I stayed and mostly listened.
First, she again warned me about interfering in any manner. I assured her I would not. I don't wish to put Lola in danger, and now she has not only child welfare on her side, but the courts as well, which also puts me in jeopardy.
What she then told me was her final dig to show me, she was in charge of Lola and her future.
She said Lola would of course be a prostitute. But Lola would also be filmed in videos to be produced and sold. These videos would involve men, and women, single and multiple partners, as well as ** with various types of animals.
Lola could also be rented out for money, to other gangs or pimps, for whatever use was agreed upon. She indicated that Lola's youth would mean years of work in the ** industry, some of it in the most degrading situations one could imagine.
She is an unbelievably crude woman. She said it again, Lola's pu**sy is going
to make me a fortune.
She also indicated that she owns some building down on the block and that's where the girls are able to conduct business, in the rooms over or adjacent to the bars and clubs. The money involved in this type of operation must be incredible.
I said, I think I've heard enough. At that point, I left in tears.
From there, I drove to the block, and sure enough, there was Lola and some of the other girls working, under watchful eyes. I must admit, she looks
beautiful - even as a ** - and must be very appealing to men. Forgive me for saying this - I do hope she does well, because her safety depends on it.
I'm going to stop now. I am just too exhausted, physically and mentally.
Write when you can.
Cate.

Cate,
I love the way Lola is dressing for her new venture and I'm pleased she's enjoying it so much. She'd look so hot smoking in her skimpy outfits and picking up men. So s exy. We just want her to be safe. As Ren said Lilly and I'd like to do what she's doing but we're too afraid at this stage. Plus we don't like the idea of not being able to be choosy with men. I'd hate to service drunks and blokes off their face with drugs all night.
Lilly

Lily,
When I Lola left me, after the meeting, she was wearing a micro skirt and skimpy top of metallic mesh that was almost totally sheer. She wore heeled sandals and nothing else. You could even see her piercings under the material. Yes, she was beautiful and very appealing.
Later, when I went to the block to see where she was working, she made quite a site walking her stroll and trying to acquire customers.
I do hope she does well.
Cate.

Cate,
I can't believe the judicial system is so corrupt in Arizona.

Rick could never coerce a claimant to sign a statement in regards to insurance fraud in New South Wales.

Do you have copies of everything you signed before the attorney?

Is there any provision for you to see Lola?

How often if any outlined, is Lola able to communicate with you by phone.

Belinda.

Belinda,
I was given copies of the documents as pertained to me. Interestingly, the order, which has to be signed by a judge, had already been signed by the judge when it was handed to me for my signature.
If Lola calls me, I guess it's OK. I cannot call or try to contact her under any circumstance.
The judicial system in this country is a joke. We incarcerate more people than even communist countries. And watch out if you're a minority.
I don't know if or when Lola will call - or ever call at all.
Cate.

Hi Cate,
School has just come out and we're dying for a cigarette and I'm reading your posts as we're sitting in a coffee shop. When Lilly and i first started to live with mum she told us never to lie to her and this will be an everlasting and loving and honest relationship. She told us to tell her the truth all the time no matter how much sh it we may get ourselves into. She said it's easier for her to knowing the truth than spending time unraveling lies. Never trust a liar she said, which makes me think I hope she won't mistreat Lola. I don't trust Phillip's mum because he lied about you.

We can't blame Lola for what's going on. I slept with Lilly last night and after we had s ex we talked for hours and we would love to prostitute ourselves right now but we're afraid because we're so young. We spoke with mum about it at the breakfast table again this morning and she reiterated that we wait until we're 18.

I hope you don't think it's weird that Lilly and I have s ex together. Mum has read a lot about it and said that twincest is quite common. Lilly and I love each dearly and mum said that ** is illegal and immoral, but most things we do are illegal already and she has no problem at all with us having s ex together.

What worries me too is that Lola is missing out on education and you are a very articulate lady and I think you'd be concerned about that.

Ren

Ren,
There's nothing wrong with sibling **.
As for your other desire, I think you should listen to Belinda. She has your best interest at heart. Being a prostitute is not all the glamour it's made out to be in the movies, and it can be dangerous.
Lola is in that world now. I can only hope that Phillip's mom will look after her until she's older and has time to grow into the life of a young prostitute.
Unfortunately my ability to help her has been removed and I cannot even have contact with her.
Cate.

