I was not meant to be a parent.
I hate children. I have 3 children and I love them with all of my heart. We do things together, i feed and bathe them. They love me very much. I only had children because i got pregnant. None of them were planned. I am prone to blood clots so i can not take birth control. In my area you had to be 25 or have 3 children to get your tubes tied. So after my first child passed away from SIDS when i was 17 i tried to get my tubes tied and was turned down. I am pro life and couldn't live with myself if i adopted out my own flesh and blood (very selfish to some) but i couldn't imagine my child growing up with another family and spending their life asking why their birth mom didn't love them. I have 3 children. I promptly got my tubes tied during my csection and told the doctor if it didn't work i was coming for her. She denied me a tubal after my 2nd child because i was too young and 13 months after my 2nd child was born, my 3rd was born. I love my children and i tell/show them every single day. I don't wish them to be gone because i couldn't imagine my life without them. Now, if i was given a chance to start all over, i would choose not to have them. I don't have a life. We aren't social people. We don't have friends. Remember i hate children, so there are no play dates, no birthday parties. Only adults are allowed to attend my children's parties. I am lucky because my children are very well behaved. I do feel bad because i don't allow them to giggle, run or jump around, laugh or goof off. But it is the only way to keep my sanity. In conclusion, i need a vacation or a nanny!