Lola's getting a different type of education.

Belinda,
Read the all the posts carefully.
Question 2 first: The tattoo on the nape of her neck is not a word. It's a Chinese character that means "c*nt". Look it up online. I did when I got home.
Question1: This is a criminal conspiracy. It involves people like Phillip's mom, her sons, the private child welfare agency, people in power, people who run the system, attorneys, the judges and courts. There's big money involved and everyone gets their cut. Probably even the lowly stenographer.
I'll stop here and start a post with my conversation with Phillip's mom.
Cate.

Cate oh f uck I didn't read the two posts. "drunkenness?" "your mental state". Pardon my language here Cate but Phillip's mum is the c unt in all of this. What a conniving f ucken b itch.

I'm left speechless, I don't know what to say, I sympatize with you.

Belinda.

Cate,
There must have been a discussion.
Question 1: On what grounds did the child welfare agency to come up with to give custody of Lola to Phillip's mum, what f ucking bull sh it did Phillip's mum spin.
Question 2. What is the significance of having the word "c unt" tattooed on the nape of Lola's neck.
Belinda

Belinda,
Back to the meeting.
Argument and discussion were pointless. There was nothing to discuss.
I ended up signing the papers and giving legal custody of Lola to the child welfare agency. I was given my copies and my part was over. All of this took less than thirty minutes.
I got ready to leave and Phillip's mom told me to stay. I wasn't done yet.
Then the attorney gave another set of papers to Phillip's mom for her to sign and the deal was complete. The agency past legal foster care of Lola over to Phillip's mom. I just know that ** wanted to see my final humiliation.
Everything signed, notarized, sealed and delivered. And legal. Very legal.
The attorney and the stenographer left and That was that.
Phillip's mom asked if I would like to see Lola before I left. I said, of course and she motioned one of her boys to get Lola.
When Lola came in, I could see her lips had already been "plumped". She just said "hi" in very soft voice. I asked if she was OK and she just nodded. I could tell she was ready to go on the block. She was dressed in a very short see-through metallic skirt and crop-top and high heel sandals. Nothing else. Phillip's mom ordered Lola to show me her new tattoo. She bent her head forward and flipped her hair over. On the back of her neck was a Chinese character about the size of a large postage stamp. I asked what it stood for. Phillip's mom threw me an evil smile. It means "c*nt".
I hugged and kissed Lola goodbye and told her I would miss her. She just said she'd be OK and not to worry.
Phillip's mom then told her boy to get her out on the street.
Before I left I talked to Phillip's mom for a while. I relate that conversation in the next segment.
I left in a daze. Everything has been taken out of me.
I still plan to keep an eye on her. From a distance.
Cate.

Belinda,
I got home a bit ago. I'm still in shock. Like I was hit by truck.
I lost custody of Lola. I was forced to surrender all my parental rights, including any contact or visitation under penalty of judicial action by the court.
Here's what transpired:
I arrived for the meeting just before four. When I was shown in , there were two other people in attendance, along with Phillip's mom. The man was an attorney from a private child welfare agency. (You must understand, in this country, much of what used to administered by the government has been "privatized" to for-profit entities. Prisons and child welfare are two such examples.) The woman was a court stenographer, who recorded the proceeding. The meeting was also recorded.
I was given papers to sign, releasing Lola to the custody of the child welfare agency. The reasons for the action was my habitual drunkenness and mental instability. (none of this is true.) I was shown a number of sworn affidavits, made by persons, under oath, as to the evidence against me. I did not know any of these people. I said I would not sign. The attorney stated that if I did not sign, I would have to appear in court, with my attorney to contest the charges.
He assured me that this would be pointless. The judge would look at the charges and the evidence and would immediately rule against me. I looked at the stenographer and she just gave me a nod of assent. It was a fait accompli.
The deal was done and the fix was in. I lost the war before the first battle.
I'll start a new segment to I don't run out of room.
Back in a minute.
Cate.

Cate,
Oh sh it. I'd rather you meet her on common ground like a coffee shop. That way you can record the conversation. Try to record it anyway. And take photocopies of the B. C
Get back to me.
Belinda